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Love is not a Game: Chapter 1

When I first found out that Kuroo had a girlfriend, I was in complete shock. To say I was devastated was almost an extreme exaggeration. I really did have much admiration for the teen and I looked up to him almost like a little brother would a big brother. However, what I felt was even more than that.
I am completely in love with Tetsuro Kuroo. I never want to admit it, not even to myself. He is my best friend and I was fine with our current relationship. On many occasions I tried to declare to myself that I no longer had a 'crush' on him, but no matter how far I got, he would just rope me back in somehow. It has been years since I've felt this way, but Kuroo has no idea. I'm very good at concealing my feelings. It's just a part of my character. Although when video games are involved, I don't mind going completely insane with my emotions.

But, finding out that he now had a girlfriend really thrown me off my railing.
I watched everyone crowd around Kuroo after he casually revealed the news. Taketora patted him on the back roughly. "I can't believe you got a girlfriend before me! That's so not far!" He roared. Kuroo chuckled looking superior.
"Well you gonna have to try harder then." He said smugly.
"What's her name? Does she go to this school?" Lev asked as he loomed over Taketora.
"Yeah she does, her name is Yui and she's in my contemporary literature class. Apparently she's been into me and the whole class knew except me." Kuroo shrugged.
"Give us all the juicy details man, don't hold out on us!" Taketora said with excitement.

"Chill dude, we've only been dating about three days, we haven't done anything yet." He said with his hands up defensively. "However, a gentleman like myself does not kiss and tell." He said. I rolled my eyes as I stopped listening. Ugh, he's so full of shit. I didn't need any of that right now. I wanted to go home. We were already done with practice for today, there was no reason for me to stick around.
I grabbed my things and made my way out the gym. "Oi, Kenma!" Kuroo called after me. I froze, feeling my heart skip. "Are you heading home already?" He said when he caught up to me. I really didn't want to talk to him right now.
"Yeah, my mom wants me home soon." I lied quickly. Kuroo usually wants to hang out after practice but I desperately needed to be alone right now. I avoided eye contact with him.

"Oh. Alright, see you later then." He said then turning back towards the gym. I continued to walk off school grounds to start my trek home. Half way home, the rolling sound of thunder was heard. I didn't even quicken pace as rain began to slowly fall.
I was depressed. My walk home was slow and wet. The extent of how much I was saddened by this was proof of how much I actually did like him and that made me even sadder. I'm a fucking idiot for falling in love with that guy.
Flashes of Kuroo's face clogged my mind. Kenma, dont be shy! Have lunch with us!...Oi, Kenma. You should come over to my house today!...Kenma, I can buy you that game if you want, no problem!...Kenma...Kenma...Kenma...
 I opened the door to my house. "I'm home." I said with a barely audible voice.

I dropped my volleyball bag on the genkan as I usually did and took of my shoes sluggishly. I didn't have the energy to care that I was soaking wet.
My mom emerged from the kitchen entrance. "Welcome home- oh my! Kozume! I told you to take an umbrella before you went to school today!" She scolded.
" M'sorry, forgot." I said as trudged upstairs. My mom was use to my unresponsive behavior.
"Make sure to remember next time! Dinner is almost ready, so be ready when I call you down!" She called after me. I wasn't the least hungry even after having been at practice.
I immediately took a shower then plopped down onto my bed. I reached for my PSP, but decided not to with a heavy sigh. I need some time with my thoughts for a while.
Kuroo... I thought. How could he decide to date someone he barely knows?

I've known him since we were kids and not once did...crap, I'm getting away from myself. Why do I like him so much, he's such a jerk sometimes...but never to me...He is a really good friend and I shouldn't want it any other way. If I actually told him how I felt, our years of friendship could crumble within mere seconds. I could picture a look of disgust on his face. Oh, you're a homo Kenma? Don't come near me ever again.
My throat caught. I could feel tears coming. The moment I thought of that I felt like he actually said that. My face sunk into my pillow. I sniffed as tears fell into my pillow.
My tears turned to actual sobs. I felt so pathetic. I just needed to cry to blow off steam. Well, that's what I told myself that is.

The worst part is that I at some point thought I actually had a chance with him. The many times Kuroo has asked me to hang out. Sometimes he'd even beg me to come hang out with him as if I was only friend. Kuroo obviously had many other friends but why he choose me I never knew.
After a few seconds of crying, I quickly wiped my tears away. It was just in time before I heard a knock at my door. "Kozume honey, come down for dinner." My mom cracked open my door and peeked in to tell me. I cleared my throat.
"Alright." I replied. I needed to just forget about everything that happened today. I still don't want this to dominate my consciousness. I'll just sleep it off tonight and hopefully I can ignore my feelings of depression. But hopefully is the keyword here.

