I honestly can't believe myself – another fluffy Destiel fic which just went down the toilet of Angst. Mybad :s … disclaimer: I don't own
Catch me when I Fall. Please. Or I'll just feel like I'm Falling for nothing, and I don't think I could cope with that. Especially not when I can feel. This 'feeling', it hurts. I can feel your love. It's warm – so warm that it burns. And I can feel your estrangement from me – it's so cold that it burns.
I know that you love me, but you don't understand me. How can you? You're just a human. But no, you're not, are you? You never were 'just a human'. Because you're different – you're special. You're the one who started it all, the plaything of angels. And you're brave. Brave and strong. Braver and stronger than any angel I've ever come across. So I deem you worthy of the love of an angel.
You're worthy of being Fallen for, of course you are. But don't you think I have the right to be just a little sad? I just renounced my whole family for your love – don't you think I have the right to be a little needy?
No, you don't, do you? Because you are human. And humans are selfish. You would never think of it from my perspective, would you? It's all 'get your ass down here, Cas' and 'we need your help again, Cas' and 'you never help us any more, Cas'. And then it's all 'I'm sorry, Cas' and 'I love you, Cas' and 'please kiss me, Cas'.
And I do. I come to you when you call, I help when you ask, I forgive when you need and I kiss when you crave. But love? I thought that was why I Fell for you – because I loved you – but it seems that love requires more than drunken caresses. But forgive me – I was naïve.
Thoughts? Rants about my hopeless addiction to angst? Anything? Please? (hehe who's needy now, eh?)
xx
