DISCLAIMER: The characters DO NOT belong to me!

WARNING:This fanfic conatains boyXboy, swearing, angst, male Haruhi, and future lemons…read at your own risk.

The One I Love Is Leaving Scars

Two years ago Hikaru dyed his hair black. Ever since my world has been constantly changing. My heart, once red is now as black as Hikaru's hair.

Not many things about me are considered "normal". For instance my hair, its bright orange. I was born in japan were the dominant hair color is black. Another thing is my eyes. They're hazel, a dark green in the dark and an almost iridescent blue in the light. Ever since I was little I felt different. I thank the stars that I have a twin who could feel like an outsider with me.

Hikaru… there's so many ways I could describe him. My twin, my other half, my brother, my everything. He's always been quite stubborn. He's not the most charming person in the world but he's my twin. In the end no one can love him as much as I do. To any person Hikaru would appear my exact duplicate, but that's not true. His body may be just as lithe as mine, but his eyes are smaller. His eyebrows are thinner, and his voice, his beautiful voice is deeper.

I remember the first time I noticed Hikaru was changing. We were awkward twelve year olds. Hikaru and I had seen a poster at a premier our mother had dragged us to. With a huge grin Hikaru pointed to the poster. "see kao that's the guy I was telling you about! My future husband…isn't he cute!" His voice had cracked. The beginning of puberty. Puberty was a bitch not an ordinary bitch but the type of bitch you just wanna slap the minute she looks at you. In just one year my physical appearance had changed so much. I used to be adorable. I could wear dresses whenever I felt like it and get away with it because many thought I was a real girl. Now I could no longer pretend to be a girl. My voice had deepened, not as deep as Hikaru's but deep enough to tell I was a male. My arms and legs grew longer and my eyes became smaller, and after our growth spurt Hikaru and I became inseparable. We slept together (which our parents disapproved of) showered together (without our parents knowing) and changed all our classes so we could be together (amazingly mom and dad were fine with this). There was nothing I didn't know about Hikaru and there was nothing he didn't know about me. All of our secretes, dreams, and fears were shared between us.

So your probably thinking something along the lines like "Kaoru why are you boring us with past? Get to the yaoi! Where's the plot!"…and I promise there will be.

So our story begins freshman year. The first day of High school is always a nervewracker not knowing what teachers your gunna get and wondering endlessly if your best friend has any classes with you. The first day High school is a scary thought for me too. Despite being nervous Hikaru and I had started that day like any other. We got up, showered, ate and got dressed in our new blue school uniforms. As I got into the limo I kept my eyes on the road afraid if I looked away I would throw up my breakfast. Arriving at the school gates all I could see was a sea of yellow dresses and blue blazers. Holding Hikaru's hand I walked through the golden gates of Ouran High. High school was so weird I could already see the cliques Hikaru told me about last night. Under a giant tree in the center of the school was a group of girls all of them were very beautiful and texting. A group of guys surrounded them. A few paces away from them a group of boys stood laughing a little louder than necessary. One of them was a holding a football. Next to them there were three girls one of them was wearing neko ears. Little butterflies danced in my stomach as I watched the three girls squeal at a manga the neko ear girl was holding. The butterflies were no longer dancing, they were desperately trying to get out. Where would Hikaru and I fit in?

Our first period class we had Math, second Biology, third English, fourth History, fifth P.E., and sixth Home-Ec. This was the only class Hikaru and I didn't have together. It was pretty boring without him. Thank kami I made a friend. He was odd. He didn't look Japanese like most kids in the class did he didn't speak fluent Japanese either. His name was Tamaki Suho. He had blonde hair and the bluest eyes I had ever seen. He did most of the talking. After only three days of knowing each other he declared me his best friend. (I told you he was weird). Amazingly my devilish personality matched his boisterous personality. A little piece inside me told me that I only liked him because he was my friend and not Hikaru's. He was something I didn't have to share with my twin. He was my little secrete. My first friend. Looking back on it I probably should've skipped sixth period.

The following weeks of high school were boring, tedious, and routine. Hikaru and I still only kept to ourselves. Holding hands in the hallways or sharing lunch, people still gossiped. They whispered behind our backs when they thought we couldn't hear. We didn't care though. As long as Hikaru and I had each other they could all eat shit. Tamaki was still a secret. I didn't want Hikaru to know about him. But I had to tell him. Tamaki had asked me join his club. It was a host club.

