Basically I'm following the Grey's story line, but with Meredith pregnant and having that effect the story line a bit. I know it has been done a thousand times, but I have a few ideas and unlike other Meredith pregnant instead of having her appendix out, mine is not all happy and wonderful. There are some dark twists. This story has two main points of view and a few others that you will be able to tell. When the MDMDMD stuff comes along if it starts with a M first it will be Meredith's point of view and if it starts with a D first it will be Derek's.
Disclaimer: Don't own Grey's Anatomy or its characters just borrowing them for a fanfic.
Chapter One "WHAT?"
"Oh holy crap! Are you pregnant?" Cristina said far to loudly for Meredith's liking. Meredith vomited into he nurse's station's trashcan again. As she stood up slightly Meredith sighed and quickly bent over to vomit into the trashcan.
"Oh this is just perfect." Addison groaned. Meredith looked up to watch Addison and Derek's conversation. Derek ran down the stairs to check on Meredith. "An adulterous love child."
"Goes along with an adulterous sociopath." Derek shot back looking quickly to Mark then, looking back to Addison. Addison walked away leaving Mark to watch Derek deal with Meredith. "Meredith." Derek sighed lovingly.
"You've done enough already." Bailey told Derek. George held Meredith's elbow while Bailey took her other one and they led her to an exam room, Cristina following behind them and leaving Derek there.
"Oh, oh doctor. I finished filling out the paperwork. When do you think I can take Shawny home?" Mrs. Sullivan asked. Bailey released Meredith's elbow and let George and Cristina take her the rest of the way. George opened the door and walked off somewhere to do something. Cristina helped a dissy Meredith into the room.
"Cristina you don't-"
"Lay down." Cristina said interrupting Meredith and helping her up onto the table. Cristina walked over to Meredith's abdomen and begun checking for tenderness. "So, who's the father?" Cristina asked with a hint of a smile on.
"I am not pregnant." Meredith insisted.
"I didn't think I was pregnant when I was pregnant either, but abdominal pain, fever, the nonstop vomiting-"
"I'm not pregnant." She insisted once again this time with pain stretched across her face.
"You don't know who the father is, do you?" Cristina said smiling. Meredith looked at her for a second.
"It would have to be Derek's," She said knowingly. "There's no way it could be Finn's." Meredith stated. Cristina looked up then trailed her eyes to Meredith's face.
"You haven't had sex with the vet yet?" Cristina said shocked. Meredith shook her head no. Cristina scoffed. "You got to get out of that relationship. Immediately."
"I can't be pregnant. Can I?" Meredith asked with a worry face on.
"With McBaby." Cristina added. Cristina pushed on a hurtful spot on Meredith's abdomen and Meredith scrunched up her face and made a noise of pain.
"Was I this mean to you," Bailey opened the door and walked in as Meredith finished. "When you were pregnant?"
"Oh, I thought you said you weren't pregnant?" Cristina reminded.
"Bailey I'm not, right?" Meredith asked. Bailey stayed quiet for a second.
"Why did I end up with the sex crazed interns?" Bailey remarked. Meredith looked at her with a pleading look and Cristina turned to look at Bailey's face. "Your pregnant. I'll give you the rest of the day off, but you need to be back here tomorrow no excuses." She ripped the Band-Aid off quick and easy. Cristina turned around again to look at Meredith. With Meredith staring a Bailey not knowing how to respond, Cristina turned and gave Bailey a nod for a go ahead to leave the room.
The second Bailey left the room Cristina turned to Meredith and asked, "Are you-"
"Crap." Meredith whispered interrupting Cristina's question. Cristina opened her mouth to speak again. "Crap. Crap." Meredith's head fell back on the table and she closed her eyes. Cristina stood there looking at her.
"What do you need, obviously not tequila, or alcohol? Um… do you need-" Cristina's words were cut short by Meredith.
"Work. I need work." Meredith stated sitting up and getting off the table. Cristina watched her, in shock; walk to the door and into the busy hospital halls.
MDMDMDMDM
I have to get away. I have to get away. Run away from all things. Go to somewhere quiet, somewhere safe, somewhere I know no one would look for me at, and somewhere that Finn would defiantly never find me. Meredith quickly ducked into a supply closet. She sat on the ground and tears started to roll down her face. Why here? Why now?
The door opened and Addison came in, Addison of all people. As she looked around the darken room Addison saw her. She stared at her for a second and when Meredith's eyes caught her eyes she quickly looked away. "Addison?" Meredith said quietly. Addison quickly looked back up at Meredith.
"Yes." She answered.
"How did you know Derek was the one?" Meredith asked out of the blue. Addison was taken back by the question.
