Coming Back From The Kiss

Chapter 1 - A light in the darkness

Blackblackblacksoblackonlyblacksodarkonlydarkimscared...

I don't know where I am.

I don't know who I am.

I don't know what I am.

The world is dark, so dark and cold.

Sometimes the darkness lifts, and I catch a glimpse of grey, heavyfoggyterriblegrey, as though there is something... something... but it hurts, it hurts so much to... then the darkness slams back down, and it's all black.

Blackwithinblackwithinblackonlydarkonlycrushingonlyblack...

All of a sudden, there is a bright light, so bright it pierces through the darkness, blinding me, like a... like a... but then the wall of darkness slams back down, suffocating me, crushing me... I don't know how long it have been like this, whether it has ever been different; I don't know anything, except that it hurts so much. I feel there's a gap inside me, where something should be, but I don't know what, and every time I try to think about it...

Maybe I'm mad. I think that's what it is. Maybe it isn't like this at all, maybe there is something other than the dark... but there can't be, that's impossible... It's too dark, I don't like it...

Darkdarkdarkblackdarknessblackhelpme...

There is something, not the light, but the... almost the memory of it... the mem- blackdarknessnothingelse...

-but no, there was a light, I saw a light. I think. I don't know anymore, it's so hard to remember anything else other than the darkness. There's no hope, no hope anywhere, just darknessonlydarkness...

The light is back.

'Ow!' – Understatement. It is so bright it hurts so much like a memory it's a memory... I try to rise above the fog that is so hazy. I break a surface suddenly, and I scream out, because there are so many shadows, and it hurts so much, and I am aware. Aware for the first time in ages that it's not as I thought it was, that I have a body, and a mouth that screams and eyes that cry and a thousand and one pains and the one inside me is the biggest of all... dark, no not dark I see light- blackallblack –no, focus on the light, the bright golden light that is... that is...

I don't believe it...

It's a girl.

A/N: So this is my first fan fiction I've ever posted, I don't quite know where I'm going with this, but I'll get there :) Comments appreciated.