The story takes place after season 2,the Garuda is defeated and Bo has become the unofficial queen of the fae, she and Lauren had brief relationship but dark bo took over . I am not going to follow the arc of the 3rd season as I am looking forward to put the characters through new and exciting adventures J I do not own any of the lost girl characters , showcase does ,this story is purely for entertainment written because of the long break until season 4. English is not my native language so bear with me. Reviews and comments are always welcome.

Ps: this is my first story

Ps2: I'm a music addict, so in order to get a better feel of the story I'm gonna recommend some songs to listen along while reading the chapters

Lykke Li - Until We Bleed

Lana del rey-Summer wine

Florence + the Machine-Only if for a night

First Chapter

Hi…my name is Lauren , Lauren Lewis. I'm a woman and a doctor and I haven't seen her in 4 months,3 weeks and 2 days. I shouldn't define my life by her, but I do…it's sad, I know, that a smart, beautiful, talented woman would do that, oh well at least that's what she called me "smart, beautiful and talented". I sometimes think that when she left something died inside of me, but it wasn't my love for her unfortunately…it was my sanity. In the first days I thought of begging her to take me back only if for a day but thankfully I was stopped every damn time by Kenzi, the goth cool chick who surprisingly took my side, the human side. Her mantra was :"you're better than this, she left you, she left us ,she doesn't care", she kept repeating those words to me like they were an expired 90's pop tune, but it worked… I stayed away from the queen and her minions. She was now oh so powerful and rumor has it, even more beautiful .She had an open relationship with surprise ,surprise Dyson and a valkyrie ,the perfect combination: rough, comfy and no emotional mumbo jumbo.

Dark Bo didn't need to feel love, feeling that was seen as weakness, so was i…lust on the other hand was the never ending supply of power, at least that's what I heard. The breakup had taken me and even kenzi by surprise ,I wasn't good enough ,strong enough, brave enough …Not Enough was the word to describe her wonderfully rehearsed monologue. I bet dyson had something to do with that, that guy hated my guts from day 0.1. Anyway ,the memory is still a blurr for me ,I do remember tears streaming down my cheeks, my breathing becoming shallow and 3 words escaping my lips: "i…love you" and then darkness. I woke up to someone slapping me, the kenziest kenzi out there came to check on me, apparently I had been out of it for 2 whole days, talk about heart ache problems ..sheesh. From that day on we became friends and also room mates, because kenzi couldn't take the trio's nightly display of…fulfillment. Life has changed a lot, but for the best...so we thought.

It's July 25th, Lauren awoke with a groan…she couldn't believe a year had passed once again. She shook her head and lightly laughed at the thought of becoming old, older. 30 was a milestone as her mother said once , the race to get settled and have kids was finally on. She had heard the same speech since she was 16,find a kind wealthy man, marry him and have his kids, become the perfect housewife and be obedient, learn how to cook and listen to your husband, do this and that, don't do this and definitely don't do that. At first it was somewhat funny that her own mom didn't know her at all, she had big dreams none of which implied becoming Peggy Bundy. So she followed them: graduated early from high school and college, became a doctor, enrolled in the army and finally told her mother that she preferred women. It shouldn't have come as a surprise really, but her mother treated her like she was sick…hence the lack of communication now.

Shaking those thoughts the woman sighed as she rolled out of the bed, she wondered how the day would play out, nothing would be able to beat last year's celebration: she had felt loved ,wanted…important for the first time in her life, but that was short lived after all. As she pondered the day suddenly a small, skinny figure all but ran into her bedroom tackling her on the king size bed.

- "Happy birtdaaaaaaay , Hotpants !i wish you wealth ,and happiness ,and wealth once more. You are waaay to sober for a girl who's turning 30…OMG ,you are so old!"

- "Thank you kenzi, you remembered! But I think it's a little early for shots .I have to go to the compound , check on my cultures ,finish that report on the autopsy of that nasty fae snake, hale has been pressuring me for days and I don't want dyson to make a scene once again!" The blonde whispered while remembering the wolf's last visit which ended in a crass rant about her incompetent race.

- "Okaaay, you win. But tonight we are so going out. Vex is going to tag along as we have organized a surprise for you .So, no questions asked, at 8pm we'll see each other at the Dal!" the Russian girl stated while having a serious tone.

