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Feliciano's past
Feliciano grew up in Padua, Italy with his father and older brother. Sadly, his mother passed away during childbirth when Feliciano was born, so he naturally grew up without a mother figure in his life. She was always a bit sickly, but it didn't make the loss any easier for their family. He was a lot like his mother, and was doted over constantly as a child and even as he grew older. All this being said, he never quite understood why his older brother Lovino was always so mean and angry with him, and to this day doesn't understand that it was because he was being blamed for the death of their mother.
After an unfortunate accident, Feliciano and Lovino were left alone in the world with no father. After much sadness and confusion, the two packed up and moved to America with their grandfather. He hadn't seen much of his grandfather before, though did recall his father always talking about him. They moved when Feliciano was 5. The transition was not really something Feliciano liked, but he didn't have any right to complain. Having to speak English all the time was particularly troublesome, since at his age he hadn't had much experience with it yet. As time went on, life with their grandfather seemed to be normal like it had been with their father back at home. The only notable difference was that their grandfather started to change over time.
Feliciano, now 9, had been working on one of his many paintings when their grandfather came home later than usual and acted strange. He stumbled into Feliciano's room and gave him an embrace that lasted longer than usual; followed by kisses of a stranger manner. Felicano, being naive at the time, didn't understand what was going on and returned the hugs and kisses his grandfather bestowed upon him; ultimately mistaking it for affection. It was only till his grandfather locked the door and threw him onto the floor did he realize how horribly wrong he was. And it didn't help that his older brother grew even more hatred toward Feliciano, making accusations on how their grandfather favored himself more than the other since that night.
The constant molestation and rape continued through his teen years till one day Lovino got sick and tired of Feliciano spending more time with their grandfather and barged in on the act. Then one day out of the blue he just disappeared from the household, abandoning Feliciano and leaving him to deal with the monster of a grandfather. When Lovino ran away from home, a rage built up inside his grandfather, who he ultimately took out on Feliciano.
Feliciano dealt with the pain and abandonment for many years. But one day, his grandfather never came home. It was only after three days that he received a call stating his grandfather had gone missing. In all honesty, Feliciano cried tears of joy for the very first time in a long while. It wasn't until then that he started noticing some problems within himself, but didn't think too much of it. Once packed up, he went to live with, whom he considered, his brother Francis in his apartment.
Things were actually going pretty well. He found himself a small job at a clothes store to work part time and earn extra money of his own, and got decent grades in his classes at college. Despite that he actually was doing the right things in life, those odd little things about his body got more and more frequent. Too frequent for his liking. A whisper in the back of his head. The sudden urge to commit harm to himself or another. Feeling like he couldn't breathe. Being the type of person he was he would often try to forget about them until the next time it happened.