Darkness
Darkness
Clogging down my view
Clogging down my sight
Clogging down everything
Everything except his eyes
But nothing but darkness could be found in them either
No emotion
Just a smirk
This couldn't be
'Edward… No
Don't leave me
You can't leave me
You can't
I need you
You need me'
A slow white lie
A wish
His head bent to one side
Dark eyes watching
Watching me
But they were dark
They had no light
They had nothing in them
His lips twitched up in a grin and I knew
I knew he was going to do it
He would leave me
Again
But for real this time
My breathing
In panic accelerated
Formed two hands around my neck
Didn't let any air come in
No air
He was my air
But he was gone
I could see it in his eyes
He had already left me
My soul died
A little bit for every second that passed
Getting emptier and emptier
My tears grew cold
Still no air
Panicked gasps
Tears falling faster now
Welling up
Coloring my cheeks with a sprinkle of fairy drops
Like diamonds
Glistering
With pain
Suffer
Emptiness
He saw me slowly die
He saw my lack of air
He knew I was unstable
He knew I was so frail
When he took me in his arms
And saved me from myself
I thought that he loved me
Wanted me
I tried to kiss him
But found myself lying at the ground
Facing earth
Dirt
The slow corrosion of broken life
His eyes were darker
His hand was disgusted
His lips cold as he said
'You thought I was going to let you go so simply
Thought I was going to let you leave the simple way
Die
No pain
You deserve pain
You disgust me
I'm so tired of you
Who are you trying to fool
How did you ever excepted me to love someone like you
A pathetic creature
A worm
Leave your prayers for someone else
Leave all that you so dearly wish to say
Leave all the thoughts of owning me
You don't own me
You never will
Isabella
Why can't you see
I
Don't
Want
You
I have someone already
Someone a thousand times prettier
A thousand times more beautiful
More gorgeous
More loveable
Than you
So please listed to me
I don't want you
I don't love you
I hate you'
I
Hate
You
Nothing was clear
Nothing was real any more
Everything was just fading
Everything was just pain
I didn't want to believe
He didn't love me
His eyes didn't love me
His hands…
Even his hand didn't love me
They had seemed to love me so much before
Before her
Before him shutting me out
Before him telling me good bye
I had begged him to stay
I had begged him to keep me
Been going through his window at nights
Watching him chase me away
Leaving my soul behind
An echo of me
I had wished
I had hoped
I had begged
But there was no light in his eyes
His hands was disgusted
My breathing couldn't even panic
My eyes couldn't even cry
The palm of my hand comforting my hair
Trying with my other hand to make me stay put together
Trying to keep me from exploding
I was exploding
But mostly dying
My soul so empty in the bottom of my tummy
It wanted to die
I wanted to die
Cold fingers cradling me closer
Keeping me close to the ground
The darkness
The pain
His eyes
Disgusted
Not wanting me
My eyes shut down the lights
Couldn't keep up the believing anymore
No more tears falling down
No more panicked gasps
Emptiness
I was empty
Faded
No one
Just me and the ugly clog in my chest
Killing me from the inside
My eyes died with my soul as he looked at me
They were cold
Metallic
I couldn't let him go
I wouldn't let him go
I couldn't make him stay
I could not make him stay
I would try
But it was too late
He was already gone
He wasn't mine anymore
Had he ever been
He had pulled me up just to hit me to the ground
His eyes impatient
Irritated
This wasn't him
This wasn't my Edward
Where had he gone
The Edward with warm eyes
Warm hands
Warm feet caressing mine as we lay in bed the whole day
And the whole night
Just wanting to look at each other
Wanting the touch
Where had he gone
Was he gone
I looked up
Once again
To find nothing at all
Realizing he was gone
My Edward was gone
Not fully realizing
Not fully wanting to see it
So hard to believe something unbelievable
Still knowing
This was the end
He was gone
Soon was I
No last good bye
He turned away
Leaving me dead
On the cold ground
Minutes past
Hours too
I didn't want food
I didn't want to drink
I didn't want to live
It was all over
This was the end
I couldn't see
I couldn't move
Day became night
Night became day
Repeated itself
I hated the light
I rose the third day
My body had to die too
It was aching too much after the memories of him
I didn't wanted the memories
The pain as my skin longed for his hands
The pain when my lips thought his was near
The pain when I thought of his dead metallic eyes
When I realized he wasn't mine anymore
That he was gone
After I rose the third day
I didn't wanted to live
I wasn't living
He was the only one I had
Had
He was now something I didn't have
He was my air
I had no air
And no panic attacks could ever make me breathe again
Since he
The only one who could save me -
Wasn't there
He was gone
Soon was I
Slow steps forward
Pushing me closer to the edge
Soon I was there
The sea was dancing fiercely beneath me
Under
Over
Why should I care
I wanted to join the dance
Wanted to be caressed
Wanted to disappear
Be one with the emptiness
I couldn't care anymore
He was my only one
My life
I was already empty enough
I was already dead
Better make it for real
Sometimes it takes a sleep to forget
A long sleep
This one would last for eternity
I closed my eyes
And jumped
A/N:
This is my first published one- shot at and I hope you liked it.
If you did, please review and let me know.
Personally I like my stories to speak for themselves, but if you have so questions you're of course welcome to ask them.
Thank you for reading!
Saga
