notes: from Shion's point of view, about Nezumi. Also posted this on Tumblr.
It's too dangerous. You feel it deep inside your teeth when you fight with him. You don't know why you would feel it in your teeth of all places, but it's a rattling, ice-cold, strong feeling, a feeling that means get away while you still can, you idiot, you airhead, but you can't. And that's the problem. You love him too much.
You don't really know what kind of love it is just yet. But it is a hurricane or a wildfire or maybe a volcano. That is what you feel- it is not dependent but it is angry, it is an angry love. It is also an unrequited love, and you have the feeling he is afraid of you, at least a little, and it bites you in the chest.
But it's okay, too, because you are by his side. And you bring him misery, and you hate that, but then that selfish part grabs you and pulls you down into the water and you're drowning in the fact that you're next to him, that you can look into his eyes.
You are marveling in that although you are worlds from each other, you are both human. You can look into his eyes.
Sometimes, that's enough.
