What Am I to do now. What will I do without her was the only thing going through Eriks mind that night. He was just standing there waiting for the mob to come for him when he collapsed onto the floor sobbing tears of rage and sorrow and anger, and pain, and fear. Oh yes fear. But not the fear of being alone. He was very used to that but the fear of never seeing her again. Yes he made her leave but no person in the world had given him so much love and joy. Even if she never even touched him or looked at him anywhere accept his stormy grey eyes for longer than a minute. Every move she made was bright and beautiful. Every time her high soprano voice lifted and fluttered through the air made him feel like never before. Every time she twirled around happily on stage with her dark auburn hair flying behind her like a free bird gliding through the air with no care or worries made him smile, but once the curtains fell and music ended, her music ended his heart and soul went back to his normal, lonely state. Every Monday and Thursday before she came down to meet him in the cellars for her lessons he would stare at the clock for hours at a time waiting till he could see her small bright smile and her tiny physique make its way through the door of his house. Well it wasn't really a house. It was just the lowest cellar beneath the Opera house. It was very huge. The lake was the main entrance to the house but Erik showed Christine a secret passage behind a cupboard in the kitchen. And every Monday and Thursday she would sneak out of her dorm room with the the middle of the night and make her way down to the dark kitchen and would push a button on the bottom of the cupboard and it would begin to move to the side. And right behind the closet would be a door that only opened to one certain word. Madeleine. Christine never understood why that was the code word or how the door could even understand how to open at any command at all but Christine never dared to ask about the two because even if Erik was good at hiding his feelings of pain and sadness she could tell from the tone of his voice the day he taught her how to use the passage that the word Madeleine brought great pain to him. Maybe even guilt. Only later did she realize who Madeleine really was. And only then did she realize why that name brought him such discomfort. Erik only made that the command word to hurt himself. A way to torment him. Remind him of his wrongs. His wrongs against the world. His only friend, his mother, and now it would remind him of his wrongs against Christine. The only person to never purposely harm him. But yet hurt him more than anyone in the whole world combined.
"Maybe it's better this way". He sobbed to himself while listening to the echoes of the mob. " I can no longer hurt her or anyone else once they find me".
That was when her heard slow foot steps behind him. Maybe it was a police man with a gun ready to fire or Raoul coming back to kill him for harming his fiancé. He honestly honestly didn't care. He didn't have anything else to live for. The only thing that could've stopped his tears was Christines beautiful voice. She was so beautiful and strong for the age of 15. She made him strong and gave him courage. If only she could do the same with her beauty.
"Erik,?" said a soft kind voice right above him.
Could it be her? Could she have come back despite it all. Would she forsake his wishes and demand to stay. Maybe she did love him. Maybe it wasn't impossible.
"Christine". Said Erik hopefully.
But his hopes were shattered once her turned to look at her. For what he saw broke his heart ten times more.
A small petite hand holding out a diamond ring with tears In her bright green eyes. He knew she wouldn't want to be with him. By giving back the ring, she gave back any feeling so Erik thought she could possibly have for him. But he knew that this was the right thing. She needed to be free.