The next few weeks, I acted exactly the same. I didn't have the guts to try and avoid Kuroo nor skip out on practice.
I avoided talking about his girlfriend but when the subject came up I would usually respond with "Whatever." But one day Kuroo extended the conversation on the topic. It was lunch time and rambling about a date he had with Yui.
At this point in their relationship I've been told many times of make outs between them thanks to the constant badgering of a certain teammate. I try to tune them out when they talk about it so I don't fall into an even deeper depression.
Kuroo was showing pictures of her on his phone. "Ooh, she's quite the looker~" Inuoka cooed. Taketora complained at why Kuroo was able to bag such a hottie. Kuroo showed me as well.

I glanced up from my PSP to a picture of a busty blonde wearing our school's uniform. A few buttons of her shirt was unbuttoned to show cleavage. I almost rolled my eyes but I just nodded. "Cute." I said trying not to sound exceptionally uninterested.
"So tell me, have you copped a feel of those sweater cows yet?" Lev said obnoxiously. That was my queue to roll my eyes. I tuned out again.
No matter how hard I try to not like him anymore, it just doesn't work. I've tried this for years but even though he's taken I still can't seem to convince myself. I can really tell especially when Kuroo sits really close to me and I can smell him. He smells really good. Even after practice he smells good and it pisses me off. Also the way he looks at me sometimes. It's his normal face but I always feel like he's giving me bedroom eyes or something. It makes my heart skip a beat.

I'm usually very composed. Well, I'm always composed. But today wasn't my day. My day started off fine. I managed not to fall asleep in class all day. Which is weird despite my exceptional grade point average. I never even get excited about high scores anymore because I'm pretty much use to it. Everything that day was completely fine. Well...that was until the end of the day.
I was on my way to volleyball practice. I think I forgot one of my good sweatshirts in my gym locker. As I was walking I was absentmindedly going through my backpack.

Half of my efforts was towards finding pieces of forgotten candies in there which always makes my day. As soon as I turned the corner towards the gym I stopped in completely in my tracks. Right around the corner, Kuroo was with Yui and they were kissing. They were definitely making out, but I turned around so quickly so that they couldn't see me. My heart was going a mile a second. I felt tears coming already.
I walked away quickly before I was spotted. I wanted to go home. I've never skipped practice before because I knew Kuroo would say something but I don't even care right now.
I was in luck when I didn't run into anyone from the team when I left school grounds.

Kuroo such a goddamn idiot. I knew kissing came with having a girlfriend but that was like in public! Tears was already streaming down my face half way home. However my face remained neutral. I didn't want this. I need to be alone.
I arrived at my house shortly and quickly so that my mom wouldn't see me. I know she'll be coming to my room soon so I wiped my face thoroughly. I sat on my bed calmly and stared at the floor.
My thoughts were blank for a moment. I was already starting to cool off. I was starting to rethink the fact that I skipped practice.
The image of Kuroo kissing that girl made me miserable again. I should not be acting this way, I'm trying to move on dammit! That idiot can play around with girls all he wants, I don't care. 'But obviously I do care...'
I laid down on my bed and grabbed my PSP from my bag.

There was then a knock at my door. It was my mom who peeked inside looking quite concerned. "Kozume, you're home? Doesn't your volleyball practice not end until 7?" She asked. I didn't look up from my game.
"...didn't feel like going today." I shrugged.
"Oh, alright." She looked unsure but left anyway. I sighed, feeling a little guilty. I ignored it however. Kuroo would understand right? Probably not. He's probably trying to call me right now. I stared at my bag, too lazy to get up. Even if he was trying to contact me, all I would get is a lecture so I ignored my phone for the time being.

Kuroo leaned against the frame to the gym entrance with his cell phone up to his ear. He called Kenma like three times, but he won't pick up. This is odd.

First Kenma ditches practice, then he has the gall not to tell him why! Kuroo text him as well but Kenma hasn't sent a reply. He's usually really good at replying because his cell phone's always on him.
Kuroo clicked his tongue after being sent to voicemail again. He pulled the phone away from his ear. "What's the situation?" Coach Manabu came up behind him.
"I can't get in touch with him." He said.
"We'll probably find out from him tomorrow, but right now we need to continue on with conditioning.
"Right..." Kuroo put his phone back in his bag. He was worried about his short friend. He decided to go visit his house after practice to see what's really going on. It isn't like him to just ditch like that unless he had a real reason for it.

