Note: This is a small guideline of how to read this story

- Narrator.

- Internal thoughts of narrator.

- Flashback.

- "Dialogue."

- Long~

- (Writer's thoughts and comments.)

- ({Writer's inner thoughts and comments})

WARNING: THIS STORY COVERS SENSITIVE TOPICS, SUCH AS MISCARRIAGE, FOUL LANGUAGE, DEPRESSION, ABUSE (MENTAL/PHYSICAL/DRUG), AMONG OTHERS!

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS JUST A STORY! ANY SIMILARITY TO PEOPLE OR LIFE EVENTS ARE ENTIRELY COINCIDENTAL! I DO NOT OWN THE INUYASHA CHARACTERS/STORY/SHOW, THEY ALL BELONG TO RUMIKO TAKAHASHI! ALL OTHER CHARACTERS WHO DO NOT BELONG TO THE ORIGINAL WORK ARE OF MY CREATION!

It's been five years since Kagome came back from her era after we defeated Naraku, destroyed the Shikon Jewel, and the portal was sealed. It was tough getting over Kikyo's death, but loosing Kagome was just torture, that's why I would go to the well every three days. After she got back, we immediately got married, and we even built our own little hut somewhere near the well. She wanted to be near it because it reminded her of her era, she visits it at least three times a week to "talk" with her mother. She tells her everything… and I can hear her very clearly every single time. There is still so much pain trapped inside of her. Sometimes I wonder if it was a good idea for her to come back.

Things have changed so much, even before she was back. Sango and Miroku have their kids to take care of. Shippo is off becoming a full-fledged demon and rarely comes by. Kohaku goes from village to village killing monsters and demons with the help of Hachi. Even Rin and Sesshomaru are expecting their first cub, she left the village a year ago to be with Sesshomaru. Keh, I don't even know how she convinced him to take her.

Everyone changed. But not us. Until that happened. She's so lonely, and trying to have cubs is not working. I remember the first time two years ago…

… "*sniffs* Blood? *sniff sniff* KAGOME!" … by the time I made it to the hut, it was already too late… she called it a miscarriage. Kaede said that she would be okay in a couple of days with enough rest, but… she was never the same after that. She's… she's been detached to everything other than our marriage. She forgets to eat. Sometimes she can go days without sleeping giving the excuse that she likes to watch the stars. I know you think of him… I miss him too, Kagome.

There's been multiple occasions recently where she collapses in the fields while helping Kaede… "It's only the heat guys, I'm ok." Stupid. You always say that. You want us not to worry, but if you keep doing this, you'll end up… you'll end up… just like him…

As I approached our hut I could hear someone talking. "YOU SAID WHAT?!" "Shhh, Shippo! It's supposed to be a surprise!" ... Huh? Shippo? A surprise? What's she talking about?... "Wait. You're telling me that he doesn't know yet?" "No, not yet." … Huh? Is she talking about me? Kagome… "Hm? Are we missing anything interesting?" "Yes, Kagome. What is it?" … Wait. That was Miroku and Sango. What's going on? I couldn't hear what they were saying at that moment, it was as if they were whispering to each other. "What?!" "Is it true Kagome?" "Yes." "Congratulations, Kagome. You finally bear a child!"

*CLANK!*

I heard a loud sound. I don't know if it was the water that I was carrying or my body slamming against the floor. "Inuyasha!" I think I hear someone calling me, but, I can't tell who it is… all I hear is my heart pounding in my chest. "Inuyasha! Inuyasha!" "Kagome?" "Inuyasha, are you okay?" How can she worry about me in a situation like this? "Kagome? Are you really expecting?" "Eh?" I could smell a hint of fear. She smiled? She's scared but she smiled. For me? "Yes, Inuyasha. I talked with Kaede. When I fainted at the field it was because of this child. Aren't you happy?" She's smiling. Dammit. She's smiling but she's terrified, I can smell it! Stop. Stop faking that smile! Stop it! Just tell me that you're scared! Kagome! "Are you okay?" "Eh? What a weird question, Inuyasha. You're the one on the floor." "I don't mean that, Kagome… I mean… are you… okay?" You know what I mean, dammit. Just say it. "Yes…" Wait. She relaxed? I can't smell it.

There's no more fear.

"Kaede told me that there doesn't seem to be anything wrong this time" … At this point, we both didn't notice that we were left alone. "I will be with you. For whatever you need, Kagome. For both of you. I failed to be there last time. It won't ever happen again. I promise." I can smell your tears even before I see them. Cry. You can finally cry. You owe it to yourself. "I'm so sorry, Inuyasha!" As soon as she said that, she dropped to her knees and suddenly the smell of tears was the only thing surrounding us. Hugging my wife felt like an instinct. A reflex. "You'll be fine. I'm here."

And just like that, before we even realized it, we were both already inside desperately trying to touch each other and peeling off every inch of clothing we had on as if it was on fire. I love this woman… With my life.