- "But, Kenziiii…I haven't been there since, since…and I don't want to meet… her.I don't know if I am strong enough to deal with all of it."

- "Lauren, really now, it's been 5 months, bo's become this gargantum bitch, she won't remember your birthday and I bet she won't even be there. She's been busy fucking every breathing, crawling thing out there, and I'm not whore shaming now, but she has changed a lot. She isn't our Bo anymore."

- "Okay…but if something happens, the blame is all on you!" said the doc, while flooding memories engulfed her mind.

- "Relax, it's gonna be fine. We'll have some fun, this beat is sick, I wanna take a ride on a disco…"

- "KENZI! Stop quoting Lady Gaga lyrics, I get the idea…and as you know I'm not so fond of sticks !"the blonde smirked as she made her way to the bathroom to get ready for work.

- "Jeeez, doc…got your panties in a bunch?! Just be there and stop moaning already". Kenzi said while bouncing off the bed and heading to the kitchen for her favorite bowl of cereal.

The day flew by for the doctor, fortunately she manage to get all her tasks done in record time. The only disturbance was Hale's visit , he congratulated her on her birthday and gave her a letter, asking her to open it at midnight. That intrigued the good doctor, but she wrote it off as a spa gift, or if she got lucky, a 2 day vacation. In the months following the garuda battle she and hale got closer, kenzi being the catalyst of course ,Lauren would almost consider him a friend ,if he weren't the Ash. She tended not to trust men having that title anymore.

It was 7 o'clock and had plenty of time to head home and get ready .She took a shower and for the first time in months she felt like dressing up, even putting on makeup .She chose some black silk pants and a sleeveless silk black top ,the flimsy top actually left little to the imagination as it was almost see through .Lauren knew she had to up the game by choosing the sexiest black lace lingerie. She wanted to make a boom with her appearance, as the past months had been tough on her. After getting dressed , it was time for hair and makeup. The doc opted for straight hair and warm colors to bring out her beautiful eyes. At a quarter to 8 she was ready, grabbing her red handbag and putting on stilettos Lauren was grinning at the thought of kenzi being so proud of her…the goth girl was the fashion police times 10.

The drive to the Dal had only taken 5 minutes , her convertible red Audi made the ride swift and enjoyable .There were perks of being the light fae's chief doctor, owning a fancy car was one of them. As she closed her car she began thinking about Hale's letter, but shook the thought of it, and promised herself to enjoy the night…she deserved to let loose. The now sexy dressed blonde entered the Dal, as she was scanning for Kenzi and Vex, her breath hitched in her throat…Dyson was sitting at the bar chatting away with a blonde woman, a very blonde woman…a valkyrie type blonde woman.

Regaining her senses , Lauren spotted Kenzi and made a bee line for her, it was her birthday after all and she was determined to have fun. In a corner table Kenzi and Vex awaited the arrival of the birthday girl, Lauren suspected they were already drowsy as Vex was wearing a birthday cone shaped hat and Kenzi kept whistling. "This was going to be a long night", the doc reckoned. As she arrived at the table she was rapidly engulfed in a big hug by the young woman, ignoring Vex who was not so elegantly ogling her figure .Before being able to sit down, two people came to their table…the same two people Lauren had tried to ignore…Dyson and the Valkyrie.

-"Oh, well…what do we have here ? The Ash's human pet…I thought you understood you weren't welcome here anymore" the wolf hissed while rubbing his beard.

-"I take it you're Bo's little human fieldtrip experiment? " the valkyrie added with a condescending tone.

-"Hey, back off" ,the goth girl fired ."Lauren was invited here, Trick gave me his word and protection .Now I would really like it if you would just let us be", Kenzi added hoping for some support from the Mesmer

Lauren was not hearing any of the exchanged comments, when dyson and the valkyrie approached, she sensed the air shift in the room, she felt that someone she knew all to well was going to show any minute now. The doc couldn't explain why she felt bo's arrival, it had been almost 5 months and no contact whatsoever,"I guess some things never change", she bitterly thought as she was brought back by a high pitched yell. It seems that Vex was having a bit of a laugh with Tamsin, the valkyrie, she'd forced her to pin Dyson on a nearby table and dry hump him like a sex crazed bunny. Her ego wasn't going to be the only thing bruised after that night…

-"Vex, stop it! lauren intervened .We are here to have fun and that's all.I am sorry for intruding in your special location, but I do have some rights , even though I am a "pet .One of them is being allowed in here ,occasionally."

