Say My Name

AN: This got deleted somehow. Written in 2003. //Song Lyrics//


On The Bebop

3:00 a.m.

//You want me to say your name, right?
Alright//

She sat alone in the dark room, the only light was that that radiated off the T.V. screen that blared before her. She watched out of insomnia, she wasn't really going to call and order a bunch of new age work out tapes. Her eyes were now fixed on the hanger door waiting for him to come back from his binge. She held the red fleece blanket around her tightly. She would wait for him every night he did this. Just sit there and wait. Alone in the dark. He never knew all the times she helped him to his bed. Kept him from passing out and falling flat on his face. Those memories of her softer side were all lost to lady liquor and a hangover.

//Say my name, say my name

if no one is around you

say baby I love you//

She looked away from the door for a moment to look at the T.V. She heard the sliding of metal and the squeak of the hinges. Her eyes flashed back to the door. It was him. He stood there leaning against the doorframe. She stood up quickly and walked over to the door. She grabbed his shoulders instinctively even though it was Spike and she knew he would never stumble or show his drunkenness in physical stupid ness. She brought him over to the couch to turn off the T.V. He slumped down as Faye turned off the T.V. When she turned around he was standing up looking down at her. She looked into his miss-matched eyes. There was something that was different, his eyes looked glazed over, in some kind of drunken trance. She felt his rough hands come to her pale face. He rubbed her cheeks tenderly before bringing his face to hers. He brushed his thin lips against her luscious red ones.

//if you ain't runnin' game

Say my name, say my name

you actin' kinda shady//

She didn't get it. Even if he were drunk Spike would never kiss her. What sick game was he playing? She hesitantly pushed him away. "Spike…?" She questioned him as he started kissing her jaw now.

"Baby shhhh." He whispered in a slurred tone.

//ain't callin' me baby

why the sudden change?//

'Why did he just change?' She wasn't protesting. She wanted him, she had always loved him. All she wanted from him was to know if she was the one he was seeing.

//Say my name, say my name

if no one is around you//

He kissed down her neck to her collarbone.

"Spike say my name…" She whispered in the night air as he let go of his hold on her. He kept his gaze on her as he pushed her down on the couch, "shhhh." He pressed his long lean fingers to her lips.

//say baby I love you

if you ain't runnin' game

Say my name, say my name

you actin' kinda shady

ain't callin' me baby

Better say my name!//

"Spike." She grabbed his face in her feminine hands. "Say my name." He didn't listen.

//Any other day I would call

you would say

"baby how's your day ?"

but today it ain't the same

every other word is

Uh Huh, Yea Okay,//

She gave in to her lust for a moment and slowly unbuttoned his shirt as he kissed her lips tenderly, not like him. 'Sweet to Faye?' She thought…… 'Or sweet to Julia?' She stopped and took her hands from his tight chest.

//could it be that you,

are at the crib with anotha lady?

If you took it there first if all

let me say, I am not the one

to sit around and be played

so prove your self to me,//

"Spike tell me who I am!" He stopped kissing her ear.

"My baby," he whispered seductively. She felt her heart melt hearing him call her that.

"Oh Spike," she whispered back.

//or the girl that you claim

why don't you say the thangs

that you said to me yesterday?//

"Why didn't you say that before?" she asked now kissing down his jaw.

//I know you say that I am assuming things//

She knew he saw her…

//Something's going down thats the way it seems

Shouldn't be the reason why you're acting strange

If nobody's holding you back from me

Cause I know how you usually do

When you say everything to me times two

Why can't you just tell the truth?//

Was it the truth? Did he see her? He unhooked her shirt kissing down the valley between her chest to her bellybutton. "Spike……" she moaned. "Spike, please……"

//If somebody's there then tell me who

Say my name, say my name//

"say my name……" she needed him to say it.

//if no one is around you

say baby I love you//

No one else was there to hear him tell her he loved her. She just wanted to hear those words. 'Faye Valentine I love you.' She wanted to hear it from him, those words artfully spoke from his lips.

//if you ain't runnin' game

Say my name, say my name

you actin' kinda shady

ain't callin' me baby

why the sudden change?//

"Baby shhhh……" he whispered as she ran her hands through his hair. Alcohol does strange things, you better enjoy it while you can Faye cause he'd never do this sober. A small taungting voice echoed in the back of her mind as he brought his face to hers while he slipped her top of her shoulders.

//Say my name, say my name

if no one is around you

say baby I love you

if you ain't runnin' game

Say my name, say my name

you actin' kinda shady

ain't callin' me baby

Better say my name!//

He kissed her passionately. Unlike anyone had ever kissed her before. She wanted to believe in her fantasy that he saw her, felt her, was kissing her.

//What is up with this?

Tell the truth,

who you with ?//

She stopped him for good, she was now dominant. He lay beneath her. "Spike tell the truth who are you with right now?"

//How would you like it if

I came over with my clique

Don't try to change it now

See you gotta bounce

When two seconds ago

you said you just got in the house.//

"I'm with my baby," he said sweetly kissing her lips rubbing her shoulders.

//It's hard to believe that you,

are at home, by yourself

when I just heard the voice

heard the voice of someone else.

Just this question

Why do you feel you gotta lie?//

"Spike."

She didn't want to stop him.

//Gettin' caught up in your game

when you can not say my name//

She let herself get caught up in his charm, her love for him, she let herself get caught up in her lust even though he never said her name.

//I know you say that I am assuming things//

She had assumed things

//Something's going down thats the way it seems

Shouldn't be the reason why you're acting strange//

She let herself forget something major was happening. He was drunk and she had lust for him since she had seen him.

//If nobody's holding you back from me

Cause I know how you usually do

When you say everything to me times two

Why can't you just tell the truth?

If somebody's there then tell me who//

She lay on the couch running her hands through his sweat-drenched hair. His arms were tightly wrapped around her waist, his head lay on her naked chest. The fleece blanket lay over them both waist down. She knew he was about to fall asleep. She loved him so much right then, more then she ever thought she could love another person.

//Say my name, say my name

if no one is around you

say baby I love you

if you ain't runnin' game

Say my name, say my name

you actin' kinda shady

ain't callin' me baby

why the sudden change?//

"Spike I love you…" She let her mask fall, she let it fall and shatter. She was exposed now. She watched him holding her breath.

//Say my name, say my name

if no one is around you

say baby I love you//

"I love you…" His words slurred together, 'say my name Spike!'

//if you ain't runnin' game//

She had never felt so insecure, 'Please don't be playing with me.'

//Say my name, say my name

you actin' kinda shady

ain't callin' me baby//

'Don't call me baby……' He was almost asleep. "You should know that…"

//Better say my name!//

"I love you…Julia…"


AN: Not my song. Destiny's Child, Say My Name.