A/N: Fifty Shades Trilogy isn't mine whatsoever. Count this as your disclaimer, ladies and gentlemen.
Honestly, I don't know where this story is going. I don't have one planned out and I'm just going along.
Please do enjoy.
Anastasia's POV
"Don't cry anymore, Ana," Kate hushed me as I bury myself around her arms. She's been so patient with me today and the four years we've known each other, she's always been there. Ups and downs. "It's going to be just fine." She kissed the top of my head and hushed me once more.
God knows how long I've been crying for. My head hurts. I feel like my brain is spinning in my head. I could barely breathe. "Kate, he threw away 6 years of relationship for a girl he barely met," I said in defeat. I feel so heart broken. We've known each other for who knows how long and how could he just leave. It seemed so easy on him, too. He didn't cry not did he seem affected by it. We were in a relationship for 6 years, going into 7 in a couple of weeks and gone. Just like that, it was gone. I can't help, but feel that it was my fault. "Maybe I pushed him away? Or maybe I was too busy," I said in panic. It had to be me. Kate pats my head and hushes me once more.
"Ana, any guy would be lucky to have you. I feel even lucky to have you in my life. Don't ever doubt yourself please," she kisses the top of my head once more. I feel lucky to have her in my life. She skipped her dinner anniversary with Colton to be with me. I've been crying on the new dress she bought. I feel selfish for keeping her from her plans, but she refused to leave. "Here's what we're going to do. Have Jose and Colton come over with food and watch all the movies we could. We'll be with you all night."
"No, no need for them to come," I got up to use the bathroom. My eyes are so red and puffy. "I want to go out and get some fresh air," I yelled from the bathroom. I don't need Jose and Colton coming over and seeing me like this. I wish he had ended it sooner. Why after 6 years? We were going to marry each other. We were going to have kids and we were going to be grandparents if God allowed. Why did he wait until I was in love with him, but then again, he was my first boyfriend. What do I know about love right? Probably nothing. I just thought I was special enough to him. God I was wrong. How could I have been so stupid to think he was the one. Of course he wasn't into me. How could I possibly even think that. Stupid Ana!
"...no, how could you even call again, screw you!" I hear Kate scream her heart out. I ran out of the bathroom to see what was going on. She put my phone down. "He wanted to talk," she says in rage. "Why do stupid men do that? Break up with you then later they want to talk to you." I felt my tears running down my face. Maybe he wants to get back? No, no, he made it clear he wanted to be with her. I don't know who she is, but she must be better than me. I laid back down on my bed curled up in a ball. I wish I could just fast forward. I opened my eyes just to be welcomed by a picture frame he made for me. I remember that night. He gave it to me before he had to go back to Seattle.
"Here's to always remind you how much you mean to me. I want to be the last person you think of at night and the first to be in your mind when you wake up," he said as he planted a kiss on my forehead.
The very memory of that moment brings me more tears. What changed? "Oh Ana, come on," she grabbed me by my hand and brings me to her room. "Let me change and we're going to go." She runs into her closet and I hear her banging everything. Distraction is good for me. I don't need to be thinking about him. The things we did. The way he made me feel. The way he touched me. The way he made me nervous. I wish I had seen this coming. I shouldn't have gotten attached. I should have learned from my mom. Fail marriages. I should have somehow known I wasn't meant to be with someone. "Come on Before you drift off into your thinking hat!'
Too late, Kate, too late, I was already there.
We walked outside our apartment. In two months, we'll move to Seattle. I'll be closer to him there. I don't want to accidentally run into him. It's a small world.
"Ana, I'm hungry!" Kate said as she wraps her arm around mine. "Let's go somewhere to eat." Like I have a choice. She was practically dragging me. We go into the new restaurant that had just opened up this week. It looks like a pretty decent place. We were seated and Kate started chatting about I don't know what. She's a good distraction. I need this. The rest of the night, she talked about anything and everything. I loved her company and for the first time in months, I realized how much she really cares for me. Maybe this break up will bring her and I closer. We drifted apart a little bit when we both found our boyfriends. Well, my is now an ex-boyfriend. I just need reasons to make myself better.
It will be fine. This too shall pass.
I just need to believe my words.
