To whom I'm writing this for, know that I loved you.
Yes, I loved you, but now I'm suffering deep in my heart that you are happy with another.
I do not love you now or will I ever do again coz my heart can't endure any more pains from you.
I have cut all my ties with you, and yet I write this.
Hmmm let's just say that this a mere goodbye containing all my feelings for you.
No more and no less, but here you can find hints of my hopelessness.
I wish you can read this and understand, and yet I curse you to not read nor even know that I once had feelings for you.
My infatuation to you is something forbidden to this conservative world we live in.
I also know that my feelings will not be returned even if you knew.
I did my best to deny these feelings before, but it came back stronger.
I fought it, but with every strike I gave, my defense broke bit by bit.
Now I am defenseless to the pain your joy is giving me, and still I pray that you may be more joyful with that person.
I'd like to give you a kiss good bye, but even just a mere sight of you makes me suffer.
With each sight, I lose myself in envy, lust and greed to want you.
Every bit of you...
Let me kiss you for a first and that be our last.
A kiss that will constrict my heart with thorns.
No, no, no I can't!
I can't live my life with you in it, so let's cut ties.
Yes, that is the action of a coward, and I am one.
If only you knew,
if only I could've shown it,
if only I was courageous,
if only I was honest.
Our relationship in my part is only full of "If's"…
I must wake up from this day dream and live in our society's reality.
Good bye,
and know that I loved you and gave up on you.
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NO!
DON'T LEAVE ME!
I REFUSE TO WAKE UP!
ONE DAY YOU'LL KNOW,
ONE DAY YOU'LL BE MINE,
BUT TODAY I'LL PLAY THE SUPPORTIVE FRIEND FOR YOU.
-kingoftheolives