Title: Who's a girl to choose?
Rating: M
Disclaimer: Do I look like Stephanie Meyers? (Looks around) OH! Right, you can't see me. No I am not Stephanie Meyers, so no I do not own Twilight or the characters.
Pairing: Leah/Jake and Leah/Edward and Jake/Angela (But not until way later.)
Summary: I went from being unwanted to being wanted by two different guys. To make matters worse, one is my alpha and bestfriend and the other is my mortal enemy, also my imprint. I love them both but I can't stomach the thought of hurting either of them. What's a girl to do? Who's a girl to choose?
AN: Ok so Krystle and I are working on a multi-chaptered story. She is helping me write it, and giving me ideas and such. She is such a big help when it comes to certain things. This will be a multi-chaptered story. It will have a lot of twists, so be prepared for the ride.
AN2: There is no Bella or Nessie. Bella never came to Forks; therefore she never married Edward and had Renesmee. Also at the start of this Leah and Jake are already wolves. Also Jacob and Leah are dating at the start of the story. Edward cannot read Leah's mind; it has something to do with the fact that she imprints on him. Also Jake is 17 and Leah 19.
Leah's POV:
I hated Jacob Black! Ok wait, maybe I didn't hate him, I was just really really angry with my boyfriend of 8 months. How dare he use his 'alpha' voice on me? Especially to make me do something he knew I didn't want to do. Why did he want me to suffer? I thought he loved me, or maybe him loving me was what caused the problem. He could be so insecure sometimes. I mean really, his jealousy just got to the point where I wanted to beat him to death with a rock.
One time, right after we starting dating, Embry had been stupid enough to make some perverted comment about me when he accidently saw me naked after I phased back into human form. Jacob had nearly killed his friend. I swear that Embry limped for a week straight. It served the weirdo right for thinking shit like that about me, but again, Jake didn't have to go spastic and almost kill him. It wasn't like I would ever have feelings for Embry. I shuttered, that just creeped me out thinking about it.
Anyways, back to what I was ranting about. I couldn't believe that he was making me go to Sam and Emily's wedding. Sam, the ex love of my life, and notice my use of the word ex love. I didn't love him anymore; I didn't really understand why I had ever loved him. Must have been a stupid teenager thing or something. You know how hormones can affect a teen body.
Why couldn't Jacob realize that I loved him? More than anything in this world, ok, that sounded really really corny, but it was true. When Jake had first started pursuing me, I blew him off. I had already had my heart broken once; I didn't want it to happen again. But the little bugger was persistent. He couldn't, or wouldn't take no for an answer.
At first he would just follow me around. Oh he didn't think I knew he followed me, but I wasn't stupid. When I was in Forks one day getting my hair done at the local salon, (yes amazingly Forks has a hairdresser.) he walked in, and gave me the old, 'Leah I didn't know you would be here' routine. Did he think I was a dumb blonde or something? There was no way he would go to a hairdresser, ever. I had had to roll my eyes at the sheer idiocity of his plan. It was sweet yes, but very stupid.
Next he started leaving me notes or flowers or even candy sometimes. He would leave them where he would know I would find them. In my room, my mother and brother helped him out with that one, (They were traitors I tell you.) in my car, which I should have been smart enough to lock the doors, sometimes even at school, before I had graduated that is. It was amazing the things that the little (well not little, he is taller than I am) guy came up with.
After that he constantly bugged me to go on a date, one date. I refused a million times, but he never ever gave up. Finally it got to the point where the rest of the pack was begging me to go on one date with him, just so that they could get peace and quiet for one night. So out of the kindness of my heart (ha yeah right) I agreed. I thought, what the hell go on one date, it will suck and tell him that you just didn't see him that way. It hadn't happened like that at all. No one really knows this, but I am a hopeless romantic, and Jake played on that. He took me to a carnival in Port Angeles. It was the first time I had smiled since Sam.
After that we were inseparable. He followed me around like a lovesick puppy. (No pun intended.) We had fun together, and eventually I fell in love with him. It didn't help that he was a little bit of a badboy, and that was such a turn on for me. Plus his looks didn't hurt either. He was only 17 yet he stood at a whopping 6'6, and it wasn't like I was short or anything, being 6 feet tall, but I was still a lot shorter than he was. Also I loved his long silky hair. It was gorgeous and so fun to tug on when I was mad. Plus his muscles were to die for! Sam didn't have muscles like that. Jacob had so many muscles, that his muscles had muscles.
