: First Day's Blues

(Tomoyo's POV)

It was already midnight. The silence filled the whole room. It was still. I was at the window staring at the view. My face was wet. My eyes were loaded of tears. It fell down smoothly through my cheeks. Stopping at my chin and then dropped at the pool of tears in the table.

I lied down and wiped my tears off my face. I was facing at the ceiling, reminiscing the moments I had with him. Slapping myself, I rose up again, approached my favorite window and gazed the sky. I sighed deeply.

'This feeling for you means a lot to me…before. But now, I keep asking myself, do I still love you?'

I went back to my bed, lied down and stared at the ceiling. The airplane's din broke the silence. I closed my eyes and tears fell down again. I turned at the left side and hugged my pillow so tight.

"Oh god Eriol. Why do you have to go back to England?"

It was the first day of June, classes already started. It was a nice day actually. The sky was clear blue, the clouds were washed out, the wind is fresh, the flowers are blooming, the trees are dancing and the cherry blossoms' pinkish leaves are swinging down to the ground. Everyone is happy. You can see their bright smiles flashing unto you. Everyone says, "Isn't it a beautiful day?" or "A bright day today. Isn't it?" but honestly, it wasn't for me. The day was terrible.

Anyway, I was walking towards my new school, Uteshiko Academy. Uteshiko Academy. Well, it's a bit far from my condominium but, I have to walk because they didn't yet hire any busses.

When I got there, the school was so huge. There were so many students...especially in the hallway of the guardhouse where the bulletin boards are. The school ground has lots of space. I mean, you can even build a golf course there!

There are also trees at the sides of it. The building was so wide. It may not even fit in Tomoeda's school ground. I might need a LOT of adjustments in this environment. I might even get lost...

As I set my foot on the cement of the guardhouse, I heard a small voice at the back calling for me.

'Can it be?'

"Tomoyo-chan!"

'Yes.'

"Sakura-chan?"

Sakura Kinomoto. My best friend since we were Grade 4. She's a very tough girl. She fights and gets clow cards...and guess what? I'm her biggest fan. I always make her costume for her fights but since it's finished, I don't get to make some anymore.

She also has feelings for Syaoran (vice versa). So, when they opened up their feelings to each other, their relationship was on. It was cute actually. They planned to go to China this summer...so...

Sakura hugged me tightly

"Oh, Tomoyo-chan! I missed you so much."

"I missed you too but, I thought you and Syaoran will go to China this summer?"

"Yah but, I don't want to leave my best friend behind alone don't I?...Unless you want me to leave..."

"Of course not. If you'll leave, I might be talking to the wall right now...like this past days."

Sakura laughed

After talking and laughing, we got in the school and walked past through the crowd that was looking on the papers on the bulletin board for their names. I saw mine and Sakura's name on section 2-98.

"Oh wow! We're classmates again. We must've broken a record."

"Yah."

"Look! Syaoran-kun's name is here! Isn't it nice? Sigh...I wish Eriol is here"

When Sakura said that name, my heart pumped faster. My eyes widened...I was shocked. My mind began to focus on that name.

'Eriol...'

"...Tomoyo..."

'Eriol….'

" Tomoyo?"

"Eh?"

"Is there something wrong?"

"Um… nothing. Nothing..."

"Why do you look…shocked? Did you see something? Did I say something?"

"Nothing...I…it's just first day's blues..."

"...you're like Touya."

Touya Kinomoto. Sakura's eldest brother. I don't really remember him that much because he went abroad last 3 years but, I remembered that I had a crush on him.

"Oh..."

"He always gets those 'blues'"

"..."

Suddenly, we heard a guy's voice behind us.

"Sakura, Daidouji. You're…early."

Sakura was surprised. She excitedly turned back and saw Syaoran.

"SYAORAN-KUN!"

(Sakura hugged him tightly. Syaoran blushed)

"You don't have to shout out my name."

As I was watching the couples having a cute moment, I saw a dark-blued hair guy passed behind them. My heart pumped fast again. He walked so fast I didn't get to see his face. The only way to find out is to follow him and I did but, Sakura called me.

"Tomoyo-chan, where are you going?"

"Eh? Um…."

I took a look at the crowd he was gone. Disappointed...

"N…nowhere."

We went straight our classroom. I sat beside the long, clear window at the back of the classroom and watched the skies. Dark, grey clouds began to form. It covered the whole sky including the sun. Lightning flashed and the thunder growled. It started to rain.

"And I thought it was a beautiful day today."

I looked at my side...it was Chiharu.

"Sigh..yeah, me too."

"It mixes my mood today you know?"

"Eh?"

"I don't really...I don't know. I.."

"..Zachary isn't here isn't it? He entered in another school and..you miss him."

Chiharu's eyes were watery...then..tears drops.

"Don't even think I have feelings for him Tomoyo. It's just because I miss his...'I-Know-A-Story-About-That' attitude."

I hugged Chiharu and listened to all of her complaints against Zachary. Like, 'why does he need to go to another school where he hasn't have friends?'. It was an ordinary feeling for other people whose friends go to another school...of course they'll miss them a lot. Who would not?

"Okay class, time to start the day!"

The teacher went inside and we all went to our respective places. She began to introduce herself and all and all...but I wasn't listening. I was staring outside the window and kept on thinking about Eriol. Oh gosh, Eriol. Eriol is one of the exchange students when we were still in Tomoeda. He was very quiet but a very foolish guy. I really don't have this feeling for him but, ever since the end of summer, I kept on pondering him.

Anyway, as our teacher introduces us her life the rain poured harder. You can hear the rain drops beating against the roof of the school. The thunder's rumbling sound gets louder and louder. The sky was getting darker and darker.

"Oh my, can you still hear what I'm saying?"

Our teacher asked but the students were quiet...all you can hear is the beat of the roof getting beaten by the rain.

"I SAID, CAN YOU STILL HEAR WHAT I'M SAYING?!"

"NO SENSAI!"

"WELL, SINCE WE CAN'T HEAR EACH OTHER, JUST..RELAX!"

"HAI!!"

I didn't response. I was silent in my seat, looking outside the window. The ground was flooding. It was already like a huge pond... but I kept on thinking. It was cold, I still didn't mind. I was freezing, I still didn't mind. Up to the time I'm almost being turned into ice, I got my jacket out off my bag and wore it. Then, ponder again. I kept on thinking about that guy. It's like, I wanted to see him but when? Sakura went to me and gave me a hot chocolate...I didn't notice that everyone bought a hot chocolate except for me.

"Tomoyo, are you okay?"

"Yes, it's just cold in here. It's not allowed to drink or eat inside the classroom..."

"Ms. Shiwataza allowed us...aren't you listening?"

"Uh..yah..I knew that."

I didn't want Sakura to get worried again. And so I lied, when she left, I looked back outside and saw that blue-black hair wearing his jacket. He runs towards a teacher and talked...it looks like he got summoned because of going outside getting wet in the rain. I don't know, all I did was look at him. Nothing else but, him. Even when everyone screamed because of the thunder's earsplitting roar, it didn't hitch me a bit. I was focused on him. Only him. And nothing else.

'Why do you look so familiar? And why do you always make me feel scared or worried? Who are you?'

Okay, here's my first story. It's not a bit happy isn't it? Well, it's just the first. is it nice?? Oh, this is embarrassing.

Anyway, I hope you like it.

P.S

Sorry for the wrong grammars. ;