It is one of those common sunny mornings on Boston.
The sky is almost fully covered by a bright-blue color. The weather, however, matches Lexie's humor not at all, which is an odd event because Lexie doesn't tend to be a mirthless woman. In fact, quite the opposite. Years might have gone by, but she is the same positive blissful person she used to be. She is, but not that morning. She wasn't able to sleep. Not even one miserable hour. That isn't a problem, surgery residents get used to stay all night awake. The body adapts to that rutine, it gets to a point where you don't need sleep as much as the rest. It may seem incredible, but it's true. She streches, and buries her face in the pillow. Lexie opens widely her eyes, and rubs her left one before pulling the sheets away and sitting on the bed. The smell of rain is missed and the sun is kinda confusing. She's used to rainy Seattle and Meredith's attic. Not to this hotel room. She stands up and makes her way to the bathroom, she looks at herself on the mirror and combles her hair.
That kind of sad, dark mornings are the ones that gets people to think, especially when you can't sleep and you don't have to make your way to work yet. In fact, she has two more hours only for herself. Which is too long. She has way too longtime for herself. Actually, her shift starts at 10am. And ends 6pm. Freaking eight hours of work. That's all. Now she understands why the interns have time for coffee. Why the residents aren't tired at all. Why the attendings are so shiny people. Mass Gen is boring. Nothing ever happens there. Well, not since she's there and it's been four days now. And this time gives Lexie time to think. Think about the things she hadn't get the chance to think before. Or well, she didn't want to think before. Because thinking about it would mean facing all the posibilities. Sure, it exists the possibility that Addison won't try to get Mark back. Small as it was, it exists the posibility that Addison doesn't even want Mark back. But Izzie told her otherwise and Izzie doesn't lie.. But it also exists the posibility that Addison will do her best and try her hardest to get Mark back. That she tries to tempt him. And yes, the small posibility of feeling so alone and left out and having to leave because the love of her life could choose Addison and leave her.
If she would have stayed, she could be sure about this, she would still have a place where she was accepted, she would still have friends and a loving boyfriend. But she did leave. Because of her job. That was the moment when she asks herself why the Chief chose her to fly over to Boston. It's not fair. Lexie didn't want to leave and she'd do anything to fly back immediately. She hates it there. Well, the people are mostly nice. Maybe too nice. But there's Harry and she really things this guy is hitting on her. And she doesn't like it. Not at all. She has Mark waiting for her. She just wants Mark. He's her life and this will never change.
She wasn't really happy the years before Mark. Her mother died on freaking hiccups and her dad is a drunk. Her sister has a little daughter and lives with her husband Eric near a war. Because Eric is a soldier. That's brave. But horrible. Lexie always worried about her little sister. Always. Every day. She just hopes that she's alright and healthy and that she will come back soon..
Lexie sighs and puts her toothbrush away. It's time to shower, put some clothes on and go back to work. She needs to leave this hotel, it doesn't feel home-y at all. She needs a bloody case to distrac her somehow. And she needs those days to go over.