Chapter 1:

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Chapter 1: Gone

Bella POV:

I felt as if my world suddenly came crashing down on me. My heart broke into a million pieces, nothing could make me whole again. The love of my whole existence had just told me he didn't want me.

As I watched him disappear into the forest I wanted to beg and plea for him to stay with me. I opened my mouth but no words came out. He was gone forever. Gone forever. Forever. Forever.

Beep! Beep! Beep!

My alarm clock went off in my ear. I didn't want to get up there was no point of living, not with out him. I would have to live for the rest of my life knowing he was gone and he didn't love me. To him I was just a toy that he got bored of then got chucked in the trash. I knew I was extremely angry, I just didn't know who I was angry with. Was I angry with him for pretending to love me then leaving me with no warning, taking my heart with him, or was I angry with myself for actually believing he loved me in the first place? Before he left I was so happy and full of life. Now I was depressed and empty. It was like I had no emotions left, they had been burned out. Most of the time I just copied what everyone else was feeling, like if everyone was smiling I would smile, if everyone was grieving, I would grieve. I would copy the emotions of the people around me.

Charlie came into my room. He hated seeing me like this, isolated and miserable. So I had to pretend I was over Edward for him. Even thinking of his name cut the hole where my heart had been even deeper. It had been a year and it still hurt as much as it had on the first day. But I learnt to keep my emotions to myself, at least when Charlie was around. He shouldn't have to deal with something that was not his fault. It was my fault I had let him in; let myself believe that he loved me. That a god like him could love a clumsy, normal human like me was absurd, but his emotion, his touch made me believe.

I pulled myself out of bed and went to have a shower. When I came back to my room I decided to put on my old baggy clothes. It was Saturday and I didn't need to get dressed up. Charlie was going fishing for the whole day. I remember when he had first left me, Charlie would not leave me alone for a second, let alone a whole day. I think he thought I would do something drastic if I was left unsupervised. Sometimes he would even send me to the Black's house, which was up the road. I would hang out with Jacob while Billy and Charlie went fishing. I have actually become quite good friends with Jacob. He can make me smile, laugh and even help me forget about Edward for a few hours. He is like a ray of light that shines through the darkness. But that light extinguishes as soon I am home, alone and I begin to think of him again.