Disclaimer: DC is not mine to own!

Genre: Angst/Hurt/Comfort

Pairing: ConanAi (as always; sorry Ran fans! I promise I'll make a ShinRan fic someday!)

Summary: Yes. She was numb. Numb from the feeling of pain… Numb from the feeling of cold tears falling down her cheeks. "There is no use of my existence…"

"No… don't do this to yourself…" When will she realize…? …Love? ConanAi One-shot

I need you…

Numb

"I love Ran. I'm sorry."

Those words kept on ringing in her ear and every word gave her a hurting pain in her heart much worst than a wound which resulted from a huge dagger slicing her heart in half.

Yes, the pain of gunshots was nothing if compared to the emotional pain that she was experiencing. She'd rather get shot by a huge riffle with him by her side than to bare this pain without him.

Yes, she was depressed, very depressed, for she knew that Kudo Shinichi, the only one she ever loved aside from her departed sister Akemi, loved another, and she was Ran. She knew that she could never have him, and because of too much grief and sadness, her heart stopped feeling altogether.

Yes.

She was numb.

Numb from the feeling of pain……

Numb from the feeling of cold tears gushing down her cheeks.

"There is no use of my existence…" Haibara thought sadly.

Therefore, her tiny brave pair of feet took a step forward.

She took the leap… and didn't feel; for she was already numb.

"No… don't do this to yourself…" The voice pleaded.

With welling tears in her eyes, she looked up to face the speaker. Her eyes widened upon seeing who it was who held onto her arm, not letting go, stopping her from doing the gravest thing that she could ever do to herself-- jumping out of a building rooftop to commit suicide!

It was a good thing that Conan had seen her and had prevented her from death right on time.

"Kudo?!" Haibara expressed with surprise in her tone.

Conan gave a warm smile to her-- the genuine smile which melted her heart in an instant.

Tears were forming again as she looked down the ground 50 feet below her.

"I'm sorry." She mumbled. "I regret this."

"Idiot…" Conan murmured. "…Don't ever do something so stupid, baka."

Slight tears were forming in Conan's eyes as well as he said that.

"I care, Haibara, doesn't mean that I love Ran that I don't love you anymore. I love you as a sister; as a best friend; you're family, Haibara."

Conan pulled her up and carried her, then, while gently putting her down the floor, he said.

"You are very important to me."

He embraced her.

"You are not alone, I care, Haibara."

As soon as she felt his warm embrace, hot tears of joy flowed down her cheeks because now she realized finally.

"Kudo…"

She whispered.

"Hmm…?"

Conan asked, raising his eyebrows.

She smiled.

"I'm not numb anymore; no longer numb."

"Baka…"

Conan said, smiling.

"You should have known that a long time ago."

-END-

Yo! Yo! People of earth! Please review earthling Conan addicts! -- okay, I know this is weird… SORRY! I don't know what got into me just then…

Anyways… see you guys again in my next fic!

-MiyanoRan

Handwritten: Sept. 20, 2008- Sept 26, 2008 (in school during free periods or break time)

Computerized:

Time Started: Wednesday October 14, 2008 6:45 PM

Time Ended: Wednesday October 14, 2008 7:16 PM