"Excuse me?" She answered. Meredith wiped some tears off her cheeks.
"I know you hate me and all. You don't owe me anything." Addison started to look around the room, uncomfortable. "I want him to be the one, but I would now if he was the one, right? You knew, right?" Meredith asked. Addison sighed and thought for a second.
"You don't… I didn't…know. I just…" Addison let a breath of air out. "Derek's the kind of guy… I just knew he wouldn't hurt me." Addison paused looking at Meredith's tear stained cheeks. "I mean not on purpose, any way. Not the way I hurt him." Addison finished.
"He hurt me." Meredith sighed. "When he chose you." She stated. Meredith sniffled.
"I should have let him go." Addison let out a deep sigh. "I should have stepped aside. Been a better person. I…should've…a lot of things." Addison said. They looked at each other.
"Me too." Meredith agreed. "A lot of things."
"I don't hate you." Addison informed Meredith, with a small smile on.
"How come we never talked like this before?" Meredith asked with the same small smile on. Tears ran down her cheeks again and she wiped a few off. Leaving the rest.
"The only reason we are talking like this at all is, because you look like crap and you will never tell anyone about this ever. Take it to your grave." Addison ordered Meredith. Meredith sniffled and gave a little laugh out.
"If you take it to your grave to we have a deal." Meredith said through tears. Addison turned around and left the supply closet. Leaving Meredith to herself.
I need air.
DMDMDMDMD
"Hey, Addison." Derek said, while passing her in the hall.
"Hey. Um… Derek?" Addison started.
"What?" Derek said stopping in his tracks and turning to face her.
"Meredith…" Addison stated.
"Yeah?" Derek asked confused.
"Don't um…don't hurt her again." Addison told him. Derek nodded him head and went to find Burke.
DMDMDMDMD
"Doctor Bailey wanted to know if you still needed an intern?" Cristina asked Derek.
"No I'm fine. How's uh Doctor Grey?" Derek asked smoothly.
"Oh, she's fine. Never better." Cristina said like it was nothing. Derek and Burke looked at her like she was crazy. "Ha, yeah." Cristina said quietly in an awkward state. She quickly turned around and exited the room. Burke sighed. Derek shook his hand and exited the room. He was going to find Meredith.
MDMDMDMDM
I can't believe I came here. Here of all places. Why did I come here? This is stupid. I should leave. It's so quiet and I don't even know if he would come here to fine me.
DMDMDMDMD
Where is she? I've checked the locker room, the tunnels, the on-call rooms, and the OR board. Maybe I should call her just to make sure she's alright.
"Doctor Bailey." Derek called out into the hallway. Damnit she didn't hear me. "Doctor Bailey! Bailey!" Derek said as he finally caught up with her.
"Yes?" She asked impatiently. Derek was taken back for a second. Bailey looked like she was getting angry at her so he snapped out of it.
"Do you know where Mer- Doctor Grey is?" He asked trying his best to be professional. Bailey scoffed and turned around walking away from him. "Wait."
"You're an idiot. She got the rest of the day off." She replied. Derek walked around her and stood in her path.
"Is she okay?" He asked concerned. Bailey rolled her eyes, but Derek caught them in a battle and she saw that he was genuinely concerned for his girlfriend or something. Then, she realized that he didn't know.
"She's fine." Bailey said trying to get around he once again. Derek stood in her path again and she huffed.
"Then, why did you give her the rest of the day off?" He asked. Bailey groaned.
"She vomited, not once, not twice, not three times, four times. She needed to go home. Derek let out a breath of relief.
"Okay, thanks." He replied and let Bailey pas him. She shook her head as she passed him.
"Stupid." She said under her breath. Derek turned around to look at her in awe. If it was anyone else he would have punished them or given them a interns job instead of a residents, but it was bailey.
"You know I'm your boss." He said loud enough for her to hear him. She waved her hand at him and kept on walking.
I should defiantly call Meredith.
MDMDMDMDM
Ring, Ring, Ring
Meredith heard her cell ring. She looked at the caller id and groaned. If I don't pick up, he'll just keep on calling.
Ring, Ring, Ring
Second ring, maybe I don't have to pick up. Maybe he'll just stop calling.
Ring, Ring, Ring
God! Meredith picked up her phone and pressed the answer button.
"Hello." She said casually.
"Meredith!" She heard come through the phone. Meredith's face cringed from the loud voice.
"Yeah?" She breathed.
"How are you doing?" He asked smoothly.
"Fine." She answered a little to quickly. Hoping that he didn't hear the lie.
"Meredith." He said sadly.
"Derek, really I'm fine." She replied.
