Disclaimer: Nope, don't own it.

Author's Notes: I'm not pleased with this at all, I wasn't going to post it, but eh... blargh. Might as well, eh? Maybe later this week I'll work at converting this to a longer fic. I need practice with prose. And another thing... Yui, forget about Tamahome for a change. Why not divert your energies towards being *gasp* friendly to a perfectly nice, if somewhat psychotic, boy who is actually interested in you?

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Rain and Something Else

when he vanished
i drowned
pulled deep
deeper than deep
cold icy water
prickled my skin
knocked out my lungs
filling with water
water and cold
when we were little
we sat in the rain
and you put your arms around me
we kept warm
warm in the mud and the dirt
you gave me your coat
and played for lunch
i was worthless
but so is everything else
when i gagged
choked
coughed on invisible liquid
tears
or tears and something else
or something
thick and disgusting
mucus or blood
the air felt wet
and so cold on my skin
but
but she held me
so close and so kind
like you
she knows
loss and pain
we're sitting in the eternal downpour
drenched
she holds me and soothes me like you do
like you... did
but i'm grown now
maybe this time
i'll be of some
use