-"You have a strong death wish" the wolf added after finally being able to escape Tamsin's grip ."I should end you right now" he sneered.

-"I'll lend a hand" the valkyrie added.

-"Guys ,guys…calm the F down" kenzi began,"we didn't provoke you, Lauren didn't provoke you .If I didn't know better I'd say you two are hating on the doc for no apparent reason"

-"Oh they do have a reason" a feminine voice erupted from behind making Lauren's skin shiver. She knew who that sexy voice belonged to, she'd yearned for months to hear it call her name.

-"Dyson,Tamsin…leave!" the same voice added ."As you can see ,you are not needed here" Bo finished her sentence as she sized up Lauren outfit, she took in her curves as her eyes flashed blue.

The two listened to the succubus and left in a hurry,swearing that it was the last time they would let Lauren be. Vex, Kenzi and Lauren sat in silenced shocked by the unexpected display of authority.

-"So,Dr. Lewis…Happy Birthday" the succubus chirped.

Lauren was stunned by the brunette's appearance and by the lack of regret in her eyes. How dare she show up after 5 months and act like it was all ok ,like she didn't break her heart in a million pieces .But the doctor knew better than to show her raw emotions ,pissing off a succubus isn't the smartest thing to do so she opted for the formal approach:

"-Erm ,thank you…you're highness. I, we would like to get back to our party" Lauren said trying to block her emotions.

-"Highness my ass, Bo get lost!" kenzi snapped, "you've got some nerve to show up now after all the shit you pulled !we don't need you here as you made perfectly clear that you don't need us in your perfect life anymore. You were my sister Bo, I trusted you, but when you left Lauren, you broke my heart too. What happened to I choose humans,huh ?you point blank lied to our faces .So excuse me if I don't have the tact the good doc has…GO!NOW!"

Bo was taken aback by the blue eyed girl's reaction, as tears streamed down her face she leaned to comfort her shaking figure.

-"Don't…*sniffles*…touch…*sniffles*…me!" kenzi added while backing away.

Lauren sat up from the table and placed herself in front of kenzi blocking bo's view ,she wanted to protect the girl not knowing how was the succubus going to react.

-"I'm not going to hurt her" Bo whispered.

-"I don't know that anymore" Lauren backfired.

-"I could kill you both if I wanted" Bo's rage was starting to surface as her eyes started to flash blue.

-"So what's stopping you? You don't love us, you never did…you used us for a while and now you've moved on to better things" Lauren nonchalantly pointed. "That's a common behavior for fae and also for psychopaths, they're void of emotions, they lack empathy , they are incapable of love and understanding…they're monsters, and so are you!"

As the last word rolled off lauren's tongue she knew she'd regret it immediately .Bo's eyes were glowing blue as her stance screamed attack. The next thing she knew, bo's hand had gripped her own and she found herself being dragged into the bathroom, and as the door was closed kenzi's shouts were suddenly silenced.

-"What do you want from me?" the blonde shouted.

-"You said I was a monster" Bo sneered," I just want to prove your point" the brunette added while slowly closing in on Lauren ."I really like your outfit tonight but I think it's not going to be necessary in a few minutes".

-"Really, Bo?! You're going to rape me on my birthday ?!Really classy for a queen I might say.."

-"it's not rape if you enjoy it" bo smirked.

-"What the flying fuck happened to you?" the blonde whimpered as bo cornered her," you might be able to make my body want you but my mind will never give in. You broke me bad Bo, you chose them. Now leave me alone, I never was yours to begin with and I will never be. I hate you succubus, you're a fucking animal, all you want is sex, that's all that matters to you!" cried the blonde while violently trashing her arms in a futile attempt to keep the brunette away. -"If I give my body willingly will you let me go?

