Darkness

Darkness

Clogging down my view

Clogging down my sight

Clogging down everything

Everything except his eyes

But nothing but darkness could be found in them either

No emotion

Just a smirk

This couldn't be

'Edward… No

Don't leave me

You can't leave me

You can't

I need you

You need me'

A slow white lie

A wish

His head bent to one side

Dark eyes watching

Watching me

But they were dark

They had no light

They had nothing in them

His lips twitched up in a grin and I knew

I knew he was going to do it

He would leave me

Again

But for real this time

My breathing

In panic accelerated

Formed two hands around my neck

Didn't let any air come in

No air

He was my air

But he was gone

I could see it in his eyes

He had already left me

My soul died

A little bit for every second that passed

Getting emptier and emptier

My tears grew cold

Still no air

Panicked gasps

Tears falling faster now

Welling up

Coloring my cheeks with a sprinkle of fairy drops

Like diamonds

Glistering

With pain

Suffer

Emptiness

He saw me slowly die

He saw my lack of air

He knew I was unstable

He knew I was so frail

When he took me in his arms

And saved me from myself

I thought that he loved me

Wanted me

I tried to kiss him

But found myself lying at the ground

Facing earth

Dirt

The slow corrosion of broken life

His eyes were darker

His hand was disgusted

His lips cold as he said

'You thought I was going to let you go so simply

Thought I was going to let you leave the simple way

Die

No pain

You deserve pain

You disgust me

I'm so tired of you

Who are you trying to fool

How did you ever excepted me to love someone like you

A pathetic creature

A worm

Leave your prayers for someone else

Leave all that you so dearly wish to say

Leave all the thoughts of owning me

You don't own me

You never will

Isabella

Why can't you see

I

Don't

Want

You

I have someone already

Someone a thousand times prettier

A thousand times more beautiful

More gorgeous

More loveable

Than you

So please listed to me

I don't want you

I don't love you

I hate you'

I

Hate

You

Nothing was clear

Nothing was real any more

Everything was just fading

Everything was just pain

I didn't want to believe

He didn't love me

His eyes didn't love me

His hands…

Even his hand didn't love me

They had seemed to love me so much before

Before her

Before him shutting me out

Before him telling me good bye

I had begged him to stay

I had begged him to keep me

Been going through his window at nights

Watching him chase me away

Leaving my soul behind

An echo of me

I had wished

I had hoped

I had begged

But there was no light in his eyes

His hands was disgusted

My breathing couldn't even panic

My eyes couldn't even cry

The palm of my hand comforting my hair

Trying with my other hand to make me stay put together

Trying to keep me from exploding

I was exploding

But mostly dying

My soul so empty in the bottom of my tummy

It wanted to die

I wanted to die

Cold fingers cradling me closer

Keeping me close to the ground

The darkness

The pain

His eyes

Disgusted

Not wanting me

My eyes shut down the lights

Couldn't keep up the believing anymore

No more tears falling down

No more panicked gasps

Emptiness

I was empty

Faded

No one

Just me and the ugly clog in my chest

Killing me from the inside

My eyes died with my soul as he looked at me

They were cold

Metallic

I couldn't let him go

I wouldn't let him go

I couldn't make him stay

I could not make him stay

I would try

But it was too late

He was already gone

He wasn't mine anymore

Had he ever been

He had pulled me up just to hit me to the ground

His eyes impatient

Irritated

This wasn't him

This wasn't my Edward

Where had he gone

The Edward with warm eyes

Warm hands

Warm feet caressing mine as we lay in bed the whole day

And the whole night

Just wanting to look at each other

Wanting the touch

Where had he gone

Was he gone

I looked up

Once again

To find nothing at all

Realizing he was gone

My Edward was gone

Not fully realizing

Not fully wanting to see it

So hard to believe something unbelievable

Still knowing

This was the end

He was gone

Soon was I

No last good bye

He turned away

Leaving me dead

On the cold ground

Minutes past

Hours too

I didn't want food

I didn't want to drink

I didn't want to live

It was all over

This was the end

I couldn't see

I couldn't move

Day became night

Night became day

Repeated itself

I hated the light

I rose the third day

My body had to die too

It was aching too much after the memories of him

I didn't wanted the memories

The pain as my skin longed for his hands

The pain when my lips thought his was near

The pain when I thought of his dead metallic eyes

When I realized he wasn't mine anymore

That he was gone

After I rose the third day

I didn't wanted to live

I wasn't living

He was the only one I had

Had

He was now something I didn't have

He was my air

I had no air

And no panic attacks could ever make me breathe again

Since he

The only one who could save me -

Wasn't there

He was gone

Soon was I

Slow steps forward

Pushing me closer to the edge

Soon I was there

The sea was dancing fiercely beneath me

Under

Over

Why should I care

I wanted to join the dance

Wanted to be caressed

Wanted to disappear

Be one with the emptiness

I couldn't care anymore

He was my only one

My life

I was already empty enough

I was already dead

Better make it for real

Sometimes it takes a sleep to forget

A long sleep

This one would last for eternity

I closed my eyes

And jumped

A/N:

This is my first published one- shot at and I hope you liked it.

If you did, please review and let me know.

Personally I like my stories to speak for themselves, but if you have so questions you're of course welcome to ask them.

Thank you for reading!

Saga