Hello xxxHazelxCrimsonxxx here. I am finally getting used to my new username. So this idea came to me as I reread the series. And by the way Koko is kind of OOC, but only to Mikan. And the whole thing will make sense later, so don't send comments like IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE, because I assure you by the third chapter, it will. Other than that one comment, flames are welcome.

Summary: Since Mikan has arrived at Gakuen Alice, the faculty has been keeping a secret from everyone. About a year ago Mikan discovered what it was. Natsume's life has not been the one threatened, it has been hers. NxM

Parings: NatsumexMikan, TsubasaxMisaki, and KokoxSumire

Disclaimer: I don't own Gakuen Alice.

Mikan's POV

I sighed pacing the floor the special star rooms, right in front of Natsume's room. Should I tell Natsume? I mean we are dating, and we tell each other everything, but how would he react?

"Oi Polka, something wrong?" Natsume noticed the worry look etched on my face.

I cleared my throat; I was going to do this, I had to do this, "Natsume, you need to know something."

"Let me go first," his husky voice interrupted. I nodded as he proceeded," You know about my Alice type,"

'Damn," I thought, 'that's what I had to talk to him about, maybe he knows!'

"Well, the faculty said I may die within this year. But they added something else; people with the fourth Alice type get reincarnated, same soul, similar looks, similar name, but no memories. I promise I will remember you once I am reincarnated, and I will still love you."

"Nats-" I began, but he, once again, cut me off.

"Mikan, I know you will be sad, but I will also be in grief. After all you will still remember me, but I will not. I must be going. Goodbye," And with that Natsume left, not yet a word that I had needed to say.

'Natsume, you aren't the one with the fourth Alice type, I am,' I thought to myself, letting my Nullification Alice down, hoping no mind readers were around, but of course I was wrong.

"Mikan is that true?" the sandy blonde haired mind reader asked. I bit my lip as I nodded.

"How, and why?" was Koko's only answer.

I knew I would regret what I was about to do, but I needed someone to confine in; "I didn't know it myself, until last year. Ever since I had come to the academy they took my symptoms and transferred them to Natsume, thanks to Subaru. Their motive is still unclear to me."

A new side of Koko wrapped his arms around me, "I am sorry Mikan. I couldn't even notice you were in so much pain." Eventually I responded to Koko's hug.

"Thank you," I whispered, "And please Koko, nobody can know, especially not Natsume."

We broke the embrace, "Mikan, remember this, as of today you are like my little sister, and I will always be there for you."

I smiled, "Than as a "brother", I love you Koko."

"Me too Mikan," he said walking away from me and into the light of the academy, a. k. a. any place away from me.

Natsume's POV

"I love you Koko," I heard a sweet voice chirp. And it wasn't just any sweet voice; it belonged to my girlfriend.

"Me too, Mikan," the mind reader replied. What the hell? My girlfriend was cheating on me, and with KOKO?

When I turned the corner to give her a piece of my mind, her eyes were red and puffy, she had been crying. Mikan took a couple of seconds, to notice I was two feet in front of her.

"Natsume!" she yelped. Normally I would have chuckled at her reaction, but I was distracted with my rage.

" YOU! I heard you and Koko talking!" I screamed. Her eyes made contact with mine, however, soon it broke.

"I-I am sorry I lied," she chocked out sobbing.

"No, don't even bother with a sorry. Frankly, I could careless that you are sorry. You are just a slut that I want out of my life. I just hate you that much." I gulped; did I really just say that? Well, what else was I meant to say after my stone cold heart was broken into a million different pieces?

"Well, if that's really what you want?" she said regaining her composure. That's when the only light and in my life ran away from me.

Mikan's POV

Natsume, I know that was it was hard to hear that I was dying, but why did you have to say those words to me? It's as if you want me to die. But Natsume, I will fulfill your wish and make you have everlasting happiness. The faculty told I had ten more times to use my Alice before I die, so I could preserve them and live. Why not use them all up now? That would make you smile wouldn't it Natsume?

However, I did have to say goodbye to everyone, but I can't do that in person, so I decided to write a farewell note.

Dear Hotaru, Koko, Ruka-pyon, Tsubasa-senpai, Narumi-sensi, Misaki-senpai, Tono-senpai, Yo-chan, Permy, Anna, Nonoko, Mother, Nobara, N-Hyuuga,

By the time you have read this, I will have passed away into the after life. All of you, to tell the truth, Nas-Hyuuga doesn't have the fourth Alice type, I do. If you are confused by this, ask Koko about it. I am sorry for lying to all of you. Now for the farewells. Hotaru, you are and will always be, my best friend. The only one I have ever had, and although you are bad at displaying your emotions, I love you. One word from you and I could resume my happy and bubbly self. I thank you; you are the reason for my happiness. Koko, one of my not blood related brothers. You were the first person to know my secret, and you comforted me, even though we weren't that close. As I had said earlier today, I love you as my dear brother, and I was joyous that you had reciprocated. Ruka-pyon, you are another one of my best friends. I love you as my family, and I am happy that your bad boy outer shell melted, and we became friends. I sincerely hope that you get the happy ending you deserve. Tsubasa-senpai, I love you so much. You were the first one to treat me with true kindness. I was your little kouhai, and you were my senpai, but I considered you more of my older brother. It pains me much to say goodbye to you. Please talk care of Misaki-senpai. Narumi-sensi, you were like my dad, and were always there for me. Thank you for showing me what it was like to have a dad, and I am truly sorry I can not be your daughter in the end. Misaki-senpai, you, to me, are my older sister. I love you so much. Like Tsubasa-senpai, were one of the first to be nice to me, and I am truly thankful. Tono-senpai, thank you. You have saved me many times, and to that I owe you my life, and I am sorry I am wasting it. I love you, and of course your perverted antics. Yo-chan, first impressions are very inaccurate. I used to hate you for you called me a hag. But once you started calling me Onee-chan, I warmed up to you. Now I know that you are truly like a little brother to me, and I am sorry this is goodbye. Permy, Anna, Nonoko, and Yuu, all of you are my close friends, and I am happy this is so. My memories with you kept me going. Mother, I love you so much. I can't believe I doubted you. I am sorry I am destroying the only memory you have of my dad and your sensi. Goodbye mom. Nobara, I love you my precious friend. We both seemed so useless that Christmas, but thanks to you we were able to pull through, together. Thank you for always being there for me. I love you. Lastly, Hyuuga. This one pains me the most to write, but here it goes. I am still in love with you. To me, you were one of the only people that could withstand being tainted with the darkness I have. I am sorry you overheard Koko and I talking about my fourth Alice type. You may believe I am selfish, but in the end, this would be my fate. Goodbye everyone, I love all of you.

-Sakura (Yukihara) Mikan

P.S. Sorry the paper is wet; I am a crybaby just like Hotaru said.

I sighed as I read the note over and over, crying my eyes out. But I had to do this, for Natsume, I assured myself. I grabbed my LG Neon and dialed Koko's number.

It rang a couple of times before Koko picked up, "Hello, Mikan."

In between sobs, I managed to say, "Please come to my room!"

"I will be there as fast as I can!" I hung up my phone. Than I tapped fourteen of the same note to the door, and exited my room via window. Goodbye world. Please be happy Natsume.

Thank you for reading, please review. And this is not the end.