Oh my gosh, so I decided to give up on "My Own Person" until I gain more muse for it. I'm terribly sorry for getting your hopes up just to crush them. Please enjoy this instead!
I don't own D. Gray-Man
Everyone has a tattoo somewhere on their body. It can be anywhere, but they're identical to their soulmates, they're the same size, color and in the same spot. I never took much interest in the prospect of meeting my soulmate, my life sucks anyway and with my luck my soulmates already dead or 85.
I hate looking at my tattoo i'm ugly enough as it is. I roll out of bed and run my fingers through my hair as I walk to my closet. I grab a pair of skinny jeans, combat boots and my favorite dark grey hoodie. After I get dressed I walk into my bathroom and give myself a once over: white hair, silver eyes, ugly red scar that marred one whole side of my face, a deformed red arm (which nobody has seen besides Cross) and my tattoo on my right leg that's covered up by my jeans (it's a branch of cherry blossoms that covers up most of the left side of my thigh.)
I cover my arm up with some bandages even though my hoodie will cover most of it up, and put on a black beanie to cover up some of my hair. I can't do anything for my scar or my eye color, so I shrug and head downstairs. Cross (his tattoo is a cross right on his collar bone) is standing in front of the door. I bite my tongue, avert my eyes and try to pass him.
Cross throws a swift punch, and I try to block it I was almost successful but he still hit me. Cross glares down at me, "Get out my face demon." This was normal for me, I push past him without a word and hurry to school before Lavi Bookman (one of my many bullies) can catch me.
I make it school without incident, but I know it won't last. I keep my head down as I enter my first class, and i'm a bit late. My teacher looks up at me and I still don't look up but I do note there's a new student standing near me. "Nice of you to join us Walker." my teacher said, "why were you late this time?" I'm late everyday.
I focus my eyes on a tile on the floor, "I got lost." I lie, I wasn't gonna tell them Cross had held me up so he hit me as usual.
My teacher doesn't seem to buy it because he eyes my bruise suspiciously but I walk on and sit in my seat as kids snicker at me and whisper "Loser."
My teacher clears his throat and says, "As I was saying, we have a new student, and his father is Tiedoll, please introduce yourself."
I stare out the window, and pretend to not be listening. The new student introduces himself, "I'm Kanda." he says flatly.
Kanda ends up sitting right next to me and my thoughts wander, what did his tattoo look like? I couldn't see it, Was he going to bully me too? My worst fear comes true as Lavi chats with Kanda, "Hi i'm Lavi!~" Lavi says cheerily, "don't talk to him" Lavi whispers, but I still hear it, "he's cursed." I grip the corner of my desk but continue to pretend i'm oblivious.
Kanda growls at him, and I can't help but laugh softly as he says "I can talk to whomever I want." Lavi glares at me and I slap my hand on my mouth. Kanda looks at me and I instinctively shrink. He has long raven colored hair that's put up in a ponytail, he looks of Japanese nationality. He feels familiar.
I mutter something in Japanese about Lavi being a total dick and Kanda snorts. Lavi gives me a warning glare, I'll be getting what comes to me when I go home. "My father, Cross is good friends with Tiedoll." I mutter.
"Cross Marian?" I nod, "I hate him," Kanda says bluntly.
I nod in agreement, with a small smile. I remember when I would stay at Tiedoll's house instead of going home to Cross, i'm glad he's back he feels like more of a father than Cross.
"Hi Allen," Tiedoll said, holding his paintbrush with an expert's grasp as I walk in his painting room. I smile,
"Why do you paint?" I ask, this is the millionth time this week, I dunno why but Papa made me stay at Uncle Tiedoll's a lot. I wanted to be home and play with my toys but Papa said mommy wasn't feeling very well.
"Because it's fun," Tiedoll said, Yuu was by his side sketching something as well. Me and Yuu have been hanging out a lot, he's kinda mean, but I can tell he's probably nice. Yuu doesn't like playing with toys, but that's fine. Yuu is taller than me and he always calls me moyashi, whatever that means.
Yuu and me spent the day napping on Uncle Tiedoll's couch, and when we woke up it was snowing outside, so Tiedoll let us play outside. Yuu made a snowman while I watched, because I waiting for the right moment to throw a snowball at him. He glared at me. "You gonna help me or not?" he growled.
"Nope." I say, before I chuck a snowball in his face with a laugh. He smirks and the snowball fight ensued.
Cross isn't actually my father, he's my foster father but I haven't told anyone that but Tiedoll. Mana was my foster father before Cross, but he passed when I was young. I was orphaned when I was born because of my deformed arm. Absolutely no one knows this. I plan to keep it that way.
I plan on going to Tiedoll's house after school, because I know he hasn't changed his address. School passes quickly and I get insulted quite a bit, and Kanda has all his classes with me.
"Hey there, loser!"
"Cursed!"
"Monster!"
"Demon!"
Kanda got fed up pretty quickly and glared at everyone who insulted me, "You don't have to do that.." I mutter. He rolls his eyes at me and goes on with his day, glaring coldly at anyone who looked at me wrong, it was almost like he actually liked me for who I was.
I had a relatively good day, but as I walk home it all comes crashing down. Lavi is waiting for me and I grit my teeth as he closes the distance between us with a punch on my jaw. I block another blow but he comes for me again with a snarl, "You cursed piece of crap!" He's most likely mad about me making a fool out of him.
