"I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel."
I strum my bass, trying to find the next line of the song. I love this song. It reminds me of her. The only human in Aaa. The only one to ever have my heart actually ache for them, my abnormal beating heart. The human with long beautiful hair underneath the cutest bunny hat. The human who just turned eighteen. The girl who I've watched grow up since she was thirteen, in the tree house I gave to her and her cat. The only girl who makes me hold my breathe. The girl that over the years I've tried to find. A human, yeah. And I love her.
I couldn't remember the rest of the song so I changed it, thinking of another song that fit perfectly with my thought.
"The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find."
I find it impossible to not think of her these days. She keeps me awake at night with her beautiful smile, her blue eyes, her long blonde mane.
"This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Oh
But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible."
But she'll never be mine. Fionna couldn't, no wouldn't, dare love a Vampire. She probably thinks I'd suck her blood dry, that I'd never want her in that way. But every night, I look up at the moon and think of the sun. The sun I can't go out in. The sun that keeps me away from her even more. The sun that reminds me of what I am.
"So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
'Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep."
The day light reminds me of how her beauty shines in the darkness of my world. How I love her more then words would speak. That I'd kiss her gently, run my fingers through her beautiful hair. That I'd make love to her and not just fuck her. That I could be her prince, even if I'm a creature on the night.
"Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find."
I'd fall for her every day, every night. I'd love her till the end of my eternal life.
Out of all eight thousand years or so of my life, I've never found a girl like her. And I know, I probably never will. I flirt with her and tease her but doesn't she see? I'm not like this with anyone. I don't let my guard down. I don't let people see that all I really care about... Is Fionna. Forget my crown, I'd give up anything just to be with her. And yet she'll never know that Marshall Lee, the Vampire King as one weakness. No, Marshall Lee, her Marshie, has always and will forever love her.. But even I don't know how to tell her that she's the reason I stay here. I stay close enough but far enough away from her because she is my sun. My passion for her will never die.
I just wish she knew that.
"I'm your Bad Little Boy. And Your such a Good Little Girl."
Does she know my heart breaks when she's sad or mad? Does she realize how much of an effect she has on my heart. I bet she doesn't realize a thing.
I put my bass down and sigh. I walk up to my room and hop on my bed. My eyelids start to feel heavy as I lay there thinking about the only girl for me. How her body is shaped perfectly. She round hips. The way she walks. The way she talks. Everything is just perfect. And as I fall asleep, I see her smiling at me. It's like a peaceful dream, Where she's mine and only mines. Where I can only touch her, hug her, kiss her, feel her. Where she is all mine.
That's a dream worth waiting for. My good little girl.
