"Nick I'm sorry but I can't keep doing this with you. Everytime I get close to you, you push me away and I'm tired of it."

I keep looking at him hoping he will say soimething, anything, to make me change my mind. But he just keeps looking down at his scuffed up old converse.

"Fine, if you don't have anything to say them I'm leaving." I grab my bag and walk out. Sitting in my car I lean my head back against the headrest. Secretly hoping he will still try to come and fix things between us, but deep down I know it's a lost cause.

My head snaps up as I hear a sharp tap on my passenger side window. My heart leaps into my throat with the possiblitly of it being Nick but then it finds its way back down as Kevin gets in.

"What do you want Kevin?" I lay my head against the steering wheel and sigh in frustration. I was hoping to avoid Kevin. He was like the big brother I never had and he always knew when something was wrong.

"Nick is an idiot, we all know that, but he has a good reason I swear."

I laugh bitterly "Yeah well if he has such a good reason for being an ass why doesn't he just tell me?"

He looks down and sighs "He doesn't know how to tell you for one and two he's afraid you will hate him."

"Then you tell me."

"I can't. Its not place to say. Just please don't give up on him Kels. He truly does care about you."

I glare at him angrily and start the car as he gets out. Not noticing until he was there that he was at my window, I rolled it down and stared up at him.

"Please promise you won't take off without talking to him first."

"Look kevin if he loves me he has a really shitty way of showing it. I love him too but this is too hard for me. Im pretty sure im a big girl and can hande the truth so tell him when hes ready to tell me what the hell is going on he knows how to reach me."

I drive away before Kevin has a chance to stop me. I can feel the tears falling before I even make it out of the drive way. And that's when I realized that I was probably never going to see Nick Jonas, my best friend and love of my life, ever again. That this really was goodbye.

It was completely silence in the car except for the sound of my heart shattering and the broken choked out words, "Goodbye Nick."