Right... I had this weird sentence stuck in my head, and I just knew I had to turn it into a one-shot XD Momo unknowingly chose Jean for the starring role, and strangely enough it wasn't that hard to write. Although I think I made him sound a little like Ed in some places. XD
Sorry for the language, guys T.T
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I feel like I'm falling off a cliff.
First, you get the excitement and adrenaline from being somewhere so dangerous. You enjoy the rush so much you completely forget about the danger, and you really start to push your luck by going as close as you possibly can to the edge. If you still don't fall off, you begin to lean over the edge. Or maybe stand on one leg, just to show you can.
Then, you lose your footing. You slip. You fall. For that millisecond, your brain goes into overdrive as it figures everything out. You get a sudden burst in your heart that makes you want to experience it all over again, like another boost of adrenaline.
And then comes the realisation: the realisation that you're falling, and you might die. You will hit the ground, whether you die or not, and fuck it's going to hurt.
After that, the fear, less than a second after the initial shock. It hits you full-force in the chest and your heart begins to hammer. It gets painful, almost, and your breathing gets harsher. You're suddenly shit scared now that the adrenaline's been left behind on the cliff top, and your mind begins to run through a list of things to solve the problem quicker than you could have ever imagined possible.
Then you calm down. You calm down, you pray to god, you think of your loved ones. You try to hope. You try to hope you're not going to die, however much you truly know you probably are, because humans are weak and humans don't like accepting brutal facts like that.
After that... well, I guess you don't feel anything. Either because you're dead, or because the pain blocks out everything else, probably.
I'm not quite sure on that part.
Why am I even talking about this? Because this is exactly what it feels like for me now - the best comparison I can find to lying in this hospital bed, clutching these blankets, wondering and waiting, god it hurts so much, until the doctor comes in and tells me whether I'm ever going to walk again.
I'm still falling.
A bit angsty. I was trying to swerve away from the pitfall trap of Mary-Sueness, so please berate me and set me on fire if I turned Havoc into one. Or just ask Roy to. Either way. T.T
Havoc's one of my favourite characters :3