This is A/U and WAY OoC
Instead of finding Jackie with Kelso in Chicago, Hyde takes off when Jackie gives him the ultimate. He takes off and a day later Jackie finds she's pregnant. After 2 months of being mistreated by Hyde and Donna Jackie leave point place.
The beginning may move fast but bare with me I haven't written FF in a while.
LOLLY
December 18th 1987
Also known as the day my world turned upside down. The day I found out my father wasn't really my father.
It was nearly a week until Christmas and my parents had gone out shopping again. They had my Aunt Sage come stay with me while they were out per usual. Sage had always been the cool aunt, she always let me do what I wanted so long as I didn't get hurt. Mom and Dad met Sage when we first moved to New York, she owned the apartment we all lived in. Me, Mom, Dad, Sage, Jim, Max and Pru. Since then though they've just all become aunts and uncles.
The night before I had concocted a plan. I was going to sneak down to our storage unit after they left and peek at my Christmas presents. It was foolproof. I told Sage I was going to see Harvey our door man. Harvey was like a grandfather to me, I had known him as long as I could remember, so she was okay with it. When I got to the unit it was dark and scary which normally would have me running back up the stairs but I was too excited. Once inside I began right away.
I started with the boxes to the left and worked my way back and over. I had been in there for what must have been 30 minutes and had come up empty handed. Frustrated I tossed a basketball off to the side and a box fell from one of the taller stacks. I hurried over to it and bent down, the first thing I saw was a suction bag with a cheerleaders uniform in it. I picked it up and underneath it was the lid to the box. On it was the initials P.P.W curious I turned to the overturned box and pulled it up carefully. The remnants scattered in front of me, photos and papers foreign to me. The first thing to catch my eye was a picture of my mom. She was standing in front of a black car, between a guys legs. He had his arm wrapped around her as she leaned into him. I flipped the photo over and on the back in my moms hand writing was 'Steven and I, 1979' with a big heart beside it. I put it down and picked up another photo, it had my mom and the guy along with four other people. They were sitting together in what looked like a basement. On the back it said 'The Gang, 1978'. The rest of the photos were all of my mom and 'the gang' or my mom and Steven. After the photos I started going through the papers.
The first was a magazine article that was published by Woman's Weekly and was written by Donna Pinciotti-Forman, who I recognized from the photos.
The next clipping was from the Milwaukee gazette, It was a picture of a cop who was also from the pictures, it said 'Police officer Michael Kelso saves woman in Milwaukee'. The other papers were of the same people in the pictures life achievements. Once I got through them I picked up a book that was in the box and opened it. Upon opening it I realized it was a scrapbook on the inside cover was note it said:
My Darling Lolly,
I don't think you could ever understand how much I truly love you. From the very moment I found out I was going to have you in my life I couldn't understand how I had ever lived without you. You're my life, the one thing I will always go down fighting for. Also your father. He has loved you since the moment he saw you and committed himself to being the best dad he could possibly be. He loves you more than life itself, as do I. No matter what you feel or think after seeing and reading the contents of this book, know you are our whole world. You are our baby girl.
-Mama
I read it over and over trying to make my 10 year old brain imagine what could be in this scrapbook that could make her write something so cryptic. However after turning to the first piece of content I knew. The first thing was my birth certificate. At that moment I was thankful that my mom had started me with; early development. I was grateful I had learned to read and write almost two years before my peers, that she had instilled in me the importance of a good education early and that I had skipped ahead a year in school and was still in gifted classes. I was thankful because I knew what I read, I understood it immediately. The only confusion came from emotion. On my birth certificate was first the name 'Charlotte Camilla Hyde' instead of 'Charlotte Camilla Lennox' I moved down the certificate slowly trying to hold back the rising pain in my stomach. When I got to the father column I gripped the book tighter. So tight they started to go numb as I read it 'Father: Steven Hyde' I dropped the book and shook my head back and forth after a few minutes and a lot of 'nos' I had convinced myself to pick it back up. I slowly flipped through a few more pages. They were of Mom and him, Steven. My father.
