This is a BB/Rae story. I don't own anything dealing with Teen Titans.


6:00 on a rainy morning, Titans Tower. Raven sat in her room and watched each drop of ice water hit her window. The glow of the grey clouds flowed gently into her room, giving a sad kind of light to each dark object that she owned. It was a Saturday morning and her eyes and weary mind wanted nothing more than to fall into a deep sleep.

But each thought that crossed Raven's troubled mind sunk her heart lower and lower, making it impossible to sleep. No one should be this sad. No one should be so emotionally unbalanced. Everything in her life had always seemed to have gone wrong. Everything, except meeting her friends. But as each day passed, the lonelier she got, even when her friends were around. Her sad moods probably seemed too pathetic for anyone to deal with and her anger probably scared everyone, especially Beast Boy, away.

She was finding it difficult to get along with the Titans these days. They were always arguing or in conflict about something stupid. Arguing was something Raven was good at, but it was also something she dearly hated for some unknown reason.

Only 9 months ago she brought the world to its end but after finding her strength and hope, she created a new beginning. Not like she expected to be treated as the "hero of the world" or something, but she thought things would have changed some. It wasn't so much that she wanted attention, it was that her friends were still so caught up with themselves that they didn't seem to live like it was their last day, which Raven had tried to do ever since her father, Trigon, came through the portal.

All in all, she just wasn't happy. The thing about it was, she hardly had a clue why. Maybe all the judgment and rude remarks were finally getting to here; maybe she was jealous that no one paid attention to her. Whatever it was, she just wanted it all to stop. After a long fight of memories, she finally got into her senses and decided to meditate.

She walked out of her room and into the living room. The large windows revealing the ocean view always calmed her and captivated her into a world she wished she could drown in. Raven never usually meditated here, but since it was so early, she didn't expect anyone to be up.

"Azerath metrion zinthos. Azerath metrion zinthos," Raven continued to breathe. As hard as she tried to clear her heavy mind, the more it seemed to become impossible. She heard a door shut from upstairs. Raven stopped and contemplated whether she should go back into her room. But after hearing another door open, then close again, she figured it was just one of the titans going to the bathroom and would return to their sleep. Unable to refocus, she listened to the sound of the sink running from the upstairs bathroom. And to her surprise, she was also hearing the sound of the shower. Someone was up, either Cyborg or Robin. Beast Boy never got up early, he was the stay up late and wake up late type. It couldn't have been Starfire; she would have heard her yell in pain as the shower spat out steaming water on her. Starfire still hadn't figured out how to use the new shower system Cyborg installed.

For some odd reason, knowing that someone was up comforted her. She wasn't completely alone and it made her feel at ease for the first time that early morning. Raven started meditating and became lost in her own serene world. She was lost for what seemed forever, but it felt good. Her heart beat at a steady but fast pace that made her exhale every trouble that held her down. All her anguish was smashed into tiny pieces like dropping ice onto the cement. The glass of her heart shattered and became un-Closter phobic again. For the first time in hours, she was set free.

A sound broke her silence and jerked her out of place. "Hey Rae," came a calm and friendly voice from behind her.

Raven turned and saw Robin standing in the kitchen, drinking a glass of water. She hadn't seen or sensed his presence; she had been too caught up in the feeling of relief. Robin wiped tiny drops of water off of his forehead. His midnight-black hair was soaked from his shower and was shagged around the sides of his head. His hair was noticeably long without being spiked up with hair gel. The look suited him well.

"Oh, hey," Raven said trying to smile. Raven sat on the couch and got her book that was lying on top of the arm. She frowned as she saw bite marks and rips from Beast Boy chewing on it out of boredom.

Robin sat next to her and sighed. "You're up early" Raven said as she opened her demolished book. "I'm always up at this time. As I told you before, I love the idea of a new day." Robin sounded cheery and renewed. Raven envied his happiness and only wished she could feel the same.

Robin continued, "I heard you get up this morning."

"Ya, I couldn't sleep. So I figured I'd just come out here."

"Good plan. You'll get to see the sunrise. It's especially beautiful on a rainy day. There may be clouds in the way but you can see the sun coming up through them." Robin got up and stood in front of the window. Raven watched him with jealousy.

"…Ya…I suppose I might be worth seeing," Raven said, trying to sound enthusiastic. But Robin was smarter than that and sensed the uneasy tone in her voice.

"Raven, is everything ok?" He sat back down looked at her. Raven started to flush and panic. He was like a brother to her, and he was probably the only best friend she had. He could read her like a book, no matter how tragic her stories written in her were.

"Ya, I'm good. I've just…been thinking a lot lately."

Robin frowned, "About what?"

"…Nothing important" There was a few moments of silence before Robin spoke. "If something is bothering you, it's got to be important. You're not someone to worry about pointless things." Raven wished he hadn't of said that. She felt like he might take her words and make them seem like "pointless things". She was definitely not telling him now; she couldn't take any more judgment.

"No, really, it's nothing." His face started to look concerned. "Well, maybe it's nothing to you. But your nothing is something to me." She stared at her book, and thought about a reply. Before she could answer Robin gently said, "Raven, you know you can tell me anything. And I'm not going to judge you in any way. You can trust me."

His words slipped through her head like water 'And I'm not going to judge you in any way.' But trust was something she didn't really believe in. Trust was foolish. Trust was an unwise thing to hold on to. Trust was nothing but a road to disappointment and pain. Although his words meant a lot to her, she still was afraid. But the more she thought, the more she knew that she had nothing to say. She still didn't even know why she was so down.

Raven looked at him and he smiled. "Sorry if it seems like I'm prying. I just don't like it when you're hurt." Raven felt his words on her heart and she gave a small smile back in return. "If you ever need to talk, don't even think twice about finding me." Robin got up went into the kitchen. "Do you want some cereal?"