Crap, I was losing my train of thought. I was mad at Jacob, so no thinking about his muscles, no matter how sexy I found them. I growled at myself, Leah get ahold of yourself girl. Your mad at him remember? He is making you go to Sam and Emily's wedding. It wasn't fair. I shouldn't have to go. Even if I didn't love Sam anymore, it still hurt me because he was having the fairytale ending that I had thought we would have.
I hated imprinting because it was barbaric. It wasn't fair, if you imprinted on someone it could ruin so many people's lives. Plus shouldn't you be able to choose who you love? I thought so. I never ever wanted to imprint. I never wanted Jake to imprint either. We were happy, we didn't need to imprint to be happy.
I sighed as I sat on a bench in the one park that Forks had. It was fairly empty. Only a guy and myself sitting across the way. No one in his or her right mind would be out in the rainy weather, but who said I was in my right mind? I was Leah Clearwater and I didn't do things like other people.
I sighed and then froze as I took in a deep breath. What on earth was that smell? It was like honey, only a tad bit sweeter. I traced the sent to the guy across the field. He wasn't human; I could that much right away. But he wasn't a wolf either. It shocked me to realize he was a vampire. Why didn't he smell bad like other vampires? Her father's doctor, Carlisle Cullen smelled terrible. Nice guy, horrible scent.
As I studied the man, er vampire I realized a few things. (I could see his every detail thanks to my wickedly good sight. Being a wolf did have its perks.) First I realized he must be one of the Cullen kids. Although calling them kids was kind of stupid considering they were older than anybody I knew was. His yellowish eyes, I guess Topaz was the right word clued me in. The Cullens didn't have the normal vampire red eyes. They drank off of animals, so their eyes were golden. I snorted as I remembered that they called themselves vegetarians. Just because they didn't eat people. That would be like me saying I was an herbivore if ate only humans. It was stupid, probably an inside joke or something. Vampires and there fucked up views of life, I shook my head.
The second thing that I noticed was that this must be Edward Cullen. I guessed this because Jacob and Sam knew the Cullens, as well as my weirdo brother. So I was often given details about them that I didn't really care about knowing. Seth was actually friends with them. How he became friends with them I would never know, nor would I ever care. Seth could do what he wanted, it didn't mean that I would ever play nice with leeches. No way in hell would that ever happen.
The last thing I noticed was something I wished I could change. I realized that no matter what I did, I could not take my eyes off of him. He was the only thing that mattered in this moment. His bronze hair, messy and sticking up all over the place was something that I wanted to run my hands through. His pale skin glowed in the soft light, and I wanted to see it in the sunlight. See it sparkle like I was told it did. Oh god, I grimaced, I had imprinted on him. I had imprinted on a leech! Eww gross! I felt like I needed to take a bath in bleach that's how dirty I felt. Life. Was. Hell. This couldn't possibly get any worse. And then I remember Jake. Great, why did I always end up being fate's bitch?
Edward's POV:
I watched as a mother and her son left the park when it started to rain. I on the other hand stayed on the bench I was sitting. The cold didn't affect me the way it did humans. I didn't really feel the cold. Besides, I liked the rain. It often times fit my mood. I didn't think myself a depressed person, but my family seemed to think I was. Just because I didn't have a mate and would be alone for the rest of eternity, that didn't mean I was depressed. I mean, how in the world can knowing that you will never find happiness be considered depressing?
My mother and father, also known as Dr. Carlisle Cullen and Esme, often worried about me being alone. When they didn't think I was listening I would often hear their thoughts about how even though they loved Emmet, they wish that I would have become mates with Rosalie. That was the primary reason Carlisle had turned her. But Edward could never love Rosalie as anything more than a sister. I just did not see her like that at all. She was absolutely everything I did not want in a woman. I considered her very vain and shallow, but again you couldn't fault her on that. It was the way she was raised. Edward just could never make himself love her. I tried, I really really had. I tried because I knew that Esme and Carlisle wanted it that way, but I just couldn't. I couldn't be in a room with her for more than five minutes without wanting to kill her.
Then they had hoped that I would mate with Alice, well they had hoped that before they realized Alice and Jasper were together. Edward had toyed with the idea for about ten seconds before he dismissed it. Alice was a sweet person, caring and loving, and slightly erratic, but he just didn't feel that connection towards her. They were bestfriends, siblings, but nothing more. Then his family tried to set him up with Tanya, but again, he saw Tanya as like Rosalie, and couldn't make himself want her no matter how hard he had tried. And he really had tried; he even forced himself to kiss her, thinking maybe, maybe if he felt something he could build on that. But he felt nothing, and in the end he had told her the truth. While she had been upset, she did understand. They just weren't right for each other.
