Disclaimer

The following story is slash, meaning guy on guy, and so if you don't like it then don't

bother reading it,

Pairing: Harry and Draco.

Just So You Know

This story is the exact same as my previous stories such as, "Journal," and, "The Truth Revealed."It just skips all the ity bity detail, that really took to long to tell, and that was just irrelevant to take 50 chapters to talk about. But Draco's past will be summarized.

Apologize

Okay, so like I've said before, I just want to apologize again to everyone who was getting into my previous versions of this story, it's just that it was getting a bit to long to get to the main point. And it would take several chapters to get Harry and Draco together, and I don't really want to waist mine or your time. So I hope you will enjoy the story and again, please review.

Thanks much♥

Summary: Draco writes a journal about his mess ups, and how he's messed it up so much. And how all those mess ups lead him to the most unexpected person ever, Harry Potter.

Chapter One

Okay, so I've gone through ALOT of stuff in my life, and I have no idea how to help myself, and I read this book, where this guy had gotten in trouble with the law, because one day he slapped his girlfriend and she took it to court where they got a restraining order against him. They also sent him to a class where he had to write in a journal about why he did what he did. He started out at the very beginning of their relationship, and the journal really seemed too make him change and understand himself better, he also enjoyed remembering the past, so I'm going to do the same.

Hi, I'm Draco Andrew Malfoy, and I'm at a confusion point in my life, and I don't know if I can help myself. So instead of just moping around I'm going to write a bout it, but I'm not going to just jump write into my problem, I'm going to start by summarizing to how I got to where I am now.

xxxxxxx

So first, all my problems started out when I was eleven years old, and I was going to start my first year at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I was just really fed up with my home life, I mean my dad was NEVER happy with me, I was always such a disappointment to him, and not to mention my mom was WAY to overbearing, like she would never really let me do anything. And I was just really fed up with it, and was so glad to get away from them. So I guess I would say that I came to the school with a bit of a rebellious hateful kind of attitude, okay, I admit it, I was really rebellious and really hateful. I was just tired of being told what to do, I wasn't going to listen to people anymore, I was going to make up my own rules, and forget all the rest.

So people noticed that I was, well I guess what they all called me, 'a bitch'. Then I made up a lot of big mistakes, and as I grew older, and the years went by, I had hurt a lot of people, but while they were happening I didn't care about peoples feeling and I didn't give a damn that they were rude and insensitive, but I now know that they weren't the nicest things in the world to do.

I mean I'm now seventeen years old, and I have had sex with eight people, and I've raped like three people, more than once, like I mean several times. Oh, and don't get me started on how many times I've cheated on people. Like let's say a billion. I never really even liked any of the people I've hurt, I just used them to have someone, because even though I acted like I liked to be alone I didn't, I always felt like I needed someone to not be with forever but just to be with, but I also took advantage of them.

I lost my virginity pretty much as soon as I entered the school, and I kind of became a what people call a, 'sex addict,' And I've never really had like any true friends before, and just really no one who liked me, but I just ignored all that, I had gotten so used to having thick skin and not caring that it just become a way of life for me, and I still tend to be that way.

But although all this was bad and all; I'm confused right now, because my stupid like badass attitude that I had come so accustomed to is getting in the way of my previous relationship, and I don't want it to ruin this relationship, because I think it's actually a good one and I don't want to ruin it. But before, I jump the bullet, I need to talk about how I came to be with the person that I'm with now.