Secrets

I was on my way home from the academy. I was walking alone -as usual- when a blonde headed boy came up beside. I don't know why. He was a dobe after all. "Teme , why do you always walk home by yourself?" he asked me. "Go away dobe." I replied, hoping he would leave. I needed to get home and fast. " But I have a question for you!" Naruto continued as if I had never spoken. "Hn". "I want to know what all those scars on your arms are. I saw them when we were practicing this morning with Kakashi- sensei.'' My eyes widened. The dobe had saw?

'If he finds out he'll tell everyone and then I'm dead' I thought with panic. "None of your business". "I think it is Sasuke! If there's something wrong I wanna know about it so I can help! If I'm gonna be Hokage then I have to be good at helping people y'know!" The dobe was not going to let this go. Without thinking I took off running toward my clans' home. 'I have to get away from the idiot'. Naruto ran after me and because of the Kyuubi, he caught me and had me pinned to the ground before I could blink.

"Now. Tell me what's wrong with your arms, or I'll get Sakura to get it out of you. Your choice teme." Naruto said with a look that said I-mean-it. I thought about it. I chose telling him. I wasn't going to tell him the real truth. Why would I ever tell anybody that. I was going to make up a believable lie.

" Okay dobe , you win. I'll tell you'' I said through clenched teeth. Naruto smiled and got up off of me. I got up and dusted myself off-the ground was muddy from last nights storm-. I climbed up a tree where Naruto was already seated and sat on the branch next to his. "I'm waiting teme" he said with a smirk. I sighed and prepared a lie in my head. " Ok Naruto. The scars on my arms are from missions. I take secret missions and I am required to fight enemy shinobi on these missions. They always aim their kunai at my heart and I deflect with my arms. My arms take the blow from the kunai instead of my heart thus getting them cut. Happy now dobe?". Naruto had a awe struck look on his face.

That baka actually believed me. Mission accomplished. " Is that why you wouldn't tell me earlier? Because it's from secret missions?" he asked me, eager to hear my answer. "Yes. Now can I please go home?" I asked with no emotion. " Sure teme" with that Naruto jumped down from the tree and walked off. 'Finally' I thought with relief. Jumping down from the tree, I looked at my arms and the many scars there. I caused those scars but not from battles with enemy shinobi. These scars were from my kunai. On particularly bad days, I would relieve my emotions with psychical pain. The feel of the cold metal on my skin was relaxing. The rush of the warm red blood running down my arm was bliss. But the pain was even better.

When I focus on the pain, I forget about my brother. I forget about the way he slaughtered my family. I forget about how weak I am and how I'll never kill Itachi. But that bliss only lasts a few seconds. That is why there are so many scars. Once I have a few moments of bliss, I need more.

Taking off I run to my home and through the empty halls to my room. I lock my door even thought there is noone else in the house-there hasn't been for about six years now except for me- but I lock it anyways. I go to the personal bathroom on the other side of my room and start the shower. I stare at my reflection in the tile floor til steam starts rising from the water.

I pull of my clothes and step in. Just having the hot water on my back was relaxing. My body ached from training for five hours straight. I had sparred with the blonde idiot for most of the time. I only spent a hour with target practice. Today Sakura had been out sick so it was just the three of us-Naruto, Kakashi, and me- training today.

I grabbed my lemon shampoo and started washing my raven hair. Most people think it looks like a ducks butt. But, I don't care. I ignore them when they say that. My mother used to fashion my hair like this when I was little and after Itachi slaughtered her I decided to keep it that same way. I rinse the soap out and scrub my body then I reach for my best friend-my razor blade.

Today I had been thinking about my family a lot, because all the other kids get picked up by their parents. That's one cut. I slide the blade across my right arm. I watch as the blood runs down my arm and into the water, turning it pink. Watching it swirl down the drain slowly. Its very fascinating. I had said his name today. That's another one. I repeat this process until I become lightheaded. Rinsing the last of the blood off my arm I turn off the water and dry off.

Once I'm dressed I get under the sink and pull out two long strips of bandages. As I finish wrapping up my arms I hear a knock on the front door. 'Who would be here?' I thought with confusion. "SASUKE WHERE ARE YOU" shouts a voice from the front of the house. I know that voice. It belongs to Kakashi. Why is he at my house? I unlock the door to my room and run to the door. Opening it, I see a very angry looking Kakashi standing there. Just as I go to slam my door he grabs my arm and starts undoing the bandages

. " So what Naruto said was true. You have been cutting yourself. Sasuke I'm disappointed in you." Kakashi said with dismay. How did the blonde find out? "That isn't any concern of yours Kakashi" I say yanking my arm from his grasp. "Come on." he says and grabs my arm once again and starts dragging me down the street. "Where?" I ask slight panic creeping in my voice. He knows my secret. What if its to KMI (Konoha's Mental Institution)? " To see Tsunade about this" "NO! YOU CANT TAKE ME TO TSUNADE! SHE'LL KILL ME IF SHE FOUND OUT!" I scream trying to break free from his hold. A look of confusion spreads across Kakashi's face.

He had never heard such a desperate cry from the raven before. Noone had ever heard emotion from the boy other than anger. "Sasuke . I'm only taking you to Tsunade so she can check out your arms. I promise I wont tell her where they came from. I just don't want you to get sick from them. You could have an infection or anything." Kakashi explained gently.

'What? He cares? And He won't tell? This is too good to be true' Sasuke thought bitterly. "You promise not to tell?" "I promise Sasuke. If I did tell she would make me take care of you or she would send you to the Psycho ward. Neither of us want that. So I wont tell"

The scarecrow said reassuringly. Sasuke followed the jounin to the Hokage tower without another word.