"You threw up four times just in the few minutes I was near you."
"Well I didn't throw up after that. So I'm fine." She lied.
"Okay." Derek caved. They were quiet for a few seconds.
"Derek thank you for calling, to check on me. You didn't have to do that." She told him. She could hear Derek laughing on the other end of the call.
"I'm your boyfriend. These are things boyfriends do, when they can't find you at work. What does your other boyfriend not call to check up on you in the middle of the day." Derek said and Meredith could just see the smile stretched across his face.
"Well." A beeping coming from her phone cut her off. As she looked at the caller id she saw Finn's number. She sighed.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Derek asked concerned.
"Oh, uh Finn's calling me. We really need to talk." Meredith said.
"Oh, okay." Derek stated sadly.
"What? No! No, it's not a bad thing. Please don't be sad." Meredith said scared he would break up with her before she got the chance to say some important things.
"Yeah. Okay. Bye." Derek said a little happier. Meredith smiled.
"Bye, Derek." Meredith said and hung up on him.
"Meredith Grey." She stated.
"Hi, Meredith Grey." Finn said trying to be funny. Meredith didn't laugh not wanting to string him along just to dump him at the end. When Finn didn't hear her laughing anymore he stopped. "So, I was just checking up on you. You weren't at your house and I stopped by at the hospital and they said you went home for the day. Are you okay?" Finn asked. Meredith sighed and bit her lip.
"Finn, can we go somewhere to get coffee and talk?" She asked trying to keep some pep in her voice.
"Yeah." Finn answered. Meredith and Finn set a place to meet and Meredith was on her way back to the city.
DMDMDMDMD
Derek hung up the phone. He let out a breath of air and his pager went off. "Uggg. Why right now." He whispered under his breath.
"Mr. Sullivan. I'm gonna recommend a night of observation in the ICU, before Doctor Sloan proceeds with your surgery." Derek told the patient.
"Is that really necessary, Doctor Shepherd?" Mark asked. Derek walked away from the patient's bed with Mark following him. Mark leaned into him. "The longer we wait the higher the risk of infection." Mark informed.
"Right you can support the life threating injuries before you do cosmetic, Doctor Sloan." Derek said madly.
"He's not here for a face lift, Derek. He's a burn victim." Mark informed.
"Why did you ask for a consult, if you've already established a course of action?"
"Because I thought you were good enough at your job to put aside the-" Derek cut Mark of.
"Do not tell me how to do my job. Now you're telling me how to do my-" Derek said angrily.
"Please, I'm sure it's complicated. And I know Shawny's sorry for lighting that smoke. He was trying to keep his word to Doctor Bailey. He told her he wasn't gonna smoke when he got home. And he was…just trying to keep his word… he knows he did wrong. But he's… he's a salesman that's who he is. So, could you please just fix his face? Could you do that for us please?" Mrs. Sullivan said. Derek and Mark looked at each other. Derek walked toward the nurse's station and Mark followed him.
"What happened between me and Addison is so unforgivable? How do you justify what happened between you and Meredith?" Mark asked as Derek put his lab coat on.
"What the hell are you talking about?" Derek asked.
"You want me to be the bad guy. Fine, but I'm not the only bad guy. Derek you and me… we're the same." Mark informed. Derek stared at Mark for a second before walking away.
MDMDMDMDM
"Meredith." Finn smiled when he saw Meredith walk into the coffee shop. Meredith gave him a little smile. Finn got up and leaned in to kiss Meredith. At the last second she turned her head so he kissed her cheek. When Finn pulled back he looked disappointed. Meredith gave him another small smile. She sat down across from him and as Finn sat down she let out a sigh just loud enough to Finn to hear. "Hey, are you okay?" Finn asked. Meredith shook her head.
"You shouldn't ask that." Meredith said quietly.
"I care about you." Finn said genuinely.
"No, Finn. Really you shouldn't ask that." Meredith said. She bit her lip and looked him in the eye. Finn pulled back from his lean on the table. His face showed realization. He opened his mouth to speak, but closed it quickly. Meredith sighed.
"So, it's Derek." Finn more so stated then asked. Meredith slightly nodded her head.
"I'm so sorry." She was holding back tears. Knowing Finn was the better guy and she should tell him about the baby and hope he would raise it with her, but there was almost no chance of that and she didn't love Finn. She was in love with Derek. They both let out sighs.
"Can I ask why?" Finn let out.
"You are a great guy. … You're a wonderful guy. And you may even be the better guy." Meredith sadly smiled and took a deep breath in. "But…"
"He's the one." Finn said. He understood.
"And I wish he wasn't." Meredith said with a smile.
