Author's note: Hey, guys! I'm back to writing! :D I had exams for the past two months and they are finally over, so I have some time to write. Unfortunately, I failed two out of six, so I still have to study, but I have more time and less to learn.

Anyhow, I'm really into Yullen, since I finally finished the first season and the second season started, so I'm really into it. Since I didn't write for so long, my skills are a bit rusty now and maybe it is all over the place, but I really wanted to get back to writing so bare with me, until I get back in shape. This one will be a multi chapter fiction, since I didn't want to put everything in one chapter. I'm also working on another Yullen fan fiction, I don't really know when it'll be up. As for this one chapter, it is short, nothing much happens. I want to develop the story slowly and try not to rush it as I tend to do. I'm planning to upload at least one a week, maybe twice, depending how much time to write I will have. :)

Apologies for any grammar or spelling mistakes.

Warning: This is yaoi, which means boyxboy. If you don't like it, please, don't read it!

Disclaimer: I don't own -man, nor any of the characters, Katsura Hoshino does.

'Inner thoughts'

Flash back, talking in dreams

I hope you'll enjoy reading and that you'll like it! :D

Love, Shiori

Allen was walking through the hallways towards his room. He had just returned from his mission and he was extremely exhausted. He had just ate and now, everything that he wanted to do was to go to bed, sleep and rest. As he was passing by Kanda's room he slowed down his pace. Kanda was on a mission with him, but he got injured.

'I wonder if he is back from the infirmary, if he is okay now?', Allen wondered. 'Maybe I should go and check up on him. No! No way! I'm not going to check up on that idiot!', he shook his head.

"What the hell are you doing in front of my room, stupid Moyashi?", asked the voice behind him.

Allen snapped from his train of thoughts and turned around to look at the person behind him. Kanda was standing, with arms crossed over his chest and was looking at him with annoyed glance.

"My name is Allen, Bakanda! Get that in your brain, if you have any!", Allen retorted.

Kanda frowned, now really agitated.

"Some words you spoke there. I see you have a death wish.", he spoke threateningly.

"Whatever. I was just going to my room."

With those words, Allen walked away, leaving fuming Kanda behind him.

"What an idiot!", Kanda said out loud and walked into his room.

He hissed, when the pain shot through his injured arm. The good thing was that Kanda's wounds would heal faster than a normal human's wounds. He was exhausted and sleepy. Kanda was angry at himself for not paying enough attention and getting hurt. Why did he had to look at Moyashi and jump to help when he was in trouble. No, that had no meaning. He did it on the whim, because it had to be done. Akumas had to be slayed. With that thought, he lied down on his bed and closed his eyes, letting himself to fall asleep. That was what he needed now.

Allen rushed into his room, slamming the door behind him. Why is it that Kanda manages to make him angry so much, in just a matter of seconds? He was worried for him, even thinking about paying him a visit to see if he was okay, since he did hurt his arm pretty badly and this is how he acts. Remembering the last fight, he suddenly came to realization. Kanda wouldn't get hurt if he didn't try to help him. It was Allen's fault. If he had only payed more attention and wasn't so reckless, Kanda wouldn't have to interfere.

'No, it's his own fault. I didn't ask for his help.', Allen tried to convince himself.

He took of his day clothes and changed into the ones he was sleeping in. Crawling back in the bed, he pulled the covers up to his chin.
Allen remembered that in all his anger that Kanda awakened in him, he didn't even asked him if his arm was alright now.

'I'll ask him tomorrow. Or I'll see it tomorrow.'

Allen's eyelids were heavy and it was hard for him to keep them open. As soon as he let his eyes close, the sleep crept in and he fell asleep.

xxxxxxx

Allen woke up early the next morning. He was hoping to sleep in a little bit, but he wasn't that lucky. Getting up from his bed, he got up and changed his clothes. His arms were shaking which was unusual for him. He lifted them and touched his face, noticing that it was wet.

'Did I cry?'

Then, he remembered the nightmare he had. It all made sense now, him shaking and crying. In his dreams, they were all dead. The level V Akuma appeared and attacked the Black Order, just like level IV. This time, not even Marshals could help. They were all fighting to the best of their abilities, but it was futile. Allen saw his friends die, one by one, in front of his eyes. No matter how hard he tried to protect them, how hard he fought, he didn't manage to kill it, he wasn't able to save them. The first one to fall was Lavi, then Lenalee, then Bookman and then Kanda.

