Hi guys! This is the first story that I post and it's the first story that I write in english. If there are any mistakes please let me know so that I can improve myself. Hope you like it!

He said he would have not died, but then, why was he laying on the floor covered in blood? Kyoraku approached Ukitake's body, and with a strange calmness in his eyes lifted him up in his arms. No one was with him: everyone was either injured or busy because of the war, so he slowly reached the little hill where the two of them used to spend some time together when they had nothing to do or simply wanted to ditch their job. He carefully put down Ukitake's body, and when he managed to wash the blood away from his body and bury him, he just seated down beside his grave.

"We sure did a lot of things together, didn't we?" Said Kyoraku. His gaze was fixed on the sunset even though he wasn't really looking at it. "I didn't think we would part ways this soon, especially because we just finished our war against Aizen. You were always so calm and composed, meanwhile I was the total opposite: always chasing after girls and putting myself in danger. Now that I think about it, I probably did these things because I didn't want you to notice. 'To notice what?' you would probably ask. Well, to notice my feelings for you. At the beginning I thought that it was just because you, together with Yamamoto-sensei, were like family to me, but I soon noticed that the way I looked at you was not that of a brother. When I understood what my feelings were I was really scared. I didn't know if I had to tell you what I felt. As some time passed by, I noticed that you were often staring at me when you thought that I wasn't looking at you. You can't even imagine how happy I was in those moments, but my happiness was always overcame by the fear of being rejected, by the fear of losing you not just as a lover but as a friend as well. And now look at me." He laughed a bit, tears gathering in his eyes. "I couldn't bring myself to make a choice, and now I will never know if you loved me too, and if that's the case, I will never know the warmth of your body, the sweetness of your kisses. What did you think when you decided to sacrifice yourself for the gotei 13? Did you think about me? I am sure you understood that I was in love with you, since you were very smart, so, were you angry because I didn't talk about it with you?" Kyoraku took a long breath before continuing. "I'm so lonely without you."