A/N: First off, I hate long author's notes so I'll try not to make any unless it's necessary. Secondly, this is my first fic, so if you're here to bash or just be rude then you can fuck off now. Thirdly, this is a female/female story, don't like? don't read. It is intended for mature audiences. That means you little 13 year old pervy wanna be's shouldn't be here.
Disclaimer: I DON'T OWN ANYTHING! Everything belongs to S. Meyer, except the plot. That shit's all mine.
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APOV
Dear brother, what have you done? I think angrily. The girl that sleeps before me is not the same one I so unwillingly left behind. I should have never gone. Jazz is the only reason I left so hastily; I had to be sure that he knew none of this was his fault. He is my best friend, I couldn't let him beat himself up over something that he had no control over.
Flashback
"Oh Jazz.." I call after I finally catch up to him a few miles into the Yellowstone National Forrest. He is sitting on a boulder; staring off into the distance.
"Alice, it's you." he says, not moving except to speak.
"Jasper Whitlock, you listen to me, and you listen to me good. This was not your fault. You didn't hurt her. You felt everyone of our blood lusts; there was no way even Carlisle could keep control with all of that. No one blames you. Not even Bella." I was standing in front of him with my hands on my hips by this point.
A small smile graces his lips, "Alice, Alice, my sweet Alice, I know that I don't have perfect control,"
I start to interrupt him but he holds his finger up to stop me.
"However, I cannot allow myself to believe that this is anyone's but my own fault. I have lived with the blood lust of thousands for years. I should be able to control myself with a small paper cut. Alice, it's time. I need some space to myself, I put my family in grave danger today. Imagine if the Volturi found out, I will not allow that. I will travel the States; maybe go see Peter for a while, he's been bugging me for a visit for a while. Who knows, maybe he knows something about my true mate.."
My eyes burn with the venom tears that won't fall. I knew this was coming, but I didn't expect it now. "Jasper, are you sure? Now?"
"Ali, I need this." He comes and wraps his arms around me as I start to sob, "I need to find me again, I am not a senior in High School forever, I am a Major. I need to be who I am. You made me a better man by showing me how to hunt humanely; you are my best friend. Always was, always will be. Even if I meet my mate one day, you'll be the first to know, and the first to approve of her. I love you, Ali. Let me go."
"I'll miss you Jazz," I sob.
"I'll miss you too Darlin' don't worry about me, I'm just a call away." He kisses my forehead for a few seconds before backing away and tilting his head to me in a southernly fashion and with that he was gone.
End Flashback
I sigh as I remember the day Jazz left, he had called me a few days later to tell me he was with Peter and Charlotte in Tennessee. Now I was here, doing the exact thing I had been longing to do for the last five months. By the time I had gotten back to the family, they had all gone to Denali minus Edward. I had been so distraught by Jazz leaving that I hadn't been looking into his future, and when I did I was shocked at what I saw. I took off to Denali to drag Carlisle back to talk some sense into him, but when I got there I was too late. He had already broken her. I sat in the attic for a long time before Esme forced me to feed with her.
"Alice….no...stay...please.." I was ripped from my thoughts by Bella's sleepy mumblings. She was having a nightmare of me leaving. I quickly rushed to her side, stroking her hair from her face.
"Oh my Bella, I'll never leave you again." I promised. More to myself than to her. I couldn't bear the thought of leaving her ever again. Just then my phone vibrates in my pocket, I quickly and carefully move towards her window.
"Hi, mom" I greet
"Oh sweetie, how is she?" she asks, genuinely concerned.
I sigh, "She isn't the same, how could we let him do this to her, she is so fragile, even more now. He completely ruined her. Mom, I don't know how to fix her."
"Maybe she needs her best friend back, you're staying there with her right?"
"Of course I am Mom, I can never leave her again. I need her."
"Maybe you should let her know that too, although I wouldn't mention anything about you being her True Mate just yet.."
I'm speechless for a second, "How..what...when?" I stumble.
"Sweetie, I am your mother, I know when my daughter is in love." I can almost hear the smile in her voice.
"Thank you Mom, I'll call you soon." I say
"Actually, we'll be there in three weeks, I'm sure we'll see you sooner. Goodbye Alice." she says as she hangs up.
I look out the window and watch the sunrise. I have never felt the love that I have for Bella ever before. The first day I saw her I knew that I would be changed forever. She made my dead heart beat once again. Edward couldn't read her thoughts, then he realized that she was his singer, assuming that she was his mate. I knew she would never want me so I stepped back and allowed him to court her. The biggest mistake I had ever made in my undead years. I allow myself to seethe in anger a moment longer before turned around to face Bella, she would be waking in 13 seconds.
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"Alice, you stayed," she said, waking up suddenly once she sees me.
"Of course, I promised." I say with smile.
"You promised a lot of things…" And with that my smile faded and I realized we had a lot to discuss.
