I walk away from Eric's house, crying softly, before wiping them away quickly. Dad always tells me that I should be a man, that tears are for pussies… I can't help it though.

I've always been there for Stan and his friends, even when they weren't too nice to me, paticularily Eric, even though he was the worst. He's still the worst now, and he's meant to be my boyfriend.

I found out I was gay, a while ago, when Kenny came and kissed me at Token's house. He said it was just a drunken mistake, and I felt sad then – I still kinda do. I realised I was attracted to him, which meant I'm gay, but I kept it secret for a while, because I knew my Dad would be awful sore about it.

He caught news of it today. I know I deserved the punishment, for being a no good faggot, but it sure hurt a lot. I ran away to Eric's house, hoping I could stay around his for a new nights, but when I got to his room, I found him kissing Kyle. I wipe away another tear. Stupid Cartman…

When it comes down to it, I don't think I ever loved Eric, but it still hurts something dreadful. Eric was never too nice to me, but he made me forget about Kenny, which was good. I wonder why I needed to forget Kenny, but it only makes me think of him, if that makes sense. I remember how he pressed me against the wall, and slowly pressed his lips to mine…

I stop, and see where I am. Tweak Bros. I spot Craig inside, leaning on the counter, talking to Tweek, distracting him as Tweek works, obviously flustered. I smile and move on, but my heart aches. Why can't I have that with somebody? Namely, Kenny?

Though, I do know why. I reach a bench, and sit on it, gazing at the sunset sky with a blurry vision. I rock myself back, wrapping my arms around my knees, and shed one last tear.

It was just a drunken mistake.


AN: Oh dear, look at me. I had a perfectly nice chance to go and make this story fluffy and sweet, but I just had to go and make it into an angst *cries*