He grabs my chin roughly and I whimper because he's gripping me that hard, he's unguarded so I take my chances and punch him in the abdomen he lets go and I run for it. He yells at me and I hear him run after me and I run faster. I run towards home but I don't know why, because i'll get the same treatment anyway. I crash into a big figure and Lavi still running after me, I look up and see that it's Kanda I've just collided with, "Hi Kanda, can you, um-"
"What's going on?" He asks looking at the new bruises on my face, I shake my head,
"Please move-"
"GET BACK HERE BITCH!" Lavi yells, I look over my shoulder and I try to get out of Kanda's grip (I didn't even realize he was holding me) and run but he holds fast. Lavi's getting closer and i'm really starting to freak out. "Let me go, please" I plead, but Kanda doesn't release his grip.
Lavi swings at me and I (out of instinct and pure fear for my life) hunch my shoulders, shrinking, and I crush myself against Kanda. I flinch, but no hit comes, and I look up and Kanda is holding Lavi's wrist, just above my head. Kanda shoves Lavi away, who runs away and I back away from Kanda, but he grabs my wrist. "S-sorry." I mutter and try to pull away, but Kanda starts to drag me into his house.
When I enter the first thing I see is Tiedoll standing in front of his canvas usual. He looks at me and Kanda, "ALLEN!" he says happily, but frowns when he sees my bruises. "Hi" I say, rubbing the back of my neck nervously.
"Who attacked you, Allen?" Tiedoll asks and I sigh,
"Lavi.."
My classmates beat me up even back when I was a child, and I always came to Tiedoll for help. Tiedoll shook his head, "You'd think they'd grow up.." he muttered.
Kanda gives me a questioning look; 'this time?' it said, and I chuckled and whispered, "It happens a lot." Tiedoll hears it and laughs as well.
"I'm glad you two are friends again.."
"Again?" I say, confused.
"Yeah, you guys were childhood friends!" Tiedoll said, sniffling, tears streaming down his cheeks. Kanda groaned at the sight. I gave him a friendly glare. The memories came flooding back, me and Kanda playing in the snow, me and Kanda napping in Tiedoll's living room, the millions of conversations I can't even remember now…
"Oh yeah!" I reply, and Kanda sort of nods, and drags me upstairs and into his room. He gives me a cold look and I avert my eyes. "What?" I ask.
"Why was he attacking you like that?!" Kanda shouted, his anger chilled me to the bone and I backed away.
"I'm cursed," I whisper, it's all I plan on saying, but Kanda crosses his arms, just like when we were kids and he was angry with me. Even when I young I was secretive, I hid my arm and tattoo in bandages. I don't think Kanda ever grasped how my appearance affected how people perceive me.
He still sat there, giving me one of those looks, it was very attractive. "Look at me Kanda," I say gesturing to my entire body, "I'm as ugly as it gets and you don't even understand," I self-consciously hold my bandaged hand, he sees this so I stop.
Kanda gives me a sad look, "Moyashi," I recognize that nickname, he used to say it only when he was upset. "It won't happen again." he says.
I run to Tiedoll with tears in my eyes, "WAAAH!"
"What happened?" Tiedoll said gently, patting my head.
"H-he hit me!" I say pointing to a very mean red-head, I can't remember his name but maybe it started with an L. Tiedoll smiled and assured me it wouldn't happen again.
It happened again and again. Lavi, was his name and he hates me I think. I don't really know why, Papa told me not to show people my arm so he can't know what I look like. He's so mean and Tiedoll keeps telling me it won't happen again.
I tiptoe into my house, hopefully Cross is asleep.
I almost make it to my room before he grabs the hood on my hoodie and yanks me off my feet. I cry out and immediately curl into a fetal position my back facing him, he wastes no time kicking me and screaming at me. He's the reason I hide my tattoo, his soulmate died and he blames me to this day and refuses to let me find my soulmate.
"You useless demon! No one loves you! You're disgusting!"
He throws more insults at me and he pulls me up from my position, he draws his fist and punches me square in the jaw. He goes for another hit, he lands another good one in my abdomen and all the air escapes my lungs.
Cross mumbles to himself before leaving me on the floor, I hadn't realized I fell.
I climb to my feet when I know he's gone and I go to my room. I strip off all my clothes before climbing in the shower, it's freezing because Cross doesn't want me taking hot showers. I wash myself as quickly as possible because my muscles are becoming taunt and i'm shaking violently it's that cold.
I get out of my shower and get dressed, i'm still shaking and cold. I think the water streaming down my cheeks was from the shower until I realize i'm crying. I wipe my tears away with my sleeve but more tears keep coming. I knew it was wrong to think this, but Kanda lied, he said it wouldn't happen again, but here I am, with a sore body that's no doubt covered in bruises, beaten and abused as usual.
I leave my bathroom after I cover my arm and look for Cross, he has debt for me for sure. I look everywhere but his room but he's not there, he's most likely asleep. I do find the invoice for the debt and go on my way.
I'm at the bar dealing another round, I pretend to lose this round just so they don't think i'm cheating. In the middle of the next round I say, "I'm all in," and the people around me (who are extremely drunk) do the same. Someone else deals and we play.
"Royal Straight Flush." I say, grabbing all of their money. I give a sly smile.
I leave the game without any complaints and turn to leave the bar but one of the players stop me. He huge compared to me and he swings at me, I dodge and land my own punch right on the bridge of his nose. Blood explodes from his nose and he cries out and he lungs for me, but I kick him in the stomach and run for it.
I never fight my peers or Cross because I know i'd get in deeper shit than i'm already in, but i'm actually a good fighter. I learned everything I know from all those fights, I mean who wouldn't? I check to see if my money is intact as I run. It's still there so I run faster and eventually make it to my house.
I put my money on the counter and place the invoice next to it so Cross can find it in the morning and I go into my room. Once in the solitude of my room I change into different clothes and climb into bed. I'm exhausted so it doesn't take long for me to fall in a fitful sleep.
On a good note, most of this Fanfic is already written, I just have to finish up maybe 1 or 2 chapters and I'll be done. I'll post the next one sometime next week!
