Please note that English is not my native language, I'm scared that I completely made a fool out of myself :D Also expect a lot of typos and grammar mistakes haha. I hope you enjoy my first story ever. Yayy.

Warnings:

- Possible character death

- Suicide & depression themes

- Nick/Greg pairing

Summary:

Greg leaves Nick after he finds out about his relationship with Kate, but Nick isn't willing to let go. Can Nick prove his undying love for Greg before it's too late?

Disclaimer:

I do not own any of the characters except Kate.


Whiskey Lullaby

Chapter 1: I had to.

It had been 2 months since the breakup, but Nick still wasn't over Greg. He had brought a new guy home every chance he got just to fuck his mind away from the man he loved more than life itself. It only worked for the time being though, because imminently after he'd run out of his high, there would be only one face in his mind. And that face belonged to Greg Sanders.

The breakup wasn't very pleasant for either of the guys. The fight was the worst they had ever had. Nick didn't even know that his sweet and innocent Greg could yell so fucking loud and actually be intimidating, and that scared Nick more than ever. He had been the reason to break Greg's mask.

Sure they had had many fights, they had been together for 3 years for crying out loud. Fights are perfectly normal in relationships. But they were NEVER this bad. Some of them were pretty bad, lasting for weeks even. Some of them were more like arguments, but this one… This one was something else. Nick was sure Greg would never even think about hitting him, but at the time he was so angry that Nick actually doubted himself. Of course Greg didn't do it, he's all about anti-violence, especially after his beating. Nick felt so stupid for even thinking that he could do that.

The worst night of Nick's life started very normal. They arrived from work worn out, warmed up some leftovers, collapsed on the couch and turned on the TV. They chatted, laughed, maybe drank a little too much beer and ended up making out after the show was over. Then it happened.

"Nick?"

"Don't stop" Nick moaned and started to kiss Greg again, but Greg turned his face away. "Hey… what's wrong honey?"

"Are you… I don't… I mean I kinda get this feeling…" Greg was struggling to say what he wanted to say. He had suspected this for few weeks now, but never got the courage to ask his boyfriend about it. I mean could Nick really do something like that? He was the sweetest guy he had ever met, and had the heart of gold. Could he? "You're so gonna hate me if I'm wrong about this."

"What is it babe?" Nick was getting a little nervous.

"Are you cheating on me?" Greg blurted.

Nick felt all the color fade away from his face. Kate Burkhardt. Nick knew he did the wrong thing when he started seeing her behind Greg's back, but he had to. He had to. His parents are expecting him to get married and start getting kids of his own soon. He wasn't getting any younger.

The subject of his parents and having kids had always created a little disagreement between the two lovers, because Nick swore to himself that he would never bring himself to reveal his true sexuality to his mom and dad. A flaming homosexual in a very strict Christian family – ingredients for suicide. Greg tried to tell him that if his parents really loved him, they would approve him with time, and if they didn't, why would Nick want to waste his happiness with Greg just to have the approval of the parents that didn't love their son. Deep inside Nick's heart he knew that Greg was right, but he ignored it.

And when it comes to having kids, the story is short… Nick wants kids, Greg doesn't.

So when his mother's questions about his love life were getting painfully frequent, he decided to do something he regretted now more than ever. He found a girl, started seeing her just enough to keep her around and came home to his true love. He NEVER had sex with her, or even showed any intimacy, because he couldn't do that to Greg, he loved him too much. Nick just dated her to please his parents. Of course Kate started asking if he was ready to take their relationship further on the bedroom area, but he told her that he's had hard time with sexual stuff after the incident with his babysitter. She said she understood and would be there for him if he ever wanted to talk about it. He had only told Greg and Catherine about the babysitter, and it sickened Nick to think that a complete stranger now knew his story, but then again: He had to tell her.

Nick was scared shitless. How stupid could he be, he's dating a level 3 CSI for God's sake. Of course Greg was going to find out. Apparently Nick's silence said it all.

"Oh my god…" Greg pushed Nick to the side as he sprinted off the couch, towards the door. Nick ran after him, grabbing his wrist and spun Greg around. He had never seen anything as scary as the look in Greg's eyes.

"Let me explain"

Then it began. Nick was desperately trying to get Greg to realize why he did what he did. Making sure Greg knew that he didn't love Kate nor wanted anything from her. She was there just to stop his parents' questions. He told Greg that she didn't mean shit to him, but Greg didn't care. He yelled at him, calling Nick stupid to think that his stupid plan would ever work because it was just plain stupid. And he was right, even Nick knew it was stupid.

Then started the name calling and all the nasty words. On both sides. Nick was also getting angry because Greg just couldn't see that he did it to save their relationship. If his parents ever found out that he was fucking a dude, they would probably try to burn Greg in a bonfire for turning their son gay. Then probably throw Nick in the flames with him just to get rid of the evidence of any homosexuality in their family. They screamed at each other for a whole hour before Greg just left. Saying "fuck you" to each other, their relationship was over. And Nick hadn't stopped crying himself to sleep ever since.

He had lost Greg.


So that was it! :D The first ever chapter of the first ever story I've written! I know I'm not the best writer, but I hope you enjoyed it! :3