Gil,
Even though I'd like nothing more than to see you again before I leave, I fear I no longer have the strength to do so. You don't know how many times I've thought about you over the year since I left. You haven't left my mind for a single day, and for the last year I've tried so many times to gather the courage to see you once more. I never could. I realize that it was me who left you. I often wonder if you hate me for it. I still wonder now. But, when I decided to leave, I left because I was carrying our child. I couldn't bear exposing the tiny life we created to the dangers I knew and lived through in Las Vegas. We already had gone through Natalie, and I couldn't put her through more. Turns out, leaving didn't help save our child anyways. I left to protect her, and she died soon after she was born. Now, it's my turn. I send you this letter so you can know that I have always loved you. I've loved you since the day we met. I always knew this would happen and my only regret is that I can't say good bye to you. I knew I was dying and I knew the odds were against me the longer I waited. But, truth be told, I never wanted to admit it. The doctors found a brain tumor right before the incident and I ignored what they said for as long as I could. But then, I had a reason to live. I didn't know what to do, so I ran. I ran to somewhere I felt would be safe. Safe to bear our child and a place I thought I could cheat death from, if only for a little while. I knew your position at the lab and understood you didn't have the option of leave with me. The lab needed you, and your job is your life. It was the same reason we never married. Even though I did the only thing I could think of at the time, I always regretted leaving you. I still do. You've been in my thoughts and dreams since the day I left. And now, I like to think we'll meet again. I beg you to forgive me and grant me one visit. A visit so that if I live, I can wake up to a friend, and if I don't I can die knowing you were there with me. The thought of seeing you again, even if just for a little while, warms my heart. Let me see your face one last time before I put my life in the hands of luck. And even if you can't or won't come, I understand. I love you. I always have. I always will.
Forever yours,
Sara
A/N So I've completely failed in actually planning a story, so as always I'm just going to wing it. Let me know what you think so far by clicking the green button below!!! And SON'T JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS!!! I plan to have a story that twists and turns like a rollercoaster.
