Heart of Stone
We never learn,
Hurt together, Hurt Alone
Don't you sometimes
Wish your heart was made of stone
Heart of Stone-Cher
A howl sounded off in the distance. It sounded... heartbroken. I looked up at the moon shining down upon his grey form. I knew leaving would break his heart but I have nothing else to give. She stole everything I had in one instant. He still loves me, I know that. Our love will never die. However, their love is stronger, I know this. I have accepted that, there is nothing else either of us could do about that. At first we tried to fight it, but fate seems to hate me. I bet if fate were a person, she would be laughing at me right now.
I took one last look at the beautiful La Push beach as I continue walking. Leaving will be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do, but I have to. I don't think he understands, not fully anyways. It is just too difficult for me to be around them. It was almost unbearable at first but I endured it. I endured it for my family, I had to. Then after the change, hearing his every thought, seeing her face in his mind, I realized what unbearable really was. I endured that to, for my pack, for my brother, for the safety of everyone. Now there is a way out of this pain and I must take it. For the stench of a leech is much easier than the pain I felt. Also I cannot leave my brothers side in his decision. He is my family and I will not leave him, especially not for him.
"Why are you doing this?" I felt his presence before I saw him.
"You know why."
"Leah, please don't leave."
"How can you of all people say that to me? I have done everything for you, I have given you everything I had, and now, I must do this for me. Do not ask me to stay again."
"You said you would never leave." Pain was etched in his face.
"As did you."
"I never left." I looked into his chocolate eyes and wished I hadn't.
"Yes, yes you did. You left me."
"I tried not to, really I did." His eyes were begging me now but my eyes had turned cold many years ago and I could not even find it in my heart to feel pity for him.
"It doesn't matter. It will be easier for everyone now. I know the burden I placed on the pack, I know how my cold attitude hurts her, and I know how it hurts you to see me still."
"Not as much as you leaving will hurt me." A low howl reminded me that I needed to leave, and the timing was perfect. I guess fate was giving me a bit of a break.
"I have to go now. You'll always have a part of my heart, and I know I will have a part of yours but for now, it is my time to leave, my time to let go."
He opened his mouth to speak again but I put one finger on his warm lips to stop him.
"Go back to Emily, Sam."
He placed a gentle kiss on my finger and with that I turned my back on my first love's face forever.
A/N: I am not entirely too sure where I am going to take this but I was listening to heart of stone by Cher and being really depressed and just started writing. This takes place in Breaking Dawn when Leah join's Jake's pack. Tell me what you think and any ideas if you have them!