I think you guys know what happened to Hikaru and me after we joined the host club. It changed us…our personality, our thoughts, especially our bond. We were close before we joined the host club but after we were attached in a way that no one could understand. We lived for only ourselves…everyone else was just a toy.

~~~Host club at play~~~

"kyaaa I came on a good day! I've never seen the twins so close to kissing!" next to the squealing fangirl another fangirl passed out blood squirting from her nose. I could hear everything around me. Every sound in the room seemed to get louder. I swear I could hear my heart beating in my chest wildly. I could feel the host club stop all their eyes trained on Hikaru and me. My heart was beating so fast!..doki doki doki. I closed my eyes when I felt Hikaru's breath on my lips. I couldn't bring myself to push him away. I've never had the urge to kiss my twin, but now in front of all these people I couldn't think of reason why we've never tried it. I felt my brother's slightly chapped lips press against mine. His lips were so warm!I slowly opened my eyes letting them glaze over I looked at my brothers eyes which were squeezed shut. The kiss lasted only 20 seconds. My first kiss had been with my brother I bet not many of you could say that! I could feel the rooms tension melt like ice. "Awe look kaoru's so red doesn't he look adorable like that Noemi-chan?" The fangirl nodded vigorously her blonde pigtails bobbing up and down. "Of-course he does. But look at Hikaru his blush is darker than Kaoru's.!kyaaa Hikaru-kun you look so cute when you blush!" I ignored the rest of the fangirls banter. I couldn't even bring myself to look in Hikaru's direction. Why had he kissed me? It felt so good. I wanted to do it again. But why did he kiss me even thinking it made no sense. I glanced at him from the corner of my eye. He caught me and looked away. The following week was awkward. We pretended nothing had happened but our bond it was slowly breaking. The tension we felt when we were near each other it was suffocating. If I could only go back to that day I would've done so much more to fix that break. Id patch it up and kiss the little tare that caused us so much tension. Compared to our bond in present time that little tare seems hilarious.

~~~The following week~~~

I looked across from me. Hikaru was sleeping. I remember he looked really beautiful that day. His legs were crossed elegantly His arms folded across his stomach and his head was lolled to the side the sun hitting fiery red hair perfectly. He really is beautiful. "Everyone we have a new host joining us today, please be kind to him." I honestly don't remember what Tamaki said my thoughts were still processing Hikaru's sexy sleeping face. (Yes I admit my twin is sexy) "His name is Haruhi." Kyoya cleared his throat. "Hiakru! Kaoru! Go greet our newest member!" I looked up confused as Hikaru fell out his chair he looked up as well. His pout was already forming I heard Hikaru grumble something. Great now my twin was angry. "Mommy! The evil twin just glared at me!" "Shut up Tamaki." Stupid stupid stupid!...everyone in this club is so damn stupid. I rubbed my temple trying to rub away the headache I could feel already forming. I walked slowly to Haruhi my eyes were closed. I didn't want to glare at Tamaki on my way toward him. I slowly opened my eyes and bowed. He bowed back. Finally looking to his face I blushed. He was bright red.! "N-nice to meet you kaoru-kun, Hikaru-kun." I glanced sideways to my brother he yawned and crawled back to his chair. Haruhi just giggled I guess he found Hikaru's rudeness cute? I looked at Haruhi again, I studied his face closely. There was no way he was guy! He had dark brown hair which stopped mid neck. His eyes were light brown and his lips were full and pink. Without a doubt he was the grisliest boy I've ever seen. And I've seen plenty growing up watching them strut down my mother's runway. Kyoya cleared his throat and I realized I had been staring. "O-oh nice to meet you as well Haruhi-kun" and there it was again! The blush! "I hope well be great friends" I smiled and with that I walked away.

~20 minutes later the Hosts begin to play~

"Hikaru wake up its time to start hosting." No emotion. My voice was monotone. "the customers are arriving." I really didn't want to wake him up. He looked so peaceful sleeping. He cracked his eyes open and stood up without a single glance in my direction. I wanted to say something, anything that would make things between alright again. The words just dried in my throat. I just kept on reminding myself ,he was the one who kissed you.

"Hello Hikaru-Kun , Kaoru-Kun." Our first customer of the day had arrived. Clucking his tongue Hikaru sat back down. "So Kaoru-kun how was your day?" Putting on a fake smile I replied "It was great how was yours moneko-chan? The fangirl blushed red she "kyaaed" then proceeded to tell me about her day. I ignored her, to tell you the truth, hosting is boring. "Hikaru, Kaoru you've both met Haruhi, teach him the basics of hosting." I looked up to Haruhi's face. He was blushing again, which made me blush in return. "Ehh why Kyoya? Tell Hunni to do it!" Hikaru whined next to me. His face was buried between his knees. "No, Hunni and Mori have already passed their customer limit, you both only have one." Kyoya turned to smile at Moneko-Chan. "How are you today Moneko-chan?" Moneko blushed. "Im fine thanks." Haruhi was still fidgeting. He was so nervous. I couldn't stop looking at him. No I wasn't in love with him if that's what you're thinking. I just remember finding him interesting. "Nice to meet you Moneko-Chan, Im Haruhi." The minute the words left Haruhi's pink lips, Moneko-chans nose erupted. Squirting blood everywhere she fell over her seat. Her yellow dress rode up I could see her pink undies which had the word 'Tuesday' and a little bunny on them. They were cute; I made a note to buy some for myself. It amazed me that no one did anything for about a minute. Haruhi and I stared; Hikaru snickered with his head still between his legs. Finally Kyoya broke the silence he picked Moneko-chan up bridal style and carried her somewhere, probably the nurse. I heard Haruhi clear his throat. "Okay let's try this again, Hello you must be Hikaru; Im Haruhi nice to meet you." Hikaru clucked his tongue finally pulling his head out from between his legs. He looked up, anger written all over his face. I could almost see Hikarus breath catch, he blushed. The minute their eyes met I could see the pieces of the puzzle click…and my heart sank. October 17 2009 was the day my nightmare began.

Hmm so what do you think?..should I continue Kaoru's story? Tell me what you thought! This story is totally random but anyways Thanks for reading!^,^