Everyone always thought I was the stronger one of the two of us, but in truth it was always her. I'm not just talking about power level wise either. Even in the beginning when I truly was the stronger priestess. She always had that inner strength that no one could seem to stop. I'm ashamed to say even I tried at one point. At the time I let my jealousy get the best of me. Now all I feel is pity. I have all I could ever want. She has nothing.
Everyone loves her. Even I in a way. And yet she is the loneliest soul I have ever seen. All who claim to love her betray her in some way. Her first love wavered in his devotion too many times for her to forgive. Her second couldn't accept her for what she was, humanity included. Her third never really bothered to think of the consequences of her living with him. She tried so many times to be what they wanted. But she never could deny who and what she was. The Shikon Miko. A human woman. I don't envy her that burden.
I sometimes gaze at the horizon and wonder where she is and what she is doing now? I know my husband thinks about her constantly. I may have his body but she will forever have his heart. We sometimes hear rumors about her. I see how my husband stares longingly in her direction. This must be how she felt all those years ago. Except I think this is worse. He has a family now. Sometimes I almost wish she would come back just so I can apologize. The feeling passes quickly.
I know she will never come here. She has too much honor to cause such distress. I see my children tackle their father and I can't help but laugh at their antics. If she were to come back would they be enough to keep him here? That fear is always in the back of my mind.
The demon lord stops by once in a while. I think he does it to see if she has returned. Him and my husband talk about the good old days. Sometimes I catch them both looking at me funny and I know they are thinking about her. When they do that I just want to do something, anything, to show them that I am me. I'm not her, I'm me. I want to shout this at the top of my lungs but they quickly turn away in shame. They know this habit of not seeing the person in front of them is why she left in the first place.
The other members of the old group moved to the demon slayer's village. They blamed me for her leaving. My husband denies this but I know he secretly believes this too. I wonder if they ever see her. How does she do it? How does she have so many people love her and yet still be alone in the world? Yes she was always the stronger one. Maybe someday she will know how sorry I am. In the mean time I can only pray for her happiness and hope that it doesn't tear apart my family.