Secrets, Past present and future.
Happy Australia day!
Alright, this I plan on being three-part kind of thing, with a secret from each generation.
Written for the Secret Challenge!
My secret for this: Your character has an eating disorder.
Paring: BlacKinnon (Sirius Black/Marlene McKinnon
Enjoy!
Past: Beautiful
"You look great!"
"Wow, she looks amazing."
"Man, I wish I had a body like that."
Wolf whistles followed her down the hall as she walked. Suddenly, she felt beautiful. She held her head high as she walked beside her friends.
"You look too thin..."
"You need to eat breakfast!"
She snorted, her family worried too much. She was beautiful, what didn't they get? Finally, she was stepping out of her family's shadow and making a title for herself.
"I think you're anorexic." Her brother told her very straightforwardly one day, sitting her down on a couch.
She only wrinkled her nose, "I'm not anorexic, I'm beautiful." She stood up suddenly, her hands on her small hips. "Why don't you guys realize that?" She snapped before storming up to her bedroom.
"Look, roast for dinner! Your favourite!"
"I'm not hungry."
"I haven't seen you eat for days.."
"I'm fine."
"No, you're not. You need to eat."
She snapped and stood up at the table. "Why can't you guys just drop it? I'm not skinny, or anorexic. I'm beautiful!" She turned and walked out of the Great Hall, her head held high.
But she was breaking.
"God, Marls. What have you done?" He breathed, running a hand down her tiny arm. "You're disappearing right in front of me."
She lifted her chin at that, pulling away from him. "No I'm not, I'm beautiful." She wasn't telling just him anymore.
"This isn't beauty," His voice was soft and pained. "You're not beautiful anymore. You're not our Marlene."
Tears sprung into her eyes, "I'm beautiful!" She spat, blinking rapidly. "I'm beautiful! You don't know what you're talking about!"
He ran a finger along her jaw line, his eyes sad but his face tight. "You're not my Marley." He whispered.
Out of everything everyone had said, that hurt the most. Marlene McKinnon was always Sirius Black's Marley. Nothing ever changed that. Not when her hair caught on fire in an accident and she had to wait for it to be regrown. Not when she screamed and raged at Sirius for many things. Not when she broke down and hid away from everyone when her older brother died. Nothing.
Except this.
She tried. She tried to eat. She ate dinner the next day. But she felt incredibly sick and it all came back up that night.
"I'll help you," He said, pressing a kiss to her head. "Eat a small bit each meal. We'll start tiny, and work our way into a full meal." She hesitated for a moment before agreeing.
So they began trying, just the two of them. By the time they had graduated from Hogwarts, she was able to eat a bit at each meal. But every second day she got sick and threw up everything she had managed to eat.
"We'll get there," Sirius whispered, kissing her softly in his new apartment.
They never did.
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Dani
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