Nothing felt right, anymore.
Nothing felt safe, anymore.
Nothing felt normal, anymore.
Nor pretty.
Nor special.
Nor important.
Nor worthy.
Nor happy.
Nothing.
What did I feel?
Sad.
Angry.
Frustrated.
Worthless.
Hopeless.
Ashamed.
Disgusted.
Pathetic.
Useless.
Dirty.
Unwanted.
Childish.
Ugly.
A loser.
Washed up.
If I could just rewind time...if only I could just go back. Tell myself, no, dont go down that road, it'll mess your whole life up.
But here I am.
On my knees again.
Caught up in pain like an avalanche.
Nothing compares to this sorrow
This pain
This life
Tearing at my heart.