Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Seed.


Author's Notes: KL, AC, DM, others. Kira is trying to win Lacus' heart again although he knows he and his beloved are on their own separate lives.

Actually I wrote this even before Destiny aired. Anyway, this is just a fan fiction so I guess every fan has the right to make his/her own side of the story. Here it goes.


Seeds of Time

Prologue

It had been a while. After the discriminating and dreadful battle between the ZAFT forces and the Earth Alliance, everything became alright. The naturals and coordinators have lived harmoniously together.

In earth, people continued with their normal lives again. At this point, Lady Cagalli Yula Attha-Zala has taken New Orb as its new representative. Now being the ruler of Orb, Cagalli's lifestyle is now completely different from before. She's busy with government affairs, international conventions but of course, still spends time with her husband Athrun Zala. She and Athrun have been married for almost two years and now, Cagalli is seven months pregnant.

Unlike his best friend Athrun's current bliss situation, Kira Yamato seemed to still have a "what-a-boring-routine" life. He's currently a computer engineer and an industrial college professor in New Orb. He lives now in his own apartment and he chose to live alone since he turned down the favor that his twin sister Cagalli had given him by residing in the palace with her and Athrun.

Cagalli and Athrun planned to have a grand baby shower party for their child-to-be since it will be their first born. Athrun only sent invitations to their close comrades during the last battle since it will be an exclusive occasion. Being last on the list, Athrun personally visited his best friend and brother-in-law, Kira.

"It's nice to see you again," Athrun entered the living room and gave his brother-in-law a hug.

Kira welcomed his best friend and responded, "Me too, Athrun. How's Cagalli?" He then motioned his guest to take a seat.

Athrun sat on the sofa, "She's fine. She's already in her seventh month."

"So I guess that I'll be having a niece or nephew," Kira supposed with moderate excitement.

The proud father-to-be smiled, "It's a boy."

"Oh, so I'll have a nephew," the brown head chuckled, "congratulations, Mr. Zala."

"Thanks."

"So, another handsome, brave and smart member of our family, I guess," the expecting uncle bragged.

Athrun followed, "You mean just like us?"

Kira laughed, "Perhaps, haha. Hmm… Isn't that great? You're going to be a father," he felt happy for his best friend.

"Yeah, she said that after this child, we'll have to wait for a couple of years for the next baby because she thinks she's losing her figure," his face turned to a frustrated expression, "I told Cagalli that she's still as pretty and sexy as ever that she won't worry too much about it. She still persisted that she is so I just gave in," the former Justice pilot explained with a bit of disappointment in his tone.

"On hiatus you say, you should know that she is such a stubborn woman," Kira said, contemplating on how aggressive and argumentative his twin sister can be as opposite to his own calm and submissive personality.

Athrun nodded, "Yes, I know that. Moreover, the reason I came here is that I want to personally invite you to a baby shower party for our child next week," he pulls out from the pocket of his white polo shirt a small white envelope and handed it to Kira, "Cagalli said that she missed you so much she wanted you there."

"Really?" the invited asked in surprise and puts the invitation on the center table.

"Positive. I also requested Murrue, Y-zak, Dearka and the others," Athrun enumerated the other expected visitors.

"So it's like a reunion," Kira assumed.

"Yeah, pretty much like that. And Lacus too."

The ex-Freedom pilot froze. For a long time he had never heard of this name, it seemed like it caused to once again unlock the concealed memories it goes with, "Lacus…" he frowned.

Athrun noticed his friend's sudden odd reactions, "Kira, What is it?" he asked with concern.

Kira twitched when he realized that Athrun had already detected his strange facial expression. "Oh yeah…" the next thing he knew is that Athrun's scrutinizing attitude when he sees something wrong with the situation. "ugh… can I go some other time?" he pleaded.

Athrun raised a brow, "Hey that's so disappointing to hear and Cagalli would be upset. Why?"

"I still have a lot of things to do," Kira articulated. Pretty lame, Yamato.

"Invalid excuse, Kira Yamato. Why wouldn't you go? Is it about Lacus?" Athrun posed suspicion on his friend's reason.

Kira looked down and didn't reply, "…"

"Hey buddy, I think there's nothing wrong if you and Lacus will be there," Athrun crossed his arm.

Kira trembled every time Lacus' name was mentioned. He wanted to stop Athrun torturing him or it seemed torture to him whenever Athrun speaks of her. He finally blurted out, "You just don't understand how I feel, Athrun. She is such a great person, and to tell you the truth, I still love her," Kira turned his head to his right to avoid Athrun's gaze, "But I think she does not love me anymore. She found someone else new and she's married and they already have a child. It'll be hard for me to see her again," Kira explained as on his lap he gripped very tightly his own hands.