There were others, from school who liked me. Angela, Lauren, Jessica Stanley being only a few. I grimaced, I could never settle for them and not just because they were human. While I could stand Angela, she was a sweet girl if not a bit too shy; I loathed Jessica and Lauren. They were the worst humans I have ever met, and I met a lot of humans. I had eaten murderers before, but I would rather spend time with a killer than Jessica or Lauren, yes they were that bad.
I knew that if I ever found a suitable mate, which I found highly doubtful, that I would know when I saw her. Emmet suggested lots of times that maybe I didn't like girls, and he learned very quickly not to do that again. I had told Lauren that he secretly wanted her, and she should just make a move on him. It was entertaining for me to see his reaction when she kissed him in the lunchroom. Rosalie had not been happy, but Jasper and Alice had found it hilarious.
I paused in my train of thought when a smell hit me. It smelled sort of like wet dog, only not as bad as wolves usually smelt. I thought maybe it was Jacob Black, Sam Uley, or Even Seth Clearwater, but I looked across the part to see a girl staring at me. I knew right away who she was, Leah Clearwater. She was the only female wolf ever known to exist. I had often seen her pictured in Seth's mind. Seth was a very close friend to me, and she was his sister. I had heard a lot about her. And trust me not all of it, in fact none of it was flattering.
She had a very bitchy and sarcastic attitude from what little Seth told me about her. Yet I suppose in a way she had a right to be that way. Her ex, Sam Uley had imprinted on her cousin and broken her heart. That would make anyone bitter. And put on top of that, that she was wolf, he couldn't blame her for being bitchy. If he were a dog, he would be grouchy to.
But from what Seth told me, she had been dating Jacob Black, I snarled as I thought about him, I did not like that boy. The few times I had met him, I couldn't stand him. Or his father Billy Black, because of how they judged my family just because they were vampires. I didn't think it right for mutts to think themselves better than us. Really what was so great about being a dog? Dogs sniffed each other's asses in greeting, and they licked themselves. But yet vampires where considered the animals. I rolled my eyes at that.
I let my eyes wonder over her form for a few minutes. She really was quite attractive for a dog, I suppose the technical term for her would be a bitch, she was a female dog after all, but I doubted that she would like it if she learned I had called her that. Leah Clearwater had smooth almost flawless, russet colored skin. It was a big difference from the pale skin my family had. Her eyes were a deep chocolate brown, not muddy like most people with brown eyes were. They were very beautiful and set off her features well. Her hair was black and wavy, not curly mind you but wavy, and it flowed down her back in elegant waves. She wasn't skinny like a lot of the girls you see nowadays. She didn't starve herself that was for sure. But I thought that her curves were quite dazzling. I liked a woman who wasn't so skinny that you had worry about breaking every time you touched her. I noticed that she had very long, slender legs that were sticking out of her shorts. I realized that because she was a wolf the cold didn't really affect her because she was unnaturally hot. I smirked, realizing how that sounded. Hey I was a man, a dead man yes, who would never age, but I wasn't blind. I could appreciate her attributes. I did feel dirty when I eyed her chest, I'm sorry I couldn't help it, I was curious. And I wasn't disappointed. While I wasn't really a breast kind of man, I was more an ass man, but anyways, her breasts weren't half-bad. They weren't huge, but they weren't so tiny you would mistake her for a man. They were probably a C cup if I had to guess, maybe a large B, hey I didn't go around judging the size of women's breasts for a living, so maybe I was off, so sue me. Overall she was very pretty.
I noticed that she grimaced at something, so curious I tried to read her mind, only to get nothing. And I don't mean her mind was blank, I mean I couldn't read her mind. Not anything, I didn't get one image or one word. I tried again; maybe I was off because she was a wolf. Still nothing, damnit, what the hell was going on? This had never ever happened to me before. I didn't understand it and I didn't like it. I really wanted to know what she was thinking, but I couldn't. This was absolutely and utterly frustrating.
I watched as she got up to leave, obviously angry about something. But I didn't know what because Leah Clearwater was some kind of mutant whose mind I couldn't read! I growled, but not before I glanced at her ass, hmm she had a really nice one. And the way she walked...Gah! What the hell was wrong with me? As I stood up to go home, I decided that next time I saw Seth, I would have to drill him with questions about Leah, I needed to know more about her. I didn't know why, but I just needed to. If I didn't figure her out it would drive me crazy. I hated mysteries, I always felt the need to solve them. She was one mystery I needed to solve. And I would, no matter what it took, I would uncover the truth about her, and why I was so fascinated with her. I mean it's not like I had anything better to spend my time doing.
TBC…
