All my life I've heard of Take-nii

Told that my life was precious because he gave his life protecting mine

Told I look just like him…

Told I must live my life for him…

Do my very best for HIM

What about ME?

I don't want his responsibilities

I never will

I want to live MY life not his

You think I dyed my hair pink for shits and giggles

I did it so people would stop referring to me as the "spitting image" of Take-nii

We aren't the same people and I wish everyone…including my family would see that

Please don't get me wrong, I love my brother and my family but…

Sometimes I feel I had been the one who died in the Blue night…

I think that's why I was so excepting of Rin…Everyone treating him like he is Satan himself when he really isn't… He's just Rin…

And I'm just Renzou…

And I want to live a quiet life…

One were I don't have to worry about death or responsibilities…

But…

I know that wont happen.

So, this was a very short rant of how i think Renzou Shima feels about himself and he's life :p