Smile Like an Idiot
Smile like an idiot. He used to care. Smile like an idiot, Fai. And hide the pain inside.
Smile like an idiot. He had a secret. They can't know. That's what they wanted anyway. All smiles and no tears. They wanted to be happy. Bluff all the problems away. It will be as if they never existed. You can't have problems if you pretend they don't exist.
Smile like an idiot.
What can it harm? Who does it hurt? These companions don't know the dark truth. It could only hurt them. They who only see the pureness in hearts.
Hide the pain and smile like an idiot.
Don't show what is really hurting.
Smile, Fai, and bury the pain.
No one can know. The truth will only rip their bond to shreds.
"Sometimes it's hard to hide. After so much is buried things are bound to become unearthed. Whether by someone digging for the truth, or simply from the erosion of pain." … "Or something like that." But they can't know the truth. The truth will only tear them apart. It will burn all their ideas of a perfect world to ash.
Smile and hide, Fai.
It is better when secrets are hidden. Then the feelings remain pleasant. Because when the secrets are revealed shadows cover the bonds of friendships. Tearing down everything he held dear. Destroying anything he once wished to save.
Smile like an idiot.
When it rains it pours. In the soaking wetness secrets are covered by the grey drizzle. They are left alone until the next time the sun shines. When they are exposed they dry up and crack. Just like Fai's fake happiness when he can no longer feign bliss. Until he can brush it off in an idiot's carefree way.
Smile like an idiot.
People may like to laugh, but they also like to cry. He has seen this truth in all the many lives torn apart. The despair brought on by secrets pain drowns those tried to deny this truth. This simple fact of life. There is no cleaning of this secret and its pain.
Smile like an idiot, Fai. And hide the pain inside.
FIN