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I Hope I'm Wrong
It's ridiculous for me to be thinking this way. What, with me being in a wheelchair supposedly in love with Tina, and her being the crazy yet oddly enchanting girl that she was.
I never had a chance with Rachel Berry.
But while she was singing that song, for a moment, I thought she was singing for me. Of course I wouldn't choose the song "Gives You Hell" but when she looked at me and she sang, I didn't care what song she decided to let fall from her beautiful lips. I knew perfectly well that she was singing the song to Finn, but if I blocked out all of the noise, even her voice, and if I blocked out all of the people,except her, I would only see Rachel Berry singing her heart out while looking and smiling at me.
The smile on my face wouldn't fade and I knew that if the look I gave her then was given to her at any other time, everyone would know how I felt about her. But because everyone was having fun and throwing silly smiles her way, my own smile faded in with theirs, my feelings given a little more time to stay hidden. To her, and everyone else present, I was smiling because I was having fun with her and the song, not because I loved her and I loved the way she looked when she was singing in my direction.
I wish that someday, instead of singing to another man while looking at me, she would sing for me and for me alone. But if someday never comes, maybe I'll sing to her, and only for her.
I may never have a chance with Rachel Berry, but that's just what I tell myself. And we prove ourselves wrong all of the time.
Rachel, I hope I'm wrong.