I can't remember my family. My mother, father, even sisters or brothers are all a fantasy to me… if I ever had them.
Sometimes when I lay in bed while everyone is fast asleep and I myself am drifting away, a strange blurry picture forms in my mind. It is filled with a golden, warm light that shines in your face but doesn't hurt your eyes. And a joyful laughter were I would feel a happiness swell inside me like a big balloon.
Every once in a while I would have this strange
feeling of security, that I could not explain. I would hear a soft,
beautiful singing that poured over me like molten sunshine, and I
would feel warm and cozy as if someone's arms were wrapped around
me.
Then I would smell a soft fragrance of roses tickle my nose
and a soft, warm hand gently caress my face.
But then the most wonderful thing would happen, I would always hear a whispery voice say "I love you….I love you… I love….you…." And I would drift to sleep.