"He's gonna hurt you again." Finn informed her. Meredith nodded her head and let her eyes look up at the ceiling not wanting the tears to come. Not then, not when she was breaking his heart and he wasn't even crying. Even with her trying not to cry the tears came and she quickly wiped them off. "And I won't be here." Finn nodded his head.
"Damn hormones." Meredith said wiping the tears away as fast as she could. Finn stopped in his tracks. He walked back around to see Meredith's face.
"Are you pregnant?" Finn asked quietly. Meredith wiped some tears way.
"Yes." She said. Finn sat down again.
"So you broke up with me because you're pregnant and then you lie to me and say it's because of Derek?" Finn asked. Meredith's head shot up and she gave him a dirty look.
"No! I love him." Meredith said getting up from the chair. Finn sat there dumbfounded. He got up and followed her out.
"I'm sorry. I didn't want to be lied to." Finn said as he grabbed her hand. Meredith flinched and pulled her hand away from him. "Uh… sorry." Meredith looked at him.
"I didn't lie to you. I love Derek he is the one." Meredith said.
"Even though you don't want him to be?" Finn asked.
"Yes." Meredith choked out getting teary eyed again. Finn nodded his head.
"Okay…" He walked toward what Meredith presumed was he car, before tuning around. "Take care of yourself." With that he walked away. Meredith let out a breath she didn't know she was holding in. She got in her car.
I need air. I need to breath. Meredith drove until she found the place she was before. Hoping this time she wouldn't have to talk to anyone this time. I just need some peace and quiet.
DMDMDMDMDMD
Should I call Meredith to see where and when she wants to talk or should I let her call me. I'm too tired. I'll let her call me.
Derek drove into his makeshift drive way and saw Meredith's car. What the? Wait she's here. Derek got out of the car and walked up onto the porch. He opened the door and took two steps inside. He looked into the bedroom and didn't see her. Derek stood there confused before walking outside again. He sighed and looked in her car to see if she was still in there. Nope. Derek walked into the trailer and turned the lights off. He got a flashlight and walked the property. He got closer to the cliff and saw a little glow of light. A smile stretched its way across his face. He turned off his flashlight and put it in his pocket. He slowly made his way over to Meredith. She had her knees pulled up to her chest and her chin rested on her knees. Derek sat down beside her.
MDMDMDMDM
Crap, he found me. "Hey." Meredith said.
"Meredith…" Derek started.
"I broke up with Finn." Meredith blurted out. Derek looked at her in shock. She turned her head to looked out at the view and continued. "I…you…it's just…" Meredith sighed. "You're the one." She said. Derek looked out at the view and smiled.
"Meredith, I..." Derek turned to look at Meredith. She continued to look out at he view and Derek put his hand under her chin and turned her head to look him in the eyes. He smiled when she unconsciously liked her lips. "I love you." Derek said. Meredith smiled as Derek leaned in to kiss her. The kiss was soft and innocent. When they pulled back from the kiss Meredith opened her mouth to say something, but closed it and leaned into him again. "What?" Derek laughed. Meredith pulled back to look him in the eye.
"Um… I love you, too." Meredith said with a smile. Derek nodded his head and wrapped his arms around her.
"Okay. Now, what were you going to say before?" Derek asked. Meredith leaned her head on Derek's chest and let out a deep breath. She was silent. Derek squeezed her a little letting her know that she could say what she needed to.
"Derek, I'm…I'm pregnant." She let out. Derek tensed. Meredith turned to look him in the eye.
"I don't understand." Derek said dumbfound.
"What do you mean?" Meredith asked.
"You broke up with…Finn." Derek reminded.
"Yes, because I love you. You're the one for me." Meredith said. That was cheesy. Are my hormones making me cheesy? God Cristina better not hear about this.
"But Finn." Derek said. Meredith looked at him confused. Oh he thinks Finn's the father. Wait what no!
"Derek, Finn…I never…we never." Meredith paused hoping she wouldn't have to say it. Derek obviously didn't understand what she was saying. She groaned. "Derek we never had sex." She exclaimed. Derek's eyes widened.
"Oh." That was all he could get out. Meredith nodded her head.
"You're the father." Meredith said. She reached for his hand and placed it uncomfortably below her stomach. Derek gave her a big smile.
"Our baby?" Derek said. Meredith rolled her eyes.
"Yes our baby." She smiled and turned around to look out at the view.
"Your gonna keep it, right?" Derek asked suddenly. Meredith didn't turn around she just continued to look out at the view.
"Yes, Derek. I can't kill something we made together." She whispered just loud enough for Derek to hear. Derek smiled and his thoughts went to the baby Meredith was carrying.