"You mean that multi-billionaire casino and hotel magnate," Athrun spoke in a forlorn tone.

"Yes… I am no comparison to that guy. I let her go… I was such a fool, Athrun. It could have been me, but I don't know why I lost her…" Kira tried to remember the memory of him and Lacus. Suddenly, it flashed back into his mind.


(Flashback)

In the Orb mansion

"What should I say to her? Thank you for your care, Lacus… just it? Stupid Kira!"

Kira was in deep thought. Though it had been years after the war, he still had little hang-ups concerning what he had lost. However, most of his thinking is of what to say to Lacus. After the war, Kira hasn't been himself. He had been acting weird and so forth yet Lacus was very patient of helping him recover from after war trauma. They had their times together, he feels so fortunate for that, and Lacus too. Lacus nursed him back to health and he really wanted to thank her for that. And as of right now, he developed strong feelings for her, that she is the most important person to him, that if in case he would lose Lacus, he won't know what to do. Kira continued to have these reflections on his mind as that night, Lacus came to his room to visit him.

"Hi Kira. How are you today?" the pink haired princess greeted Kira in her usual gentle and soothing toned voice and sat down beside him.

Kira calmed down and smiled, "I'm fine, thanks for your concern, and also for tending my previous weak condition."

"It's my pleasure to take care of you, Kira. You are a nice person that's why I thought you deserved a good treatment," Lacus giggled at the sight of Kira's smile. She was so happy that Kira was able to put up a cheerful face again.

"Sure it's quite peaceful after all of those fighting," Kira wrapped his arms around his love interest. "I am so happy you're here with me, Lacus," he kissed her forehead lightly.

Lacus was surprised at Kira's sudden gestures to her. Kira has never been this affectionate to me before' she thought to herself. Then she finally spoke out of short trance, "Yes, peace after all. Kira?"

"What is it, Lacus?" the brown haired young man lovingly asked.

Lacus now regretted what she had said recently since she actually did not know what to ask of him, "Err… nothing," she felt embarrassed and resolved on leaving an unfinished conversation with Kira. "Well, just forget it. I have to go now. I'll see…" she stood up and started to walk out until a strong grip on her hand stopped her from going.

Kira, could not control himself anymore, he can't hold his rage and heat inside his body. Just then, Kira pulled her and made her face him and kissed her with so much ardor, he hugged her so tight he didn't want to let her go. Blushing, Lacus is innocent at this thing; she still kissed him back with equal passion that of him.

I can't believe what's happening now between us. Am I dreaming?' she thought. Lacus now deeply flushed, she broke away from him and asked him sheepishly, "What was that for?"

"I may have regained my physical health but there's still lacking. I need someone to help me cure my wounded inner self," Kira locked eyes with her and pleaded desperately, " I need someone to heal my scarred heart, my broken being and you're that person, Lacus. Help me, please…"

Are my ears deceiving me?' she deliberated with herself, No, I trust Kira.' Without further delay, Lacus gave her confession, "I love you Kira."

He only thought that he needed to be with her right now. Kira lost himself; he was lost in his passion of touching her. Then, Kira welcomed Lacus into his bed and made love to her all night.

(End of Flashback)


"Kira?" a male voice echoed through his head.

Kira snapped. "Huh?" He jolted back to reality as he realized that Athrun was waiting for him to say something. "Sorry… but I just don't know what happened. It was us together but I don't why she broke up with me. Now that she's with another guy, I felt devastated until now."

Athrun felt sorry for his best friend, "Yeah, I was glad that at that time, you and Lacus were finally with each other. Cagalli used to say that the both you looked good together."

"Maybe I wasn't worthy of her. Maybe she realized that she preferred someone who's not a dim-witted jackass or a loser like me. Maybe…" he closed his eyes and controlled himself not to cry, most especially in front of someone.

"Maybe she wasn't the one for you. If only things were a little bit different, like she was not yet married to that guy, you still have the chance to reconcile with her. I'm sorry but I think it's too late for you to pursue your feelings for her," Athrun explained the impossibility of hope. He really wanted to help Kira but he felt somehow guilty of not being able to do something about it.

"I…" Kira opened his eyes but still he didn't know what to say because he deep drowned in frustration.

Athrun shifted, "Now I think about it, you were pretty unlucky with the girls you love. First you lost Fllay then, Lacus."

Kira realized that his love life was a trash. But he was sure that between the two women, the former songstress of peace was the one that he truly desired. "Yeah, I did have feelings for Fllay before but I think it was not meant to be. It's Lacus whom I truly love."

