Bella Swan sits by the window looking outside contemplating her entire relationship with HIM. Where did everything go wrong? What did I do to make him stop loving me? Why wasn't I enough for him to stay? The more she contemplates HIM and what HE did the angrier she gets, he promised forever said that we were soul mates. Ok so maybe he didn't say forever. In fact he was adamant she didn't turn, yet said they were meant to be. That SHE was HIS, but was HE ever HERS. When had he ever talked to her like an adult let alone like an equal, God forbid he treat her like one.
It had been a month since he left and took who she had thought was there family, only then she was realizing how wrong she was. No matter how much she loved them obviously they didn't care that much about her like they said, after all they left without a goodbye or so much as a fuck you. She would have taken it better if they had no matter how cruel a manner they said it in. As it was it didn't feel real. They claimed to be her family, her parents, brothers and sisters. Granted she never really knew Jasper, but he had told her she was worth it, worth protecting and possibly getting hurt over. Rosalie had never liked her Bella understood that but at least she had never pretended to be something she wasn't. Something Bella had enough of before she even met the Cullen's. She imagined Rosalie wanted to leave so Emmett left with his mate something Bella could in no way fault him for. No matter how much the two bonded or considered each other siblings.
As time passed Bella's mind seemed to heal as she got over Edward and the heartbreak he caused, however her soul ached and felt as though a part of it had been violently ripped out mainly where her heart is, or should be. As the months passed she still had to fight in order for her to do what she considered simple things that should come easy to her even when she healed mentally and learned to deal with the pain she considered normal, a part of her everyday life. She still couldn't get her body to function the way she knew it should she finally managed to break free and move and function the way she knew she should around mid-January about four months after they left.