My POV on what Haru thinks. Feel free to agree or disagree or argue.
"What are you planning to do after you graduate?"
I don't know. I don't want to know. Stop. Stop asking me...
"Nanase-kun, you can't have 'free' as a future carrier..."
So what if I can't? I know. I just wanted to write it down so it doesn't look so empty.
"Haru, seriously, what are you gonna do?"
Why ask? It's none of your business... Just stop.
"Nanase-kun! Big news! There are people calling to scout you!"
"Haru, do your best out there. Remember, there are people planning to scout you."
"Nanase-san, a lot of universities are looking forward for your performance."
Stop it. Stop it already! Stop telling me what to do! Stop telling me where to go! Stop pushing me for your comfort! Stop controlling me and my every move!
I didn't swim to be a professional! I didn't swim to be the best! I swim because I love it! I swim because I want to be free! I swim because it makes me feel free! I swim for me and my friends!
I know I'm suppose to think about my future! I know I'm suppose to take things seriously! I know I'm running away! And I don't look like it, but I am thinking! I am giving it thoughts!
I'm sorry for not having the same dream as you Rin! I'm sorry for affecting Rin, Yamazaki! I'm sorry I hurt your feelings, Nagisa, Rei! I'm sorry for not being able to find my dream so easily, Makoto! I'm sorry for running away!
But I'm not you! I not anybody you want me to be! I'm me. I'm free! i want to be free! So stop...
...stop making me lose my resolve for swimming.