They were about his life their life before me and then his life since I've been born. Mom had obviously been keeping up with his and the others ongoings through the years. He is part of a record company and had been married twice but neither had worked out. then at the end was a long letter from my mom explaining everything. She told me how it had been had for her growing up and then in the last year in Pointe Place had been the hardest and when she found out she was pregnant with me there was so much stress she was afraid she would lose me so she left. She told me how she met Jude, my dad two months after I was born and he had become her best friend she said that he was there for her through it all. She told me that they eventually settled and that everything just happened. She hadn't planned on hiding the truth from me, that one day I just started calling Jude daddy and it all fell into place a year later they got married and Jude adopted me.
With out knowing it I had fallen asleep and was woken by a soft whimper. I opened my eyes to see my mom above me. My head was on her lap and she was petting my head gently. When I saw she was crying I hugged her tightly. She told me she hadn't expected this to happen so soon. We talked for what seemed like hours after that, she told me about her childhood and the gang. She had never spoke of her childhood before and it was nice knowing that side of her for once.
After I found out mine and Dad's relationship started changing. First he told me he loved me every time he saw me then he started asking if I was okay and if there was anything I wanted to talk about. After I turned 13 we began drifting apart, I hardly talked to him. I loved him and I always would, no matter how many fathers I had he would always be my daddy, but we were different.
Now it was 1994 I was 14 and everything was changing again. Not just for me though, but for everyone Mom, Dad, and my little brother River who we called Rhys. One night we got home from school Mom and Dad sat us down after Dinner, which had been quiet and nerve wracking because mom had baked all day, Mom ONLY baked a lot when there was bad news.
They us sat across from them in the living room with them staring at us, then Mom finally started. She took a deep, long breath and said 'We are getting a divorce.' It hit me like a 10 tons of bricks. It came out of nowhere, they never fought. We never heard them fight, not once. Then they started trying to explain. 'We still love each other very much and we will always loved you more than anything.' Than the 'Non of this is your fault! Our relationship has just run it's course' and 'We are still and will always be a family. The four of us.'
That was it. We were over. Dad moved out slowly, first few nights he stayed in the guest room then he got his own apartment.
I started keeping a closer eye on River after realizing he was probably a 'trying to save the marriage' baby, though he seemed to be enjoying the divorce more than the rest of us. Mom threw herself into work and into our lives trying to act happy for us, trying to help us adjust. Rhys of course bought it, but I knew better. No one on this Earth knew my Mom better than I did. I knew she was in pain. I had a feeling the end of their marriage was mostly my Dad's decision. He was a wreck too, but for different reasons he had decided to open his own art gallery and spent most of his time setting it up. When we went to see him we would paint or play games but that was it, he was too busy to spend time with us most days. I knew he was worried I thought badly of him, he was always asking me if I wanted to talk or if I had any questions, but I'd just shake my head.
It had been five months since the separation. We spent weekends with dad at his loft. Last night he took us to dinner and introduced us to his new girlfriend. New girlfriend? They had only been apart 5 months! I was livid, though I didn't let it show. No I waited until I got back home with mom and let it out. We stayed up until 3 in the morning she let me yell and scream and we ended the night sitting on her bed watching My Fair Lady and eating her homemade Peach and Lavender ice cream which has always been a comfort food for me.
About an hour later she drifted off to sleep holding me. I love her so much it hurt sometimes to think how much she's hurting to think about the lonely life she's had and how she just wanted a real family of her own, and now she lost dad and as much as I hated to do it, she was about to lose me too.
I untangled myself from her and tiptoed to my room. Once in there I pulled out my luggage bag and put a few clothes in it. Then I grabbed the money I had been saving for a new guitar and pulled out a pen and note pad.
Mama,
I'm sorry to do this to you, this way but I know you would never let me do this if I asked, and I do need to do this. I need to find him, Mom. I need to know that part of who I am. I need to know him. He's apart of me too he's in me and he doesn't even know I exist, at the very least I need to know that he knows I'm alive. I love Dad, but the truth is and he knows this too I haven't looked at him the same since I found out and vice versa. I need to do this. I'm sorry if this hurts you but know I'm smart and capable of getting there safely. I love you and I'll call you soon. Tell Rhys I love him.
-Lolly