Right in the middle of dinner time, the doorbell rang. I froze mid bite. Fuck! That must be Kuroo! I cursed mentally.
"I wonder who that could be." Mom stood up to go answer the door. I stood up quickly as well.
"I-I gotta go use the bathroom!" I said then raced upstairs. My mother gave me a strange look of confusion. I went into my room and contemplated whether I should lock the door or not. I didn't have much time to think as I already heard footsteps coming up the stairs.
I hid behind the door as it was opened. "Kenma, I know you're in here!" Kuroo waltzed in my room. He immediately knew I was behind the door and grabbed my wrist and held it up.
"Ah! Let go!" I complained as I struggled in his grasp.
"Why weren't you at practice today? And why are you hiding from me?" He demanded. I continued to struggle until he let go finally.
"So what if I didn't go today! I just needed a break sometimes you know!" I huffed.
"Yeah well why didn't you text or call me? I called you like five times!" He fumed. I looked away from him with a deep pout on my face.
"Don't waste your energy..." I muttered coldly. He gave me a questioning look. Kuroo then sighed. He walked up to my bed and sat on the floor with his back leaning against the frame.
"Kenma, what is wrong?" He asked. "You've been acting weird lately." I almost flinched at his words. 'So he noticed, huh?' I thought humorlessly. Kuroo really could read me like a book. He's the only one that can notice whenever I'm bothered by something or even when I'm excited which is an emotion I rarely tend show.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I said casually as I climbed into my bed. I purposely turned away from him
"Dude, you've been so unresponsive to me lately! Well, more than usual. You're freaking me out! I'm not being too mean to you am I cause-"
"Oh my god, shut up nothing's wrong alright." I groaned as I turned on my PSP. I glance at his face for second seeing that he had a devious expression on. That worried me a bit.
"You sure?" He poked me in my side which made me flinch.
Oh no.
He kept poking me in the same spot. "Fuck, Kuroo stop~!" I tried not to laugh. He knows how fucking ticklish I am.
"Tell me and I'll stop~" he said evilly. He climbed onto the bed as he continued his onslaught of tickles. I screamed.

This went on for a few moments because I refused to talk. "Kuroo! You fucking-AH stop! You're making me have to go pee!" I wheezed. Kuroo then let me up.
"Alright, I'll spare you. But you're lucky I just don't want to be peed on." He laughed. I chuckled as well. Kuroo can be such a big nerd sometimes. I left the room towards the bathroom.
When I was done washing my hands I walk back to my room to find Kuroo looking at my phone. "What the hell are you doing?" I demanded.
"I was just looking at the messages I sent you but then I decided to look through your screenshots and wow." I felt like throwing up. "Kenma what's with the gay porn on your phone?" Kuroo said with an amazed face. I gasped and immediately snatched my phone away from.
"What the FUCK Kuroo! I knew I should have changed my lock password when you figured it out!" I yelled. I am also now regretting saving those screenshots of hot guys all over each other. Most of the tops kind of looked like Kuroo to me.

My face was extremely red right now. I can't believe he looked at those pictures! I hope he didn't realize that most of those guys look like him. "I-I don't see what's the p-problem..."
"Kenma, are you actually..." I avoided Kuroo's gaze as I clutched my phone to my chest. I wish I could just disappear.
"Wh-what's wrong with that?" I stuttered. I felt like an hour passed before Kuroo said something.
"Haha, is that why you've never been interested in the ladies? Hmm, you think you know a guy." Kuroo laughed. I rubbed the back of my head.
"Hehe, yeah...I guess." I said uncomfortably. "I've never real told anyone that. I guess you're the only that knows about me."
"Well, no one is 100% heterosexual, right? I'm not even that straight." Kuroo said humorously. I perked up a bit. I didn't want to look excited and I'm hoping my face didn't give it away.

"What do you mean? Are you saying that your...bisexual?" I said carefully. It was Kuroo's turn to look embarrassed. He rubbed the back of his head a laughed a bit.
"I mean if we're exchanging secrets right now, yeah... Don't tell anyone, hehe!" He said bashfully. I laughed shyly as well. I felt so awkward. But the fact that Kuroo's bisexual made me a little happy. I feel like I have a chance with him now. I wish I could have known this little piece of information before he got a girlfriend.
"So is that what's been bothering you?" Kuroo pit his arm around my shoulder. I tensed. "Are you trying to come out?" He asked. I looked at him incredulously. Like I'd ever tell anyone I was gay until I was at least out of high school. I'd be signing my own damn death wish.

Kuroo then put on a seductive face and grabbed my chin. "Or are you trying to confess to me?"
My heart skipped a beat but I scowled. "A-as if!" I huffed. I was hoping I wasn't blushing.
I feel little better about this. I guess I feel a little silly now.