I know he isn't mine, but I always thought he was . . . . in a way. Ever since I was ten I knew him, he ran into me when I was walking home. . . . at first I was furious, but then I completely met him, we had so much in common, and we shared a lot of opinions, we even opened our minds to new ideas. . . . And . . . . I fell for him! He made me happy, and I thought I made him happy, too . . . . And for a while I did, but his heart belonged to another, another who would never return his love. . . . . I don't want o be his second choice- I want to be his only. . . . Like I could just steal his affection.
I just feel desperate and hopeless when I see him now, after I found out he didn't feel my regards . . . . Or maybe he does, maybe he likes two hearts, but I'm greedy and want him all to myself. I guess deep down inside I always knew, I just kidded myself to ignore the facts, He didn't want to kiss me, or hold me, or love me. . . . He wanted to do all of those things- just not with me. I don't want to see his heart brake, but it will; he wants another who already is in a long lasting, loving relationship. I don't want to be the one to pick up his pieces, for who would pick up mine?
I won't say who, I can't bare the thought of him, the pain his name gives me when the one I need talks about him. Does he not know? Have I not made it obvious? But I refuse to tell him how I feel. For what is worth than realization that he will reject you, but to torment yourself in letting it happen anyways? I thought I had a chance, we were so close! But when we both aged, his emotions made it obvious he longed for another.
And even though I breathe just fine, for the first time in my life I feel like I'm suffocating. . . .
A/N:
It's a long story on who the person is, I'll explain one day, but not now. I refuse to create an oc. And since there was no name and hardly any information about the person talking in the story, It doesn't count. . . But I will tell you this: I will sail my ship, but not now, no time soon. You see, I don't want an Oc, but I promise you it will one day become a crossover, it will be cannon DX
I know I sound like a crazed fan, but ever since I heard that Nico had feelings for Percy (I support human rights, for that is what gay rights are, but this is not a hate for homosexuality, if you ever loved someone, but . . . well felt like the story above?) I felt heart broken. I read pairings for the couple and I thought they were cute . . . . but fanon.
It's like my favorite character was just killed off, and was never mentioned in the rest of the series. Like they were just a minor character that meant nothing, but in reality they meant the world to you.
Thank you for reading this, it does mean a lot. I don't care if you flame and say Nercy/Pico is your life and if I don't ship it I can just burn in the pits of Tarturus. I don't care. . . . because right now my goal is to mentally repair my ship from the beginning- where it all started.
p.s Sorry If my story offended you, I just needed to get my feelings out.