"Kill them. Kill them all."
My final words have been sent. All I have left, is to die. I wonder, will it be painful. I wonder, will I meet my father. I wonder, will I perish. I wonder…..
Death is the final unknown…..
I regret many things. Just as any member of mankind would. I regret coming to this wretched place. I could have lived…. But being the human I am, I never really had a choice. It's as I said. I was plagued by doubts, fears, and mysteries... But curiosity blinded me. It made me ignorant and stupid. It made me risk everything and for what…..
I wish death would come… I now understand Red's desire for his own end. The waiting, it is unbearable. Being left with all the time in the world to ponder on my failures and regrets. It is unbearable! All the while knowing what I now know! If only I could have never existed at all. I wish I could have left no trace of my existence behind. Maybe then my wife would not have to become a widow praying for the day her husband would come home. Maybe then there would be two less children growing up without a father. Maybe then there would be no man grieving over the death of his brother who had followed in his mother's footsteps. Maybe then…..
I long for the chance to take back what I have done. If only I was not so submissive, I would not have incinerated my best friend. If only I was not such a fool, I would not have crushed my hopeful companion. If only I was not human, I would have lived. If only…..
When? When will they come for me? When will they realize that I have not stayed true to my word? When will they recognize my true intentions? When will they kill me? When will they kill mankind? When will mankind kill them? When will everything end? When will… When will…. When…..
I take comfort in this one fact.
Death is the final unknown…..
- Philip