'Kanda.'

His tears started to flow again, remembering the samurai's arms being cut off and then, getting stabbed through the heart. Kanda was shouting at him to run away, but the only thing that was on his mind at that moment was that he can't let him die. He felt immense pain when Lavi and Lenalee died. He didn't know why, but seeing Kanda die was even more painful, he felt like his heart has been ripped out of his chest. Akuma pulled out his weapon from Kanda's chest and he started to fall. Before he hit the ground, Allen caught him and started to run away with samurai in his hands. "Stupid, Moyashi, I told you to run away.", Kanda managed to say before his eyes closed forever.

That's when Allen woke up.

"That's just a dream. That's just a dream. That's just a dream.", Allen repeated out loud.

"Yes, that was just a dream. I will never let that happen. I can't let that happen. I need to calm down."

His stomach growled. Allen was still a bit shaken up, because his dream seemed too real, but he had to get some food in his system. He got up from his bad and started walking towards the dinning room. Opening the large door to the dinning room, he walked in and went to the counter to order his food. Allen looked around, feeling huge relief when he saw Lavi and Lenalee sitting together, chatting with smile on their faces.

'They are fine. I really need to calm down. It was just a nightmare, get that in your head Allen. Forget about it already.'

Jerry informed him that his food would be ready in a few minutes. Allen looked around once more. It made his heart warm to see all of his comrades and friends there. They were his family now. Then it hit him. One person was missing.

'Where is Kanda?'

A fear filled his whole being once again. Allen rushed out of the dinning room, running towards the infirmary.

"Kanda!", he yenked the door open, startling the nurse.

"What the hell are you doing, Moyashi?"

Kanda was sitting in the chair, annoyed, while nurse checked his wounds.

"Allen, you can't just barge in here just like that!"

"Kanda, you're alright.", Allen let out a sigh of relief.

Kanda looked at him shocked.

"Why wouldn't I be alright? I don't need you to get worried over me."

"I'm not worried."

"Yeah. Right.", Kanda wasn't convinced.

'What got over him? He didn't really think that this small injury would get me. Tch.'

"How's your hand?", Allen asked him.

"Get out, Moyashi. You're annoying.", Kanda turned his head away from him.

'Why is he acting this way?'

"It's Allen, you idiot! You can at least answer."

"My arm's fine. Now go. Why do you care?"

"I don't.", Allen closed the door and walked away, back to the dinning room.

Both Kanda and the nurse didn't know what to think of Allen's behavior.
'Does he even realize how contradicting he is?'

"He's definitely gone mad.", Kanda stated.

Nurse didn't say anything to that, she unbandaged his arm, seeing that the wound almost healed.

"Kanda, your injury's almost gone and seems fine.", she told him.

"I can see that much.", he got up from the chair and walked out of the infirmary.

He still didn't eat breakfast so he headed to the dinning room. Kanda knew that white head always worried about others more than about himself, but there was something else in his eyes, when he entered the infirmary. There was a fear, a huge fear, then such a relief and then something that he couldn't explain. If samurai was more familiar with all the emotions and feelings, he would say that what he saw was love. The way Allen looked at him when he called his name, when they were bickering at each other, he couldn't find a real anger, that you would expect to find when you're arguing with some. Allen's eyes were always soft and caring, even when they threw insults at each other and he couldn't understand why it was like that. To him that was a mystery. Kanda wished for those questions and thoughts to go away, but they just kept appearing and every day, he had more questions and no answer. Navy haired exorcist wasn't sure if he really wanted to get an answer or not, so he strained himself from asking.

Samurai walked in to the dinning room, going to the counter and ordering soba as always. As he was walking towards his usual seat, he noticed the piles of food and soon after a white head popped up between them, startling him a bit. Kanda was expecting Allen to frown or give him his stupid smile that he always wore, but he didn't. Allen just looked at him, with that same emotion in his eyes, before averting his gaze and going back to eating his food. Navy haired exorcist still stood in his place, confusedly looking at Allen's table. He got a strange feeling in his stomach and chest, that he's never felt before. It was scary. Why was this happening to him? What was the younger boy doing to him?

'What is wrong with him? What is wrong with me?'

Kanda shook his head, going to his table.

'Stupid Moyashi!'

End note: Thank you so much for reading, I hope you liked it! :D