A/N Hell, I don't know what I was thinking when I wrote this. Then by then end I was just pissed because I only had a whey protein bar instead of chocolate. On the plus side it's very Mello-ish. If you got that...was who I was talking about...or POV it was from...And for some odd reason this is going to con't, but from different people's POV...after they have died...Next one shall be Matty boy, then either L or Light... :) PS there is some voice talking to them...refered to as 'you'.....I honestly don't know what goes through my mind when I write.
I was told that I should never lose, and if I did don't lose the next time. I grew up with this thought in my head, and I refused to lose to anyone, or anything. I would do anything to win, which I guess is what I did.
What did you just say? Oh if I could go back what would I change? Well the first thing that I would change is Matt. I really am sad he died. But I also know that he grew up with the same ideals like me, and hated to lose almost as much as me. He would probably punch me if I said I wanted him to live after all this.
Another thing I would change would be Near. Well a few things to do with him, one, beat him many times rather than be beaten. You know the whole 'poor loser'? Yeah that's me. How many times have I imagined staring down at people in their sleep as I smash their head in with a baseball bat? Not that I did.
Right away. I liked to fuck with their minds first. Payback's a bitch, you know.
I know.
I am dead after all.
Secondly, if I was still alive, I would have liked to help Near sometimes. He doesn't see things the way I do, and if I had ever gotten over the whole 'I will beat you into the ground' faze (I am still in it, just so you know) before I died, we would have made a kick ass team. Solving the whole Kira case was thanks to me. So I am happy when Near still makes small chocolate offerings to me. That does make me feel a bit better. Until I realize I can't eat the chocolate.
Which brings me to the last thing I miss the most when I was alive, and it pisses me off thinking about it. CHOCOLATE. Why the fuck don't we have that as ghosts? It's not fair. Who ever came up with that fucking stupid idea will get a bullet to the head when they meet me. Who will be fucking pissed off from my lack of the chocolate because of the fucker who didn't make ghost chocolate. Damn, I'm getting excited thinking about blowing off this guy's head. Or girl's, you never know. I can't really think straight without my chocolate.
I can totally understand why Ryuk wanted fresh apples.