-if I whore myself to you ,like you thought the Ash ordered me to do, will you let me and kenzi be? is this what you want?" Lauren screamed as she ripped her blouse in half revealing her lace bra." Take me, come on ! i'm just a human ,I'm bound to be used by the almighty queen anyways" Lauren cried and sinked to the cold floor of the bathroom.

Bo was speechless, she knew that she had hurt the 2 humans in her life but she didn't know the extent. She promised 5 months ago to protect the two women from herself ,she felt her control slipping and thought that pushing them away had been the best choice. The past months had been hard on her, she filled her bed with nameless lovers in order to forget her feelings, she wanted to numb them down. When she broke up with Lauren, the monologue was actually referring to her, she wasn't strong enough to fight her nature, wasn't good enough to win over her dark side, she wasn't enough for the super smart and sexy doctor.

When they broke up, she made sure Kenzi took lauren's side, she wanted them to become friends , to take care of each other because she couldn't anymore. Dyson and Tamsin were her lieutenants, they were trustworthy and easy on the eyes, they made her forget…almost.

A whole minute passed before Bo could react. Lauren's shaking form was still on the floor as she heartbreakingly cried for herself, for her love and for bo .This wasn't the birthday she wished for, heck this wasn't even her life anymore…most of the days she felt like a pawn ,a stupid white pawn.

She heard Bo approach and braced herself for the attack ,she knew how voracious succubi could be, she first handed enjoyed that not so long ago ,but this was different…in her mind this was rape. Lauren was surprised when she heard sniffles and didn't have the chance to look up because the brunette engulfed her in a bone crushing hug…

-"I'm so sorry ,I didn't…I couldn't…I would never hurt you" bo whispered." this is why I had to make you hate me, this is why I had to make you leave…I can't control myself, I truly am a monster "

-"Whaat?" the blonde asked while still trying to break the contact.

-"Don't", bo said ,"I won't hurt you…i…just want to feel you near…I tried to forget this ,you…us, but I can't I can't live without you you have always been mine and I have always been yours. It sounds so cheesy but I'm hollow without you, please I need you…even if you hate me now.

-"i…i…don't hate you bo, just…I don't trust you"

Lauren herself couldn't have imagined this turn of events. She was hugging the perfect form of the queen succubus, the body fitted her perfectly as her memories of countless nights of passion flooded her mind. She knew her aura had spiked probably to a ten as she felt bo tense in her arms. The blonde knew she was now holding her precious bo, the real one, the full on insecurities woman, the goofball the perfect attentive lover…her soulmate.

She then suddenly realized that she had all the power, she held all the cards...lauren then shifted in bo's arm earning a low growl, the succubus really didn't want to part. But the doc had better ideas ,she slowly disentangled from the embrace and with her right hand cupped the brunette's face forcing her to look into her own eyes, the look of regret and pure love hit her hard and she couldn't control herself anymore. She leaned in hovering a few inches from Bo's face and as bo tried to protest, she lightly bit her ex lover's lower lip earning a deep moan .

Feeling proud of her influence, she leaned once again and slowly started to kiss the succubus ,and as the kiss grew hungrier she was able to skillfully slide her tongue into Bo's luscious mouth and thus beginning their "dance". They weren't just kissing, they were melting into each other,their ignorance was bliss. Parting in order to breathe, Lauren pressed her forehead onto bo's watching intensely as the succubus was still tasting the kiss on her lips…the image was the sexiest thing she had ever seen.

No words were exchanged as bo helped Lauren up and headed to the door, she then remembered that lauren's blouse had been ripped and immediately offered her red leather jacket .As she opened the door, she looked back and said:

-"I am sorry, this won't happen again…I will let you and kenzi be", and before Lauren was able to react, the succubus disappeared into the crowd.

Lauren felt like crying once again, as kenzi stormed into the bathroom asking if everything was ok. She could see Lauren was shaken but she couldn't figure what had happened…and it was only half past nine.

-"She loves us" Lauren finally said.

-"SHE WHAT?!" kenzi couldn't believe her ears.

-"We're gonna fight for her,she needs us to save her" the doc added.

This was indeed the weirdest birthday ever,but at least she had hope now,she knew that her bo was still there waiting for her rescue.

TO BE CONTINUED…