A/N: Hi guys! I'm new to the Parenthood side of FF, I've been writing SVU for a while though. I hope you like this little one-shot about Sarah's thought processes after the Season 4 Finale. Warning, lots of spoilers. Don't forget to review!

-LawNOrderJunkie862

"I've decided to move to Minnesota. So I can be with my daughter."

"Get on the plane with me."

It's been three days since Hank told me to move to Minnesota with me. It's been four days since Mark told me that he still loved me and he wanted me back. I can't believe where I am now. My thought processes in the last three days have been a lot like this…

I loved Mark for so long. We had a brief love affair when he was Amber's teacher, and when I broke up with him I was devastated. When we came back together after all of those years, it seemed like fate. He stayed with me through Seth going back to rehab, and never left my side and always helped me with my writing.

But when Hank kissed me, my heart skipped a beat. I always thought that was just a myth, the whole "heart skipping a beat" nonsense. I immediately felt bad. I mean I was engaged to Mark. I couldn't help but want another kiss, a longer kiss. And when I finally got that longer kiss… Among other things, my heart skipped so many more beats. I almost thought that I would obtain a heart condition.

Mark is so young. And I've lived so many lives in my forty-two years. There are so many times when all I've wanted is a guy like Mark. He's perfect, but he's too perfect. He's never felt pain in the way that I have, he's never been in an abusive relationship. He's like that virgin in high school who shied away from girls, and I'm like the high school slut. We are so different.

Hank may be quite a bit older than me, but I don't ever feel the age difference. Maybe it's because it's more normal for men to be older than their significant others. He has a daughter, so I don't feel bad about needed to spend time with my kids, because he needs the same thing sometimes.

Telling Mark that I was going to try to make it work with Hank was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. And I will always love him.

Can I leave Berkeley for Hank? Can I leave my entire family? Can I leave Drew, Amber, Mom, Dad?

Well, I did. I'm on this plane, and weirdly enough, I'm not regretting it at all. I'm ready for this new life with Hank. I'm finally ready.