"Oh, so you can't live fully since you lost the only love in your life because of some reason that you don't know," Athrun gave his hypothesis about Kira's situation.

"I'm afraid it could be some reason. What should I do?" Kira asked his friend's advice to help him out.

Athrun tried his best to empathize with Kira's feelings but he ran out of ideas on how to lend him a hand. "Come to the party. That's what you should do or else Cagalli will seriously get mad at you," He told him with warning on his statement.

Suddenly a little boy came inside the living room. He ran towards the two and joined with their discussion.

"Uncle Kira, can I go too?"

"Hey, who's this kid?" Athrun curiously inquired.

"This is Saddy, the son of my neighbor. Actually, he was entrusted to me since no one's gonna look after him because his parents were on a business trip overseas. Saddy, this is Athrun Zala, he is my best friend and brother-in-law," Kira introduced.

"Nice to meet you, Mr. Athrun Zala," Saddy greeted. "Can I also go to the party?" he followed his former query with excitement.

"Sure but I guess you still have to ask permission from your dad," Athrun chuckled. He was pleased with the child's demeanor.

Saddy hopped with joy, "Yippy! Uncle Kira, let's ask Daddy," he tugged Kira's shirt.

Kira scratched the back of his head, "Oh well… alright. I think I don't have any choice, do I? Athrun, we'll try to be there," he gave his word.

"Good. I'll be expecting to see you at the party," Athrun stood up and headed for the exit. "I should leave now; I still have to catch up with other appointments. So long, Saddy and don't forget what you said Kira,"

Saddy waved his hands, "Bye-bye."

"Yeah, I won't forget. Later, Athrun," Kira reassured his leaving visitor.

Athrun left as Saddy danced around and went out to the veranda. Meanwhile still sitting on the sofa, Kira stared blankly on the ceiling, trying to imagine his lost beloved's face, Lacus. After a while he gained a sight of her face.

"I don't want to go there because I think my presence would just give both of us a hard time. Please forgive me, but I really wanted to see you one more time, even though I will be hurt having a sight of you, with your husband, and… with your child. I tried to forget you but I just can't…"

With that, tears started to roll down on his eyes. He was so hurt that he cried even harder. Saddy at the same time heard what Kira spoke and found out that he cried. He returned to the living room and came near to Kira. Kira noticed him coming so he wiped the tears off his eyes.

Saddy was curious why his Uncle Kira had the expression of grief, "Uncle Kira, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" he sat beside his guardian.

"Oh. Saddy, it's nothing. There's just something on my eye," the elder tried to reason out.

"No you're crying. Your eyes are very red, and I heard you talking while sobbing. Who is Lacus?" Saddy protested.

Kira was surprised, "How did you know her?"

"I heard you talking about someone. Who is she? Is she beautiful?"

"Lacus?" Kira finally spoke her name. "She is my ex-girlfriend, and until now, I still love her. And yes, she is very beautiful, like an angel," he described her former love with pain marked in his voice for every word that he said.

"Then why are you crying?" Saddy asked again.

"I lost her because maybe I hurt her but I really don't know why. I don't know if you know what I'm saying… but all I know is that I love her," Kira felt uneasy talking his heart out to a merely five-year-old child.

"Maybe you should see and talk to her again then everything will be alright," Saddy said. It was more of a naïve advice from a little boy but he might be right.

"It will be difficult. You see, she already has a family of her own, and I bet that she's quite happy with them. Well, it's hard for you to understand this situation right now but you'll be able to when you're old enough," Kira patted Saddy's head.

"I'm sorry about that, Uncle. But I have a strong feeling that she still loves you too."

"Huh?"

It was a very frank but wise idea from a little kid. Kira was stunned by Saddy as he didn't know what to say right to the young fellow.

"Yeah, I think so. Uncle Kira, you better stop crying now. I'll go outside to play. Will you be okay alone here?" Saddy beamed at him.

"Yes, you can go now," Kira smiled at his protégé.

Saddy went outside the house. Kira remained in his position and continued with his contemplation.

"Maybe he's right, but Lacus already has her own life now. I don't want to disturb her anymore. But... oh, just forget it Kira Yamato. You deserve this agony because you were such a loser," Kira covered his face with his hands and sighed.


Author's notes: Poor Kira. Well, you'll understand a bit more about the real cause behind the separation when Lacus and Kira will have their first conversation together after their long break up. Some clue, ha? Alright, that's it for now; chapter 1 will be done soon. Thanks so much for taking time to read and don't forget to review.